Whoever you are, I hope you're okay

So everyone is tired. And it sucks. You can see it pretty much everywhere - online, in real life, the epidemic of loneliness. And yeah... it's a lot. There's wars and financial turbulence and even the threat of nuclear destruction. It's heavy. And I don't think we always appreciate the toll it takes on us. All that noise kinda numbs us. But when we stop and think about it, it's no wonder we feel all the icky and complicated things we do.

At this point, I wish I had something really poignant to say, but I don't. I don't think there's a cure all. I don't think there's just one thing that'll do the trick to make it all work out. I think, most likely, it's us just doing what we can in our own little corner of the world.

This is honestly such a dump of a post, but I'm on my period and feeling like punching myself in the face because I haven't recorded anything. So, baby steps and being healthy and all that.

Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm sorry if you feel tired and burnt out. It can be rough. I'm extremely privileged and I feel it a lot. Like, it's fucking ridiculous. But I still do. I don't mean to be tone deaf, or condescending, but I never thought I'd get to be as lucky as I am, and I'm still prone to 'ah, fuck off and let me rot.'.

There's a lot of good things about life, but there's also a lot of noise and frustration. Somedays, the thought of going in the booth and trying to act like a horny demon or a thoughtful girlfriend is just so exhausting. Somedays I honestly just feel like 'I can't do this. I don't know what to say. I can't act. I've never been able to do this. I can't. I can't. I can't.' And it's ridiculous because I am so lucky to have a job like this. But I can't help it. It is what it is.

I don't really know what this post is supposed to convey besides: I understand, if you feel this way too. I see you. And I promise you that you're doing a good job. Even when it doesn't feel like it.

Whoever you are, I hope you're okay.

P.S. You're not alone in feeling like this is too much. It is. But, at least we have wifi.