New Song: "Enough" (Original iPhone Demo)

Well, yikes! This feels insane and incredibly vulnerable and strange, but also exciting and good and right. I have never released an original demo prior to releasing an official version of a song (and even then have almost never released my original demos!), but you all are family, and I am so excited to be writing again (thanks to all of you), and I want to let you in :)

Because this is the first time I'm doing this and I'm a little freaked out, I'm going to take a moment to teach you all about the incredibly delicate creature that is an artist sharing their newly born baby for the first time :) (I know I confuse people using the term "baby"--no, I'm not talking about a human baby! We're talking songs, here, k?) 

Songs are already super revealing things. They're basically diary entries. So let's even just pause and think about that for a second. How scary would it feel to let someone read your diary?! And how much would you want to hide in a cave and never come out if they were then like "meh, your deepest darkest feelings could've been said better"!? 😭

Also, there's a certain delicate magic that hangs in the air after I write a song. It feels like hope and possibility, like the portal to song-world is still a little bit open and I know I'll get back there again. If during these early stages someone were to throw a little pebble of doubt into my head, that portal zaps away, and there's no more magic portal light shining on my new song baby, and then probably the song baby starts to wither and look sad and then I leave it out to die. (WOW that got dark.) But I guess that's why I tend to keep my songs to myself for so long before sharing them with the world.

Last thing to know! These iPhone demos I'll be sending you--while they are newly born and super raw and maybe not 100% settled in--they are, in fact, complete, fully-formed songs. I tend to finish songs in one sitting, and once they're done, it's like an invisible force field lowers around them and makes them impenetrable to tweaks and adjustments. So while it might be tempting to make suggestions, just know these babies are in fact their full adult selves already, save for maybe a few notes or words here or there that might shift over time. 

Ok I'm sensing that I sound a little crazy. I love you and I trust you and I want to do this and I know you'll be kind to my babies (even if you secretly think they're not very cute ;) ).

So anyway, I am so happy to introduce you all to the newest member of the KG Records family, my song "Enough". I'm not sure when or if this song will make its way to the general public, but until that day comes, I'm happy to know it has a home with all of you. Lyrics are below, song above, and you can download it here as well.

Lots and lots of love to you all <3

xo

Kina

p.s. A lot of you mentioned being curious about my songwriting process and I would LOVE to get into this more with all of you! Since I've already written you a novel here, we'll save it for another time :) Perhaps we can delve into that at our Hangout next week on the 28th. By the way, don't forget, you're all invited to this one! Details in the event link here: https://www.crowdcast.io/e/xwme0svm 

Enough Lyrics

I'm not sorry it came out that way

Speaking a word at all is cause to celebrate

Do you remember back when we were just kids

I sat for hours just for nothing to come of it

I wasn't trying to pick a fight

It's just that it's hard for me, don't know how to do this right

I'm not accustomed to use words in this way

Without a melody I just can't find the words to say

I will be enough

I will be enough to love

You're getting tired, can't open your eyes

I'm doing the best I can, and I'm doing just fine

If you weren't so patient then what would I have done

If I weren't so broken then maybe we could have fun

I will be enough

I will be enough to love