Hello from Carmel

Hey everyone, this is the 2nd blog I'm writing today. I lost the 1st one on my flight this morning. I'm currently in Carmel for a photoshoot, but it's a super quick shoot (sunset today, sunrise tomorrow), so I'll be back in my bed by tomorrow night.

So ...hmm. I'm always apprehensive to talk too much about my personal life, but whatever-maybe yall are interested in that crap lol.
In May I had a major 4+yr relationship break up (I know the fantasy is that I'm always single and available, but I'm basically a serial monogamist and I probably haven't been single more than 3 consecutive months in my adult life). The whole experience has been pretty overwhelming and difficult, with lots of tears and self-reflection. I can't decide if I'm unrealistic in what I should expect from a partner, and it has shaken my confidence at my very core. It has also just made me think that it's time to focus on myself. I'm an overly generous person and I tend to put myself on the back burner for other people. so now I'm in that unique grieving place in between excitement over pure freedom to focus on what I want, and absolute sadness from losing my best friend. I really want to be angry, but at the end of the day he's a good person, just not "my person."
I am starting to get reinvigorated to work on projects that I put on the side when I started seeing him. I also recently decided I would like to write a tv show or movie. I have an entire story in my head that needs to be put on paper ASAP. If anyone has any recommendations for writing workshops or script classes, please let me know. I have no background in this sort of thing, just a really good idea.

I better get going, I have to be up in 6 hours to shoot. Good night everyone, thanks for listening.

xoxo
Carlotta