Update 9-28-2020: Highs and Lows

Hey guys, so it's been a month since I got back and thankfully I've been able to complete the Patreon rewards pieces for the most part. So chances are they will be out by the end of the month. At the moment I am taking in commissions but only like two at a time.  And already one of the two slots are filled. I've been able to keep up with my commissions list of over due pieces that's good.  Thank you guys who are still supporting me via Patron, Liking, Retweeting or Sharing my work. You guys  are a great help. 

In other news my part time job will be opening up again. How frequent it will be I am not sure. I will be getting the rest of my schedule this week.  Hopefully it will not disrupt what I have planned for October.  I have a good feeling my hours will still be pretty minimal because we're operating under certain restrictions but we'll see.  I  still have a good feeling about October though. 

I'm still babysitting my nephew , however, mom has been working from home so that makes things a little bit easier but I still gotta watch him.  No my mom still hasn't paid me back which still irritates me. 

 Speaking or things that bother me, that lead into my depression. I've managed to get some more medication which helps me  manage my mood. However,  I keep running into Low points. That's how depression works. Sometimes it will come out of nowhere and hit you hard. And there are times when I stupidly forget to not take my meds. I'm gonna keep trying my best to get this under control. 

Although there have been small and big stressers that really don't help. Sometimes I feel like every time I come into a high where I believe everything will be okay, I then something comes along to ruin it or disrupt my mood and shoot me into a low again. 

My Pandemic Unemployment Assistance isn't gonna come in till next week, my brother is asking me to help him with his car, mom is begging me for a new stove and fridge, I've had to cut so many people out of my life that past few years I don't know if I can trust certain people anymore,  I still need to get parts for my car, my packages keep coming in late (not the USPS worker's fault though) I feel like my memory and vision keeps failing, been trying to keep my sanity after over a month in a second lockdown, and then there's everything in the political scene that makes me worried about the next four years.  (I stay informed and all I can say is VOTE)  I also feel like I'm just disappointing to certain people in my life which is a never ending insecurity that stay lodged in the corner of my mind.

It's just stressers big and small that keep pushing me back into a low point but I'm doing my best to keep my sanity and keep calm. Eating right, showering, working out etc, But there are still moments where I wanna cry.  But I'm just glad I still have supportive followers and friends in my life.  

I hate to have to ask this but if you guys could try and cheer my up...that'd be great, 

Thank you guys for being in my life....