Where I've been...

To more so get to the point, I've been depressed as of late. Across the past few months my primary function has been going to and from the Hospital to see my father and hope that he would pull through his heart condition.  One I was there to witness happening as we were driving him back from a checkup.   He had intended to take us to the store and get us some steaks to celebrate his health improving.   It was that moment he went into cardiac arrest and we rushed him to the hospital.  He woke up and we talked and they airlifted him to another hospital to get better treatment and my mom I talked to him on the phone that night.  That was the last conversation I had with my father where he could verbally reply back to me.   And the last time I ever saw my dad truly awake.   

He stayed in the hospital for months as his condition both improved and worsened but there was always hope, he beat the odds several times in the hospital and I felt this was as great a sign as any he would come back to us.   But there was hope.. till there wasn't.. and I was there the night he passed away.    

A lot of joy and passion I had for anything seemed to go along with him, and I realized that a lot of the things I enjoyed in life and many of the things I looked forward to were because I could include him in them as well as my mom.  He made all events fun, he made all moments funny.  Even though he knew full well the kind of work I did, he could always find a way to make me laugh about it. I would give anything to hear him call me from animating something to come help him with a video game.  Or trying to figure out how to make the controller or remote work.   

Or just to hear his voice again...   

The loss of him sent both my mother and I into a downward spiral of depression and lack of motivation.  I have only just recently started to find myself again, thanks to the support of my loved ones, my family and the people in the NSFW community, creator and VA alike that were there for me in this rough time. They all know who they are, and I thank them with all that I have.  

Now for all of you that have been supporting me all this time.  I intend to start posting semi regularly again in the coming days, providing with content as well as works in progress and updates.   Sometimes I'll be able to make the long animations you've become accustomed to and other times they might be shorter animations that I can manage, either way there will be content.  

Thanks those of you that are still here for your patience and understanding.  The time has come to try to rebuild things and I have tried to write this several times in my head but I just decided that I just needed to rip the band-aid off and explain what the past year has been for me.  I intend to make this year a much better one.  Not just for myself but for my family and for the fans that support me if at all possible.  I appreciate and adore you all, I will never lose sight of how much your support has helped me.  And I shall be repaying back that support in full and then some.   Thank you <3  

Till Next Adventure,
- MMJ