Enough is enough.

That's it, I'm done, I've had enough. Anyone who has followed me long enough knows I've been caught on a loop of small bursts of motivation and months of creativity block. For the past days, I've been trying to fix my sleep schedule, 'cause I completely lost track of time, the only certain thing lately was that I've been on a streak of taking my dog out for a walk early in the morning, that has been my biggest achievement for the past and it's pathetic.

Starting today, I'm grabbing my life by the balls. Game development might not go turbo mode, but certainly I ought stop making excuses for the lack of productivity. Every time I looked back on my eroge progress, I felt a bitter taste that it might all be in vain, and I would be lying if I said that I was unaffected by being rejected in every "eroge hub" for the most ridiculous reasons, such as "your sh*tas look too young" just because they are not packing 6 inchers. I found myself scratching for bits of reasons to go on, that I should probably pivot my creativity towards other genres and abandon ship on this project. No one wants to make effort over a lost cause.

That pessimism blinded me, made me unable to see how privileged I am of having such supportive people around me. As some of you may know, for the past couple of years I took a dive; went head-first into the world with no support from my family, all I had was this bunch of perverts who had my back at the end of every month, and helping my projects with all sorts of stuff - but there are some things only I can do. I want to pay you all back, the very reason I engaged in eroge dev. was that I felt like "giving back to the world for things that I consumed", meaning I wanted to make my own eroges so people would get the same feeling as I did as I played other people's games.

Anyways, it's time to end this series of procrastination and start "an otter" chapter. Thanks for sticking through this rant once again (even though this time is not a rant about my controversial opinions).