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Last night I got the news that my best friend, podcast cohost, and bandmate Nicky passed away suddenly. I don't know that I'll ever quite find the words to articulate just to what degree they were a beacon of optimism and of creative energy in my life and in so many others', how much their natural wisdom and exuberance challenged me to always be the best person I could be, what a constant their presence has been in my life through so many ups and downs, and how much their work has meant to me. But above all, I'm so grateful to have known Nicky these past ten years, I'm so grateful to be so close to so many other people they touched in the same ways with their boundless love and earnestness, and so I'm grateful I was able to share some of our time together with an audience who understood us so completely. I want to thank you for enjoying all of the amazing things our friendship brought out of us, and of the limitless insight, humor, and kindness Nicky had to share. Let your thoughts be with their loved ones today.

Comments

I'm so sorry... sending love to you and his family

SaltyGB

I'm so sorry for your loss 💖

Nicole Turkowski

My deepest condolences for your loss. I only really knew Nicky through listening to your podcast and some of their's, but they seemed like a truly wonderful person, and I'm so thankful to have known them through the way they talked about the art and music they loved. Take care, hazel.

SogekingVinesmoke

I’m so sorry for your loss. Take all of the time you need

Lauren hoaglin

I’m so sorry for ur loss. The goblin bunker tribute last night was beautiful, much love to you and your loved ones

Shreddie

I just lost a friend too. It hurts. I'm so sorry.

Kirran Somerlade

I can't believe it, this is so terrible. My deepest condolences, they will be missed so much by so many of us. My best wishes to their family, friends and to you

GenerallyBananas

I am so sorry. My deepest condolences to you. I'm glad I found both of your content in the past couple of years. It's been a joy to hear so many cool recommendations and conversations from such lovely people. I'll remember them.

Michael Tri

My deepest condolences to their loved ones. I always really enjoyed the perspectives and great vibes they brought into the podcast...

KrasserBub

this hurts a lot, and i just knew them from a distance through their art and commentary and podcasts, but they were profoundly inspiring and their passion was infectious.. condolences to everyone who knew them

blogbourri

I'm sorry for your loss. My thoughts go to Nicky's family and all their loved ones. I always loved the energy Nicky brought to your podcasts. Their music recommendations always seemed to come from a very deep place (of love, of understanding) and their enthusiasm for it was so genuine, it was always wonderful to listen to. Take all the time that you need.

Arthur Besson

im so sorry, hazel. ive been there and i feel for you.

Creamer

I'm so sorry for your loss. I only recently started listening to the podcast but even in that short time I already felt like I knew Nicky and could tell they were a kind and vibrant soul. If there's any way we could help their family in this time I know I would be happy to contribute to a fundraiser or help in any way I can and I'm sure other fans and Patreon supporters would too.

Kay Vekos

Oh Hazel. I'm so sorry. Be kind to yourself, and I really hope that you have all the support and love you need to get through this.

Allan Begolo-Wyatt

I’m so incredibly sorry… They seemed like a truly special person; their infectious enthusiasm was always something to look forward to. Please take good care and be especially gentle with yourself during this dark time 🖤

Daniela

Oh my god! I'm so sorry for your loss hazel. Take as much time as you need.

Jeff Ladd

i'm so sorry, hazel. nicky's enthusiasm and warmth was so infectious to me and it has been so comforting and heartwarming getting to listen to the two of you vibe with each other over the past little while. i will miss them. they will be missed. my thoughts are with you and yours, please be well <3

mara raine

I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️

Michael Graps

I am so sorry hazel. Listening to Pod Spirit & Human Insects has given me such spectacular glimpses as to the brilliant and funny person Nicky was. I remember there was an episode of the pod where they talked about wanting to be like an 'older sibling' recommending all the cool alternative music and anime to the listeners of Human Insects, and, even though so much was cut short, I think they executed that beautifully. I will forever remember Nicky as the cool internet person that got me into my now-favorite band, 12 RODS. Do whatever you need to do to grieve. I wish you and Nicky's loved ones comfort in this dark time.

Macks Cook

Oh my god, I'm so sorry🫂

Alexandria Cina-Bernard

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Devin Fitzpatrick

Holy shit I'm so sorry to hear this =( I cant even begin to imagine what you're going through. Please feel free to reach out if theres anything you need. I know I'm just a stranger on the internet, but I'm in the area and am always happy to lend a hand to someone who needs it. My thoughts are with you and all of Nicky's loved ones ❤

newbanZo

Im really sorry for your loss, my thoughts go out to their family and loved ones.

Marie Emari

Damn, so sorry to hear that. Take care and time to grieve.

lwelyk

They inspired me to be more enthusiastic, kind, and grateful even in my short time listening to them. im so sorry hazel ❤️

oli_d

I'm sorry for your loss, wishing you and their family and friends peace and comfort.

Juan

I'm so so so sorry. Just a stranger sending you love.

Kai Vee

So sorry to hear this :( Thoughts are with you.

Casper Rawshark

I'm sorry. Please take care. I'll always remember Nicky as a warm, celebratory spirit. </3

Margot K

Nicky was always a joy. They got me into so many things and their pure passion made every day better. Reading jump every week won't feel right without them

Leisdog

so sorry to hear that :( take care of yourself ❤️

Josh Peters

Take care.

Hymncat

Im so sorry for your loss Hazel, take alll the time you need for yourself and your loved ones

Bob in Hiding

I'm so sorry, that's the most awful news I could think of. I too lost my best friend this past year. You're not alone and although the grieving process is hard, you will come out stronger on the other end.

Maple Wyand

I'm so sorry that this happened. I never knew Nicky personally, but from the little I've read and heard, you two must have been close. I can't even imagine losing someone that dear. Please take care of yourself and much love to you and Nicky's friends/family.

Konnor M

Condolences Hazel; I was actually listening to the podcast last night. They seemed like an amazing person

dayruru

human insects and pod spirit have been daily listens to me for months now, it's kept me company on lonely days, and I said as much on twitter but if Nicky passing so suddenly is this devastatingly heartbreaking to me just from the little piece of them I got to know through the podcast, through their writing and through their music, I can't imagine how it must feel for those who knew them personally. I regret never taking the chance to talk to them like I always wanted to, I always admired the level of joy and passion they exuded about everything. I'm wishing you and everyone who knew them the best, and like everyone's been saying, don't feel like you've gotta go right into the next video or anything, take care of yourself and give yourself all the time and space you need.

Geno7

I’m so, so sorry, Hazel. Sending love to you and their loved ones 🖤

Davis Y.

🖤

OJ

So sorry for your loss Hazel :(

Stephen Favell

I am so sorry, Hazel.

Hunter Clifton Mann

I'm so sorry for your loss Hazel. Nicky was always such a joy to listen to on the podcast and It was always so inspiring hearing them speak about the things they loved. Gonna be rocking a ton of Petalfold and Burned In today in their honor. Sending you and their loved ones all the love in the world.

Emily Curran

This is genuinely devasting. My heart goes out to Nicky's family and loved ones.

Nicholas DeRosa

May their memory forever be a blessing to you and all who knew them

Elias Rosner

I’m so sorry! Rest in peace, Nicky

Male Tears

I'm so sorry for your loss.

arseholetep the insufferable

<3

Yoko The Spacewhale

i'm so glad we got to know them for even a little while. i'm so, so sorry. <3

somefeatures

I'm so sorry for your loss, sending condolences and well wishes <3

Elijah Sadiky

❤️

Nesta

I can't imagine how you must be feeling at the moment, I'm so sorry to hear this! Sending love to you and all other affected <3 <3

Powercell Zeke

♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ take as much time as you need, I am so sorry for your loss

Eduardo and Kate

I'm shocked and heart broken. I'm so sorry for your loss. Wishing you and their friends and family well.

SegaMan

Sorry for your loss Hazel. I hope you have peace and support during this time.

Belle Damned

unimaginable news. Please know, if you need to carry on as close to "the usual" as you can, that's ok, If you need to take a break, to stop, to stop and start and stop again, that's ok. We're just internet strangers, please don't do what you think we want. do what you can

Larseny Teale

I am so sorry for your loss, Hazel. I'm grateful for the existence of Human Insects which allowed me to get to know Nicky a bit before their passing. The chemistry between the two of you was immediately obvious and it made the podcast all the more of a joy to listen to. I know that you sometimes stress yourself out by trying to get videos out within a certain timeframe and I can't really speak for anyone else here but I know that I would certainly be understanding if you needed to slow down or take a break from YouTube for a while. Whatever you do, just remember to take care of yourself

Beano Nintendo

I’m so sorry for your loss

Asta

I'm so glad to have learned a little about them through the podcast, you two were such a joy to listen to. Take your time to grieve, Nicky will be missed <3

Brongus Le Dongus

oh my god. I don't even have the words. I'm so sorry. they'll be dearly missed.

BatFlashes

I'm so sorry for your loss hazel. Losing a close loved one is never easy. They will live on in our hearts. Please take whatever time you need and take care of yourself. Sending lots of love 💜💜💜

Adelaide Lohkamp

Sorry for your loss. Sending condolences to you and everyone who knew Nicky. RIP.

Juan Nunez

I’m so sorry. Please be kind to yourself today and take all the time you need.

Hairclipzz

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Doogle

I’m so sorry about this. I really loved listening to both of you. They had an intoxicating fervor for anything they talked about and encouraged me to find so many of my new favorites. I hope you and those close to them can find comfort.

AshbelEro

So tragic. Praying for your friend and everyone who is mourning. Be well.

No Good

I’m sorry for your loss Hazel. I only knew them through their content but even then there was a sense of excitement and enthusiasm that was so infectious. They’ll be missed dearly and my thoughts are with their family and friends

Maverick

i’m so sorry for your loss hazel :( please take all the time you need to rest!

cheesecakewitch

oh no, I'm so sorry. they were such a special person, they'll always be in my heart

nico

I'm so sorry for your loss. Hang in there and take all the time you need. We'll still be here

sarah

I’m so sorry Hazel 💕

Feid

This is so terrible, I’m so sorry for your loss Hazel. Nicki seemed like such a great person and like so much fun… they will be missed so, so much.

arandomfox

I'm sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and with Nicky's loved ones.

DeCoster_Makes_Dating_Sims

💜

Ashe Dreamthief

Holy shit Hazel I am so sorry

Guillermo Lukowsky

Sorry this has come to pass, they will be missed

Madeline Hampton

I'm so sorry 💛

Brooke Connell

I’m so sorry Hazel. They brought me a lot of joy during 2022. It’s so unfair and awful.

philanthropistDog

I'm sorry for your loss, our thoughts are with you and their loved ones.

Skelecopter

I only knew Nicky from the podcast, but they were a great person. My condolences to you and their family.

David Portnov

I am so sorry for your loss. May their memory be a blessing.

Fox Auslander

Sorry for your loss hazel

Chicanery

So sorry for your loss.

Maeve Victoria Roth

Hazel I am so sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need to heal.

Vibrii

I'm so sorry for your loss Hazel, and my condolences to you and their family and loved ones. Nicky will be sorely missed.

Gabriel Mobius

I'm terribly sorry for your loss

Kallie

🖤🖤🖤

Danielle Tanimura

Major condolences to their family and loved ones, and you too Hazel, so sorry for your loss.

burymewithmygamecube

I’m so sorry for your loss Hazel, my thoughts are with you and Nicky’s friends/family today

Asher Levy


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