Update 03-02-22: Feeling Defeated, But Will Keep Trying

Hey guys, I’m sorry I’m late with Patron rewards again. I’ve just had a long day, or rather a long few weeks. So remember when I was so excited to begetting a new custom made PC built? And possibly getting a new job? Well neither of those worked out.

My pc’s graphics card turned out to be defective and it was not working. Nothing was showing up on screen. We assumed it was a power source issues at first, because the lights were turning in but the fans were not spinning on the graphics card. So when my buddy tried to test it out using his power source, the build killed his power source. So now he has to use mine while we wait to get another one. After discussing things with my tech friends it must be the graphics card. So this PC build is not gonna be happening any time soon until we can replace the graphics add and the power source.

Atm I rented out an office computer to hold me over for now because my old laptop is on it’s very very last legs. And I was hoping to us it for my new job, that leads me to my next bit of sad news.

As for the new job, I had such high hopes and I shouldn’t have. it wasn’t because of my skills but rather where I lived. Apparently, despite the company operating globally, I am not eligible to work in that company because I live In a territory. So they were not able to process me further. I’m having my friend talk with her boss and her mom who also works at the company. However at this point I just feel very very defeated and depressed. I was making plans and was so happy to move on my life with a new PC and a better job. But everything came crashing down and now I feel very disappointed. But I’m obviously gonna keep trying, I applied to a bunch of places just in case and even more so after receiving the bad news. I just hope one of these stick but I was really hoping for this new remote job. But I guess yet another disadvantage of me living in a territory.

I feel like every time I try to improve my life or move on, nothing get better. But I’m not gonna stop. I wanna cry, I really do, but I’m gonna keep trying to get through this. If anyone has any suggestions for remote work, even if it’s a sales or customer service job, please let me know. DM me or something. Don’t post it in comments.

There is some glimmer of hope, I did get a call back from one of the jobs I applied to. I meet with them Thursday, may not be remote but so it’s better than nothing. But I will not get my hopes up.

As for the rest of Feb’s  patron rewards I will try and finish them as soon as I can….but again I just feel so depressed and defeated right now and it hurts to even draw, or even type this out. I promise  I’ll keep trying. But I just feel so tired. But again I can only move forward.

Thank you guys for all the support, your patience, and your love.