Distorted
Added 2021-05-01 03:32:25 +0000 UTCEmotionally hurt and deeply troubled Jasper feels like he's failing Lili again, Jasper tries and tries again and yet he's no closer to waking her up. secretly Jasper is holding onto Lili's memories afraid if she finds them she will know who he truly is, a monster.
Jasper feels like he is sinking and no matter how hard he tries to swim he will continue sinking, Jasper had moments when he could of told Lili the truth yet he never did. Jasper feels selfish because he is selfish and manipulative because he is manipulative.
Jasper tried to change he tried to be a better person yet his own anxiety takes a hold of him and he is unable to focus and he slowly begins to hate himself again. Maybe its for the best, maybe she should know the truth...so she can hate him....again.
