Chaos is my life

I'm sitting in a chair at the hair salon waiting for my dye to take hold and trying to think of all the things I need to do. Make brownies for a party tonight, get sorted for Chicago, advertise that I'll be at exxxotica, message photographers I'm booked with. Find a new apartment. Bring the dog to the vet. Go to the pharmacy. Update billing. Do photo editing. Post more on patreon... So here I am, lol. 

Letting you all know the details of my life. A member on here told me they want to know more about the little things in my life, they want to get to know me more...so here we go. My roommate and I have decided to go our separate ways (totally amicably) when our lease ends in July, and I'm completely overwhelmed by the rat race that is the Los Angeles housing market. Rent and buying prices are through the roof (a 1 bedroom will run between $1400-2000 a month), and I've gone to view probably 20 locations and every one of them has been a craphole, or have 30 other people applying all at once. 

The biggest issue is that I own a 15yr old dog. I would never consider getting rid of her, but finding a pet friendly place is difficult in general...add in that shes elderly and I REALLY want something with a small yard without stairs so her arthritis isn't irritated and the search falls into a price range that is almost unreachable. *sigh* send me positive vibes. When I return from Chicago at the end of the month, this is going to take over my life for probably a good month. Perhaps I'll find another roommate who doesn't mind naked Burt Reynolds above the sofa, but I know my quirky taste is an acquired taste. 

Lately I've been a bit burnt out with modeling and haven't taken a lot of shoots over the last month. I think I've just needed some time away because im starting to feel some inspiration again. Every once in a while I just look around and get bummed out with my field, and I'm sure my birthday has a lot to do with my current attitude. 

Choosing a career path so reliant on looks is a harsh path to take. It is so difficult because I REALLY love the creativity behind it, but when people wont even book someone over 28, there is a problem. Artists generally don't care, but LA and their castings are so fickle. There's such a big movement for body positivity, but ageism is completely ignored. I think I need to do a good tour soon, and work with people who make me feel like we're making something worthwhile. I should reach out to some local artists too. I need to find people I love collaborating with that are close by. 

This morning I got yet another cat fishing message. There is some dude using my photos and scamming people for a lot of money. https://www.facebook.com/K3lly.williams Feel free to report them. I already have several times and Facebook just tells me they aren't violating any rules...seriously, how is identify theft not violating rules?! I think this person has several accounts, please do not give this person money. I know they have private accounts on Instagram as well. My name is not Kelly Williams, lol. 

On a positive note, I had such an amazing bday. I threw a big 70s disco party, got drunk and surrounded myself with people I love. I truly have some of the best friends on the planet and I've been so fortunate to meet most of them within a matter of months of moving to LA 2.5 years ago. ♡ *breakthrough comment* my hair dye didn't take, and she's dying it again. She insists birth control keeps my hair from holding color properly. I'm sure that could be the case, but I've been on the pill and dying my hair since I was 18...hmmm. maybe this is a good time to consider bleaching it out and going blonde.*** 

Anyway, I am total rambling, but I hope you All enjoy the mundane parts of a model's life. I head to Chicago this week and will be attending Exxxotica. Please come out next weekend and meet me! 

Xoxo Carlotta