A message from your needy ASMR creator 💌✨
Added 2025-07-22 15:35:01 +0000 UTCHello, guys!
This post is going to be a bit different compared to my usual ones here, because I feel like I don't really connect with you enough aside from sharing my audios with you guys.
I am kind of living under this impression that my style as a creator is just... messy. I try so hard to make it worth it to support me, but no matter what I do, somehow it just never feels right or enough. I'll keep trying though.
But I'm seriously determined to calm down this messy side eventually and deal with it once and for all, find a steady rhythm and workflow. I want to be able to give you more content through the month, more exclusive content, videos included. And ideally be able to come through with voted options much faster than I am currently able to. I have so many fun ideas and concepts, so much drive and fire to make it all happen, but most of the time I'm simply limited by my housing conditions and the fact that I need to take breaks and sleep a few hours at night. Ugh what a waste of possible productive time, right?
I am not a content machine but a human being with limited inspiration and physical ability to get stuff done. That's not directed at you by the way, never. You've always shown me such immense grace, I couldn't possibly ask for a better community. But that is more of a reminder to myself, because I'm treating myself as a machine... a bad and very low productivity one. And as much as I'd like to have it easier somehow, I can't really let go of some of those essential parts of creative process and outsource them, like many other creators do with writing or editing. Maybe this will change one day, but definitely not for now. Because I love writing, I love recording and editing, and if I take it all away... where's creativity then?
All this to say that I know I could probably do better somehow, and I'm trying my best to figure a way out, tailoring it to my current situation. However, better days are coming, so I just want you to know that I am fully aware of all the parts that need improvement. Just thank you for staying patient with me and believing in me no matter what. I just hope to be worthy of your support and be able to keep pushing through until we finally get closer to the point where I'm making you and myself proud as a creator. After all, the fact that I can even plan for future and hope for anything better and brighter ahead at all is thanks to you and your support. So thank you for all the kindness you've shown me on this journey.
In endless search of perfection,
Solar x
P.S. I'm really sorry if this post seems weird or too much. You've probably never had to support such a messy and emotionally-needy creator before.
Comments
As someone who struggles a lot with productivity - a desire to do things, get things done, create things, its a good reminder that we are human. We need breaks, we need to do other things so that the creativity can flow. "pouring from an empty cup" so to speak. Recognizing these things is the first step to reconciling with it. It's a part of us - but you shouldn't feel guilty for needing to take time for yourself either. Life is meant to be messy - we aren't meant to have it all figured out all at once. We can only due the best we can with what we have and what we know. My motto has always been something along the lines of: "We are meant to be, when and where we are meant to be - and not a moment sooner"
F0X 🦊
2026-01-08 04:37:55 +0000 UTCNo matter where you explore on your journey, I see it as a privilege to be given the opportunity to experience it with you. As we all journey along our path of self improvement and expanding our horizons, there’s always room for improvement. But that improvement doesn’t mean what we did previously was “bad”. Every thing you make is wonderful and beautiful and it’s always a treat to see anything you put your heart and soul into! Keep taking steps forward, and work with confidence that we’ll all be here to catch you if you ever stumble 💕
Star Dust
2025-08-25 11:40:46 +0000 UTCHonestly, you're the best I've listened to. Every character has their own personality, and is different from each other. All that matters is that you do what's best for you. Please don't burn yourself out, you've got an awesome community that loves you and is very accepting, which is very rare these days. Do what's best for you, take a break if you need to. Messy or not, I'm still here. I may not comment nearly as often as I used to, but that's because i got personal stuff going on. But I'm still here :)
Common Sense, Bane of Humanity
2025-07-25 11:15:57 +0000 UTCI have a few thoughts on this. I think being self-critical and taking time to reflect on oneself is a valuable skill, even if it means never really being content with oneself. However, I think it shouldn't take overhand and totally warp your self-perception. I also make content, but I don't make money off of it, so maybe I can't put myself in your shoes. Even then, I think the "what" is way more important than the "when". Of course, the YouTube algorithm may disagree. But I would never outsource work where I can leverage my creativity instead of giving it away. So, yeah, if you hadn't written this text, I would have had no clue this was bothering you. I can see there are some issues, but from the outside, I think it doesn't look so bad.
Artey
2025-07-24 20:35:13 +0000 UTC
