Just A Small Update... (and possibly a blooper? idk)
Added 2024-02-03 22:17:17 +0000 UTCHello, guys!
Just a quick heads up, this is not my usual cute or funny blooper, it's a peek into the harsh reality of my past few weeks. Nothing too dramatic, just a sad moment and a stressed-out girl.
I've been struggling to record my audios lately since my housing conditions have been far from ideal. They're never ideal but lately it's been much harder to find a quiet hour or two to record my audios in peace. Something that would take me only a day now has to be dragged on for three, and it's been ruining all of my plans and my scheduled upload time.
Usually, I tend to just deal with these things on my own in silence, but I've been having a hard time lately, beating myself up for not being able to upload everything I've been working on in time and drowning in shame over it basically. Even writing this now feels like some sort of a personal defeat that's evoking this immense feeling of guilt. I hate being helpless or weak, and right now I'm feeling both, to be honest with you.
I know things will get better soon, they always do. But I just wanted to let you know that I'm working behind the scenes and not just leading you astray or being inactive with my uploads here or on YT on purpose. I always thank you for staying patient with me, and you honestly have no idea just how important it is for me to not let you all down. So once again, thank you for that, truly.
I hope to upload something for you soon, despite everything.
Solar
Comments
Thank you 🥺🫂
S
2024-02-18 22:17:22 +0000 UTCNever discourage anyone who continually makes progress, no matter how slow, including yourself Sending you hugs and cuddles <3
CharalamBOSS
2024-02-05 20:34:53 +0000 UTCGuess the main issue is that I think less of myself because of that, on your behalf 😔 But having your support makes things so much better, truly. So thank you for that 🫂🤍
S
2024-02-05 10:01:02 +0000 UTCAll of this is so true... 😖 Wish we wouldn't have to go through that, but I guess that's inevitable part of the process. It's so comforting to have a fellow creative who understands the struggle and can bring a lighter note of hope into the conversation. Thank you for sharing your experience and trying to comfort me, this truly means the world to me 🙏
S
2024-02-05 09:57:29 +0000 UTCThank you for always being so supportive of me 🫂
S
2024-02-05 09:52:21 +0000 UTCThank you! This is more than I could ever expect, really. I truly appreciate all the kind words 🙏💜
S
2024-02-05 09:51:33 +0000 UTCKnowing that makes me feel less anxious 🫂 Thank you so much for expressing all of this! 🥺🙏
S
2024-02-05 09:47:14 +0000 UTCOhh I'll never say no to a hug from you, Nargles! 🫂 Thank you so much for being here and supporting me through it all 🤍
S
2024-02-05 09:44:52 +0000 UTCThank you! And I'll try my best, I promise 🤍
S
2024-02-05 09:43:13 +0000 UTCThank you so much for your kindness, this means a lot to me! 🥺🙌
S
2024-02-05 09:42:24 +0000 UTCIt can be really hard to divide the two sometimes though, but we'll get there one day 🫂🧡 Thank you so much, it's a great quote shared at a perfect time! 🙌
S
2024-02-05 09:41:28 +0000 UTCThank you, this truly means so much! 🫂🤍
S
2024-02-05 09:38:44 +0000 UTCThank you so much for saying that 🥺💜
S
2024-02-05 09:38:00 +0000 UTCThank you! Doing my best to make it happen as soon as possible 🙌
S
2024-02-05 09:37:29 +0000 UTCThank you 🫂💕
S
2024-02-05 09:36:47 +0000 UTCSolar, none of us are thinking any less of you because life is getting in your way. We all have things that slow us down or hold us back. We get it and we're here for you! I want to make it very clear that we love you 🧡🫰🏻🫶🏻
Josiah Horton
2024-02-05 09:12:02 +0000 UTCSolar, please accept a visual hug from me. I can imagine the frustration :-(
Nargles
2024-02-04 13:10:22 +0000 UTCI am truly sad to hear that things are really rough for you, however please do not be hard on yourself at all. Life is full of things that we can not control. No matter how long it takes to make an audio, no one here will think any less of you. Stay strong and know we are all here for you💛🫂
Holy_W@rrior
2024-02-04 03:36:24 +0000 UTCIt greatly saddens me to hear this. I and others greatly appreciate your work and desire your peace of mind. I wish I could offer further words to help without sounding cheap or unintentionally invalidating your experience of things at this time. (That is not to say that the other comments are disingenuous).
Altinus
2024-02-04 03:14:40 +0000 UTC🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 that sounds frustrating, thanks for all your effort. They take as long as they take. Hope you have quiet days ahead.
Babble
2024-02-04 02:29:24 +0000 UTCThere are always some difficult moments that we wish we could control, but on which we cannot really act. I'm very familiar with the writer block and the feeling of not being able to output anything – great or at all – is heart-shattering. I believe we all treasure your work and we are happy to support you, including throughout those times of vulnerability. Doing something for yourself and taking care of you in the meantime is important and we'll be glad to wait as long as needed for your standards to be met. 💕
Cadensia
2024-02-04 01:26:54 +0000 UTCYou’re totally fine, so don’t beat yourself up! I’m sure we’d all rather you take the time you need over rushing things and stressing out to keep to a schedule. Take care of yourself first and foremost!
Python
2024-02-04 01:21:54 +0000 UTCI’m sorry you’re having such difficulties and feeling down. I, for one, don’t mind you taking your time and working only when the situation (and the mood) is right. All my best wishes and good vibes for thing to look up for you soon!
PapaNovember
2024-02-03 23:28:22 +0000 UTCI have a quote saved in my notes: “Your self worth doesn’t depend on your productivity, it’s okay to just exist sometimes” Not sure who said it unfortunately 🙈 but take a moment for yourself Solar, do something you enjoy and recharge, you can always try again the next chance you get ☺️🧡
ThatOrangeGhost
2024-02-03 23:04:06 +0000 UTCPlease don’t be too hard on yourself 🥺. You’re doing your best and that’s what’s more important. No matter how much time it will take, that will always be so much worth the wait. We are not going anywhere 🫂🤍
OceaneZw
2024-02-03 22:47:03 +0000 UTCIt’s not your fault, we can’t expect the world around us to be ideal for us all the time so don’t be too harsh on yourself. And don’t worry, you can never ever let us down, we’re all human after all, everyone has ups and downs. I know you’re trying your best and that is all I can ask for.💜 🫂
Anton Mattsson
2024-02-03 22:41:56 +0000 UTCNo worries Solar, can't wait for uploads whenever they happen. Take care.
Esseck
2024-02-03 22:40:24 +0000 UTC🫂 its ok, dont worry. There are things in life that we cant control. we know that you are giving it your all even under those circumstances 💕
Haru
2024-02-03 22:22:37 +0000 UTC
