LET'S WATCH: One Direction "This Is Us"
Added 2024-10-17 23:14:20 +0000 UTCThis isn't for right now, if you're not ready. But I've been so broken and in desperate need of fond memories so this was a journey I needed to go on, maybe some of y'all do too.
One Direction was everything to me, no exaggeration, everything. My first years in college was when they debuted and I was hooked from the jump. They made me fall in love with boyband pop unapologetically and as an older male fan I felt somewhat isolated in my love. As a young musician and aspiring artist, I performed every song in my bedroom, thinking maybe one day I'll be making music with the band one day. Silly and foolish hopes, but hopes that made me push myself further into making and loving music. My earliest covers on youtube were 1D songs before I ever started doing reactions, my first album reaction ever was to Zayn's solo project. The responses of those videos were what started me actually building a community on early youtube. Fans of the channel who have turned into my real friends I still know and love. Everything changed for me when I started covering 1D because I could feel the mutual love reciprocated back to me. I simply wouldn't be on the internet as passionately as I am about pop music if 1D didn't open that floodgate. so many of my nights were defined by jamming out and dreaming of going to a 1D concert. I never got to go but this movie was my concert. these boys felt like my best friends. and I am in utter disbelief that Liam, the glue, Mr. First Verse, is really gone. having these emotions as loud as they are is just how I process this horrific tragedy. I know so many fans out there are hurting just like me so when you're ready you can watch This Is Us with me it will be here. this is a free video because grieving shouldn't be behind a paywall. Rest in Peace Liam Payne and long live One Direction.
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my three sisters and i have been 1D fans since the first time we heard WMYB on the radio in my crappy little nissan sentra when i was 16 and my youngest sister was 4. all four of us WERE the target audience even with such a huge age range, and we all have such fond memories. im 29 now, and my youngest sister is 17. we talked the other day about how she will never know what it was like to experience the peak of 1D's fame as a teenager, and i will never know what it was like to experience it as a child, yet both of us (and the two sisters between us in age) had the time of our lives with each album release and ever since. watching this is us was hard, but so cathartic for all of us. "grieving shouldn't be behind a paywall." thank you :'(
bazkell
2024-12-27 05:41:56 +0000 UTCThank you for doing this, they screened it at my local cinema this past week but I wasn't able to go, and I really wanted to watch it but I didn't want to do it alone. It felt nice watching along with you.
Valeria Cabrera
2024-12-26 17:37:54 +0000 UTCas someone who had the pleasure of meeting liam and the boys and sharing some amazing memories with my friends through working on the x-factor and just being around during this era and even being in this concert film. i didn’t think i’d ever be able to watch this movie ever again so thank you for sitting in this grief with us, im finally ready to watch.
k H
2024-12-23 03:02:14 +0000 UTCI'll forever be grateful to have experienced one direction in concert and to have grown up as a teenager listening to them. RIP Liam🤍
Alaw Jones
2024-12-14 21:48:50 +0000 UTCgenuinely took me two months to come back to this reaction
z
2024-12-13 04:26:18 +0000 UTCI wasn’t a big Directioner because I thought I was too cool for boy bands back then (I have since learned joy), but this was so vulnerable and real that I cried along with you. This whole video is a prime example of why I love your content so much!! Thank you for being you, unapologetically! ♥️
Lauren ✨
2024-12-10 06:07:57 +0000 UTCTroy thank you so much for this. I’ve been watching on and off for a few weeks because the grief makes it so difficult. I feel your pain and somehow it’s good to not feel alone. Thank you for all you do and I hope the pain in ur heart will subside. So so so much love to you !!
Alexandra-Roxana
2024-11-29 20:03:00 +0000 UTCyou NEED to react to Louis' concert documentary "All of Those Voices". He talks about his struggles during one direction when they disbanded, and finding his footing and success years after. Tear jerker for sure
shua
2024-11-27 08:32:55 +0000 UTCA week after his death, I also dusted off my 1D dvd to grieve. Seeing the resurgence of our fandom coming together to support one another during this mourning process has been so sad but utterly beautiful. As a new supporter, it gives me joy that you were such a big fan as well. Thank you for having the vulnerability to post this for us! 🤍
avewave
2024-11-18 10:29:47 +0000 UTCIt’s been a month and I feel ready to grieve alongside you and the rest of these fine folks. Thanks for the tears that needed to fall. I miss him so much. 🧡
Julia Timlin
2024-11-17 16:49:46 +0000 UTCthank you so much for allowing yourself to be vulnerable with us and grieving with us <3 this edition of the film has so many missing parts though that are some of my favorites but this film is truly a piece of history and I will always be grateful we have it. thank you again troy for embracing the whole fandom and sharing the love while we are all needing some right now <3
megsbe
2024-11-17 12:05:54 +0000 UTCA month later and it’s finally time. Thank you
gracie clucas
2024-11-16 21:10:19 +0000 UTCI love you.
L
2024-11-16 11:48:57 +0000 UTCwatching this today, only 5 min in, def too soon
Isabel Slade
2024-11-16 00:49:46 +0000 UTCokay imma need you to do where we are because i’m not done crying with you yet
Cali Noel
2024-11-14 10:18:53 +0000 UTCi’m still not strong enough to watch this but i want to so badly 🥺
Cali Noel
2024-11-14 08:26:09 +0000 UTCThis inspired me to do a paid sub! Thank you for creating this space for us & being vulnerable!
T
2024-11-14 05:23:45 +0000 UTCthank you for doing this. it’s such a strange place to be in, and it makes me feel less crazy to know other people that shared my experience loving this band in our formative years are processing their grief the same way i am. sending you much love troy 💖
Sarah
2024-11-12 17:42:42 +0000 UTCThe grief has finally set in and have gathered the strength the watch… thank you for this 🤍 needed to remember the good.
Nina Marie
2024-11-06 00:19:47 +0000 UTCThank you for this. Watched today, wasn't ready before. Still sobbed my soul out. So many good memories, such a heartbreak now, but this era will live with us forEVER.
Ivanna Castellanos
2024-11-05 02:20:24 +0000 UTCWas finally ready to watch this today. Thank you ❤️
Malack Alharaizeh
2024-11-03 02:34:36 +0000 UTCI wanted to watch some of their stuff back but I knew I couldn’t do it alone. Thanks for posting this Troy, I cried with you the whole way through ❤️
Hales
2024-11-01 07:32:12 +0000 UTCoh troy. thank you for this. i didn’t think i was strong enough to go back to this one by myself right now. those boys had my entire heart when i was growing up…..the pain has ebbed and flowed in the past two weeks but i don’t know that i’ll ever not feel like there’s a little hole in my memories. which feels almost silly to say about someone i never truly knew and who never knew me. but he helped make my life bearable when so much else was going wrong. sending love to you, too. 🫂
god’s favorite sacrificial lamb
2024-11-01 01:40:42 +0000 UTCrest in paradise, liam 🤍🕊️
alex lopez
2024-10-31 21:46:15 +0000 UTCFinally bringing myself to watch this. Thank you for putting this up ❤️
Sam S
2024-10-30 15:52:00 +0000 UTCThe bow at the end just about took me out.
Kelsi Smirlies
2024-10-30 02:06:41 +0000 UTCThank you. Bless you. Love to you and all the other directioners out there. Hugs from this one for you all!
Bex
2024-10-28 16:11:49 +0000 UTCseeing Liam's part with his dad hits so much different after seeing pictures of his dad at the memorial in Argentina. Just thinking that he was there to retrieve his son's body tears me apart. Thank you for making this free, I feel understood. I will definitely pay for a subscription when I get the chance.
Ari
2024-10-27 16:36:58 +0000 UTCThank you xx
Julia
2024-10-27 10:05:53 +0000 UTCI absolutely sobbed when Liam did the ‘You sing!’ during One Thing. Immediately made me think about the clip that was circulating a while ago on TikTok of him doing it at his solo show and nobody singing 😭
Holly James
2024-10-27 06:16:37 +0000 UTCif you ever feel alone, dont 🫶
kalia
2024-10-26 20:42:19 +0000 UTCI cant watch this, i'll die. but here's a <3
Micaela Smith
2024-10-26 16:07:34 +0000 UTCSuddenly I feel like the little girl I used to be, I never realized how many memories I have literally tied to One Direction. Thank you for sharing this.🤍
Melissa Boyer
2024-10-26 04:24:12 +0000 UTCThank you so much Troy for sharing this with us and sharing your grief (this way, but also on instagram), it really helped me and made me feel less alone ❤️
Julia den Ouden
2024-10-25 09:43:15 +0000 UTCTroy, genuinely thank you for watching this and allowing people who may not have a subscription to watch it with you. I haven't been able to watch or listen to anything One Direction related since it happened and this is honestly been so healing for me. It made me cry but also laugh and reminisce about being a kid in high school, obsessed with these boys. I even messaged an old friend from school who was equally as obsessed as me and we have started talking again. Thankyou Troy 💓
ginnflower
2024-10-25 05:38:38 +0000 UTCthis is exactly what I needed right now, losing a celebrity who you just felt like you knew and that was a massive part of your life and who you are is a strange grief I will never fully be able to process.
Kayla
2024-10-24 03:01:17 +0000 UTCI appreciate you doing this because during this time of immense sadness we do need to remember these wonderful memories. Remembering the happy and fun times is what we need in this moment. Thank you for sharing Troy💜
Marisa
2024-10-24 02:38:37 +0000 UTCThank you for putting this out for everyone to see. I cried and laughed with you. Hope you'll watch where we are tour with us, it would mean the world to me and to everyone else. Thank you, it's a delicate but loud last cheer for Liam. Sending hugs and kisses xx
Eleonora F
2024-10-23 23:33:54 +0000 UTCthank you for posting this 🖤
Ash
2024-10-23 18:20:19 +0000 UTCIt took me a few days to be ready to watch this with you, thank you so much for reminding me to remember Liam as he was 🤍 He will forever be missed xx
Sinalie Diaz
2024-10-23 07:58:24 +0000 UTC“they just wanna be remembered” is the name of my one direction playlist and it will never not make me emotional ☹️
jess
2024-10-23 01:16:21 +0000 UTCI miss Liam so much
Nyesha Lovely
2024-10-23 00:59:51 +0000 UTCthank you so much, troy. i think we all needed to cry together to this ❤️ i’ll love these boys and the one direction family forever
yasmine
2024-10-22 23:07:56 +0000 UTCTroy, thank you for sharing this incredibly vulnerable moment with us. Thank you for making it free. Thank you for being the someone that I was able to reminisce, laugh, cry, and grieve with. Thank you for transporting me back to being a teen and dedicating my whole life to this band, a band that has remained my most streamed artist for as long as I can remember. Thank you, truly, from the bottom of my heart. 🩷
Sophie
2024-10-22 21:06:43 +0000 UTCoh troy😭😭😭 we needed this together. sending all the love.
Savannah Brown
2024-10-22 20:26:32 +0000 UTCLiked some of their songs but was never really labeled a fan. Always respected them though, they really went big so fast. My heart hurts for his family and everyone that they impacted💓
Alexia
2024-10-22 15:18:37 +0000 UTCty for letting me cry, laugh, sing and reminisce with you ❤️
Angee Mai
2024-10-22 13:49:27 +0000 UTCI was there at the show in Foro Sol Mexico City- it was absolutely electric
Maria
2024-10-22 13:15:50 +0000 UTCi needed this. i’ve been struggling for the last few days and this let me reminisce and remember the good times. And just relating to everyone who’s feeling the same. 🤍 thank you for doing this troy
Tori Jeri
2024-10-22 06:27:23 +0000 UTComg
Morgan
2024-10-22 02:25:54 +0000 UTCit’s been a few days—i’m back. and i really needed someone to watch this with me, someone who gets it. so thank you 🫶 it really was that serious. it still is. sending everyone love and hugs! x
Kristen
2024-10-22 01:16:26 +0000 UTCThank you so much. Your empathy is beautiful 🩷
Mariah Rosman
2024-10-21 18:32:51 +0000 UTCwow, i didnt know ur history with 1D went this deep. im there with you and i think as a fellow directioner, this might be what i need right now - a space to share the love for 1D with fellow fans. thank you for this troy! this news honestly doesnt feel real to me still, i hope everyone is ok and safe. sending everyone who reads this lots of love ❤️
Angee Mai
2024-10-21 14:04:37 +0000 UTCwe love you troy!!! im right there with you in feeling all of these emotions, but watching together with you helped me to not feel alone ❤️
ashmbritto
2024-10-21 12:55:46 +0000 UTCthank you so much Troy, I had been really wanting to rewatch this but I really didn't want to watch it by myself, glad I was able to watch it with you ❤️
Alyssa Heidenreich
2024-10-21 05:40:50 +0000 UTCI think looking back on things like this makes me be at peace with all this somehow
Morgan Wagner
2024-10-21 02:33:54 +0000 UTCThank you Troy for being so honest and vulnerable and for not letting any of us go through this alone. I've been so nervous to rewatch but this has helped me so much over the last few days. We're in this together <3
Tessa Senger
2024-10-21 00:41:11 +0000 UTCthank you for doing this. i’ve been wanting to rewatch but not on my own, so i am so grateful. i needed the comfort of this movie but i needed a friend beside me and thats what this feels like. ❤️ we’re gonna get through this together.
lauren
2024-10-20 22:37:10 +0000 UTCthank you for giving me the opportunity to not watch this alone. i was scared to do it by myself… this helped me. we’re all grieving together. 🤍
Benton James
2024-10-20 21:42:50 +0000 UTCthank you for this
Fany Gomez
2024-10-20 21:05:13 +0000 UTCthank you so much. i haven't been able to even listen to a second of a song and i knew i could not watch this in a long time but seeing it with you has helped me so much in so many ways.
marian baena
2024-10-20 20:57:59 +0000 UTCthank you for this troy. like many i was a massive 1D fan. i discovered them in 8th grade when i heard one thing for the first time. i was fortunate enough to see them in concert when i was 16 due to the generosity and love of my grandpa. over the years ig id forgot the imprint these 5 have left on me. i lived, breathed and dreamed these boys pretty much exclusively. years of my life listening to nothing but their music. marveling at their talent and authenticity. my love for them seeped into so many aspects of my life, which i don’t think i fully realized until now. my home life was not very healthy or safe in that part of my life. the boys were my escape. after school i could just dive into their world, their music and their joy online. and forget all my troubles. i feel im not only grieving the loss of liam and the band. but also my life as it was during those years. so many people i had then who are now gone. and now knowing that liam was deeply hurting. when i too have been in similar states of mind is gut wrenching. i feel like a fool for not seeing through the negativity that was being spread about him. because it seems so blatantly obvious now that he just needed support. the grief i feel is something i was not prepared for. Liam, im so so incredibly sorry. you did not deserve this. thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us, we didn’t deserve you. and thank you again troy. seeing the gatherings for him and not being able to go and give my respects has been really difficult. but this video felt very healing. so much love to you troy. and much love to these memories, every directioner out there and most importantly, Liam Payne. may you rest in peace ❤️🫂
Alaina
2024-10-20 20:28:31 +0000 UTCbreaks my heart to see you so sad at the beginning but thank you for this- we love you ♥️
Hailey
2024-10-20 17:07:26 +0000 UTCthank you for this
log lady
2024-10-20 15:13:38 +0000 UTCTHANK YOU SO MUCH for this. I wanted to watch it but felt very lonely and didn't want to watch it by myself. Watching it with you made the process easier, and I feel like I need to immerse myself back in those years to process my grief and pain. Sending love to all directioners 🫶🏼
charlotte boin 🌷📀✨
2024-10-20 15:06:12 +0000 UTCCrying after every Liam line or interview is so real, I rewatched the video diaries and vlogs and cried the whole time. Thank you for this Troy 🫶🏼
celestello
2024-10-20 15:01:44 +0000 UTCThank you! I wanted to watch this, but my fellow directioner friends weren't able to. This way, it was still possible to watch it with someone and go through the emotions together ❤️
Jessica
2024-10-20 12:48:16 +0000 UTCThank you for this Troy, this means so much to all us fans. You handled it the best way you could and made it more comfortable to watch with a heavy heart 🤍
Danielle
2024-10-20 10:15:03 +0000 UTCThank you so much for sharing ❤️
Kitkat
2024-10-20 08:17:20 +0000 UTCCried all the way through with you Troy. Thank you for doing this. I couldn’t re watch this alone with the news of Liam, so being able to watch with you was very comforting. I’ve been devastated with Liam’s passing. Watching this move again brought so many childhood memories up and helped me grieve him also. I’m glad his legacy gets to live on with this film and his music. Really appreciate this and hope you’re coping okay 🫶🏻
Chloe Porter
2024-10-20 03:48:41 +0000 UTCthank you troy you're so sweet, we are together to grief and celebrate him
Jessie Laura
2024-10-20 03:24:57 +0000 UTCtruly, thank you for this troy<3
shu
2024-10-20 02:40:13 +0000 UTCThank you so much for making this free I really needed it. It was nice to not watch it alone too, thank you so much.
Shayna Johnson
2024-10-20 02:22:45 +0000 UTCThank you so much Troy. I’ve been wanting to rewatch the movie ever since the news to help me process, but I didn’t want to do it alone. Having you there really helped ❤️
ellie
2024-10-20 00:39:36 +0000 UTCI haven’t been okay, but I think being able to watch this with you will make it idk…easier? I didn’t want to watch alone. How do you say goodbye to someone that meant the world to you through your hardest time in life? I’ve been a fan of one direction basically since their inception when I was 10 and now I’m turning 24 in a few days. It’s all so sad. Someone on tik tok said it’s like a core memory island (like in inside out) is shattering. That’s exactly how it feels.
KJ
2024-10-19 22:53:16 +0000 UTCThanks for let us watch with u
Mari Ubeda
2024-10-19 22:43:45 +0000 UTCHi Troy. Buenos Aires Directioner here. I didn't have any money to see 1D when they came here all those years ago, and I always held on to hope that I'd get to see them someday, when they reunited. This last few days have been surreal, I haven't been able to cry, I don't think I fathomed it all yet. I keep seeing him and smiling, like I can't picture the five of them not being together. I found myself watching their videos again, listening to the songs, reminiscing ... But I couldn't find This Is Us anywhere, so I'm glad I got to watch it with you. I think it would've felt very sad without your thoughts and your laughter whenever I laughed to. I know this must've been terribly hard for you to do, but I'm so happy we got to deal with this all of us together, wherever we are in the world. Thank you, and all of you 1D girlies out there making me feel seen, just like it was when I was 14. Thank you.
Jazmín Bicego
2024-10-19 22:39:58 +0000 UTCBeautiful memories, thank u for this ❤️❤️❤️ Please we need san siro concert next 😩
Leadmt
2024-10-19 22:26:29 +0000 UTCthis is what I needed amongst the confusing feelings, thank you.
mia
2024-10-19 20:40:56 +0000 UTCYou having this for free is so thoughtful ❤️
Brydney
2024-10-19 19:48:51 +0000 UTCLiam’s mom having that conversation with Louis’ mom and then immediately going to Robin talking about Harry just hurts. I firmly believe the Joanna and Robin welcomed him home with open arms.
Jessica Rae
2024-10-19 19:39:25 +0000 UTCthank you
joslyn cole
2024-10-19 19:34:48 +0000 UTCLouis slapping Niall is still the most iconic opening to any film ever. 😂😭
Jessica Rae
2024-10-19 19:14:49 +0000 UTCYou’re amazing Troy 🖤 thank you for making this video
Emily Warfield
2024-10-19 15:41:24 +0000 UTCThank you for doing this. I needed a safe space to cry and laugh and remember how I felt at this moment in time. Thank you 💕💕💕💕💕
Brigid Benfield
2024-10-19 14:43:12 +0000 UTCI’m so happy I watched this, I feel like I’ve been able to kinda say goodbye to him for real through this, I appreciate you ❤️
Lillyforreal
2024-10-19 13:28:32 +0000 UTCi thought i was ready to watch it. well, i wasn't.. but i watched it anyway bc i needed it. i really did. thank you, meant a lot to me.🩷
Ditta
2024-10-19 13:21:44 +0000 UTCnot sure i’m ready to watch yet but will be coming back to this when i am🤍🖤
Ella Durrant
2024-10-19 12:18:08 +0000 UTCthank you so much for doing this. don't know whether i could have watched it on my own.
EveryRose
2024-10-19 12:16:44 +0000 UTCHugs ❤️ I hate seeing you shook man. Its terribly tragic. I hope it was cathartic watching. Thank you for sharing your genuine heart
Alicia
2024-10-19 09:50:06 +0000 UTCalso thank you so much for turning it up to Teenage Dirtbag, literally my favorite cover they sing
Kaylee Schroeder
2024-10-19 07:57:22 +0000 UTCThank you for this, being able to watch it with someone who understands what I feel. A mother and father lost a son. Sisters lost a brother. HIS SON lost a father. We all just lost someone we grew up with. Someone we all looked up to and wanted the best for. I have never had a reaction to a celebrity death like I am having with him, so seeing I am not alone is so comforting. But like you said, I want to remember the good time. The laughs we had when watching the video diaries, then watching them come out of their shell as they grew, and also watching the adventurous adventures of one direction, I want to remember the good times.
Kaylee Schroeder
2024-10-19 07:07:59 +0000 UTCthis was me when i heard. crying to my boyfriend. god it's so sad
Fatima Karim
2024-10-19 06:42:55 +0000 UTCi second this!!!!!!
Diana
2024-10-19 06:25:51 +0000 UTCI was never completely tuned into 1D (they were just beyond "my time") but I've always been aware of their solo careers. Seeing the heartbreak this week has brought so many of the creators and people I love- I can't thank Troy enough for being vulnerable and posting this reaction. Gives me so much insight into just how much this group meant to so many people. What a terrible loss.
Kellye Yates
2024-10-19 06:24:24 +0000 UTCi'm about a third of the way in, but i just wanted to say one of the reasons why i love watching your videos is because of how honest & raw your reactions are & how you're never afraid to share your emotions. this one means a lot, troy, thank you so much for sharing it with us ♡
Bia
2024-10-19 05:43:37 +0000 UTC“I’ll try but I’ll miss you too much Liam” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Jade
2024-10-19 05:29:17 +0000 UTCi didn’t think i was going to be able to watch this. but i’m so glad i did. i was telling my family i don’t think im gonna be able to watch their movie for a long time. thank you for making this a safe place to cry and grieve but also to laugh and remember the happy times. i really needed this. thank you troy❤️🩹
chandler
2024-10-19 04:56:23 +0000 UTCThe laughs into tears are so real. I laughed and sobbed my way through this with Troy ❤️
Jacea
2024-10-19 03:12:13 +0000 UTCThank you so so so so much, Troy. I know how hard this was for you. But we needed this so bad after this last week of absolute hell.
Emily Duncan
2024-10-18 23:42:48 +0000 UTCsan siro next?
Taylor Paquet
2024-10-18 23:41:27 +0000 UTCthank you so much for this troy. not only I but a lot of us needed this I think 🤍
Taylor Paquet
2024-10-18 23:40:27 +0000 UTCThank YOU, you make us feel so understood Troy, we love you for that
Ola Skywalker
2024-10-18 22:59:34 +0000 UTCthank you for this <3
Isabella Gentilozzi
2024-10-18 22:27:17 +0000 UTC❤️❤️
Nesselia
2024-10-18 21:59:05 +0000 UTCThank you so much. I needed this.
Marie-Soleil Rochon
2024-10-18 21:50:19 +0000 UTCThank you Troy, because I don’t have anyone else to grieve with right now ❤️
Yvonne Dumlao
2024-10-18 21:47:15 +0000 UTChe did! it was in one of the new music fridays
Leah ✨
2024-10-18 20:54:08 +0000 UTCThank you Troy ❤️
Ila Makela
2024-10-18 20:46:35 +0000 UTCWow I just love how raw & pure you were in this. I love that you’re not afraid to show emotion. While I was watching, I too was crying with you lol the last time I had watched their movie was when it came out in theaters so I’m glad I had a refresher. It hits so much harder now. I had the amazing opportunity to see them in concert back in 2014 & I’m forever grateful for that memory. & yes I was that 14 year old who shaved everything for the concert 😂😂😂😂
Brianna Mason
2024-10-18 20:45:55 +0000 UTCthank you so much for this troy. it's been really heavy since the news, and while watching this hurt, it was also really really nice to get to watch it with someone <3
Maria
2024-10-18 20:25:07 +0000 UTCthank you so much for this, i needed it.
cherrylimey
2024-10-18 20:24:11 +0000 UTCWatch san siro next <3
Victoria Raish
2024-10-18 20:04:27 +0000 UTCThank you Troy❤️
Arcelia Avechuco-Lopez
2024-10-18 20:04:21 +0000 UTCI didn’t know I needed this until I finished watching. I didn’t even realize how devastated I was. Thank you for sharing. Wishing peace and healing to all ❤️
Cayla
2024-10-18 19:46:36 +0000 UTCJust finished and this was so heartfelt and I relate to you on a crazy level. Was also a dude (in hs not college) who live through them and was inspired by their journey. I’ve seen this doc countless times but after the situation it has made them seem so much more humane than one could process before. We would all wish for this dream and when Louis says “if one of us just didn’t happen to go to our audition it really puts it into perspective. Love live 1D and may you rest in peace Liam.
Tswizz
2024-10-18 18:59:18 +0000 UTCYou should react to the new Mozart piece they found
Ravin
2024-10-18 18:24:12 +0000 UTCTroy this was so so comforting. I think a lot of us are feeling the same way and it was so nice to just… grieve together. Thank you. Sending you love ♥️
The Soup Witch
2024-10-18 18:23:39 +0000 UTCLove you Troy
Mikayla Gilkerson
2024-10-18 17:47:04 +0000 UTCThank you for giving us this. I really wanted to watch this movie today but I didn't want to do it alone, and now I didn't have to. These guys were a big big part of my teenage years. I will always look back at that time of my life with a lot of happiness <3
majemor
2024-10-18 17:46:52 +0000 UTCI needed this
Mikayla Gilkerson
2024-10-18 17:46:40 +0000 UTCYou were the first person I thought of when I heard the news. Thank you for feeling your feelings out loud and helping people process their grief within a community <3 'it feels so scary getting old.'
Samanthalikewoe
2024-10-18 17:45:24 +0000 UTCThank you for this 🤍 i wanted to watch but didn’t want to watch alone
Jordan Silas
2024-10-18 17:36:09 +0000 UTClove u for this
Susie Nicolaysen
2024-10-18 17:35:04 +0000 UTCThank you so much for doing this. One direction was so vital to me in my high school years and it’s been hard to find others in my life who understand the grief being experienced right now. I love knowing there is a community that knows how I’m feeling
Angel Luis
2024-10-18 17:21:18 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this. It felt like I was watching this with a friend, and I really needed that. I am also an older fan, so I don’t have many friends that listened to them. I would love to see you react to their San Siro concert movie, too! It’s so good. ❤️
Christabel Herron
2024-10-18 17:16:40 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this so we can also grieve with you. I too, wasn't able to go to their concert growing up and wasn't able to live my fan girl life out loud until I met my best friends in college. Thanks for creating a space like this where we can react to the music and artists we love and made an impact in our lives
Audrey Nicole
2024-10-18 16:51:21 +0000 UTCThe constant switching between laughing, crying and singing is soooo relatable. Thank you for being vulnerable with us and sharing your grieving with us. Its nice to see that he meant so much to so many people, Not just to me. 🕊️🕊️
Celina Höbel
2024-10-18 16:48:17 +0000 UTCIve been thinking about watching this ever since i heard the news. One direction was so important to me, especially this era, and it breaks my heart that we're all going through this. I think im gonna watch this after work tonight. I think i need it.
Quentin
2024-10-18 16:27:39 +0000 UTCI think a lot of us really needed this, Troy. Thank you so much for showing the raw grief we're all feeling right now ❤️
Gee
2024-10-18 16:15:43 +0000 UTCThank you for doing this, this was so needed for me in my grieving process where it felt like everyone around me IRL does not understand.
JeweliaMS
2024-10-18 15:35:54 +0000 UTCRight Now started playing in the car on shuffle this morning and I literally cried… I know understand how my mom felt when George Michael died
Marie Swen
2024-10-18 15:29:32 +0000 UTCWhere We Are Tour next??💛
Savannah Scudder
2024-10-18 15:18:54 +0000 UTCThank you so much for this, Troy. I have a similar story with One Direction - as dramatic as it sounds, I truly would not be alive today without them, and I know I'm not the only one. It will never be okay, but together we can hold on to our memories and remember that joy and love is eternal. It brings me so much comfort to be seen and held by fans who share my same, complex and intense grief. I love you all. ♥
Syd
2024-10-18 15:17:13 +0000 UTCTROY!!!! ONLY 2 MINS IN AND U HAVE ME GETTING TEARY
kristina gelinas
2024-10-18 15:14:18 +0000 UTCthank you <3
Nina Poirters
2024-10-18 15:03:20 +0000 UTCthank you troy for being so vulnerable <3
Yasmin
2024-10-18 14:59:54 +0000 UTCYou are such a good human being. I was never a fan of 1D, I was just learning to love their music and getting rid of the "boy band music" stigma. This death affects me more than expected and I can't bring myself to listen to their songs for the first time right now. this will be my first time listening to this movie and I'm glad it is with you and this community, even tough the circumstances suck.
Meval
2024-10-18 14:53:52 +0000 UTCOmg Niall and the pole 😂😂😂
SassyCass
2024-10-18 14:52:11 +0000 UTCMy mom played what makes you beautiful to me for the first time when I was in the hospital after attempting to take my life when I was 13. I was a fan ever since and they really did give me something to live for back then 😭
Alysia
2024-10-18 14:44:31 +0000 UTCThank you for this💛💛 my heart has been hurting these past couple of days. Scrolling through instagram, twitter, and TikTok has helped me not feel alone, but it also has made me so sad. To actually see someone experience the grief that I’m feeling makes me not feel so alone, all the while reminiscing on fond memories💛
Savannah Scudder
2024-10-18 14:40:34 +0000 UTCWould love to see you do a review on benson boones fireworks and rollerblades album. Feel like you’d love it!
Taylor Crossland
2024-10-18 14:30:06 +0000 UTCThanks for not paywalling this right now Troy, I’m tight on $ and come and go from being in your patreon, this was needed.
SassyCass
2024-10-18 14:12:49 +0000 UTCThank u so much for this Troy! We are all sobbing through this together❤️🩹 big love man‼️
Lexa ⋆˙⟡♡
2024-10-18 14:02:36 +0000 UTC❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Nicole 💖
2024-10-18 13:59:18 +0000 UTClove you troy!! one direction was my life from 12 until now! i am broken and devastated. personally for me right now i can’t watch this right now, i would have a break down. but i will be back after some grieving and healing 🤍❤️🩹
chandler
2024-10-18 12:50:04 +0000 UTClove you troy <3 i've been struggling with how to feel about what's happened and grieve someone who was so ingrained in my psyche at a young age. Though it's been a while since I've been a passionate, all-consuming follower of one direction, the shock of a chapter of our youth being closed with such finality is hard to grapple with. Thank you for giving us this space to be together and celebrate a part of ourselves that represents happiness and carefree innocence xx
Chantelle
2024-10-18 12:19:21 +0000 UTC❤️
Megan Sebring
2024-10-18 11:30:24 +0000 UTCthank you for this, i needed it
cait
2024-10-18 11:23:36 +0000 UTCthank you for this, i love you.
Ella Tomarchio
2024-10-18 11:05:11 +0000 UTCI was too scared to go on this journey after the news broke but I‘m glad I got to do it with you. This was healing🖤
Celina Dittrich
2024-10-18 10:28:25 +0000 UTCI know you debated on posting this, but I just wanted to thank you for posting anyway 🥺 I had no one to cry with about this and I felt like I was able to cry and grieve with a friend, and that helped me more than you could know 🩷
Julie Pirrone
2024-10-18 09:59:21 +0000 UTCPlease please please will you watch their first concert tour documentary?? Its called Up All Night: the Live Tour. it’s so good and they are so young 🥹
Emily Starr
2024-10-18 09:54:14 +0000 UTCBless you, and thank you so much. Been in despair the past few days, and this has me smiling. Take care of yourself <3
Emma
2024-10-18 09:11:43 +0000 UTCThank you Troy, I needed this today. ❤️ Look after each other everyone
Paige Whitmore
2024-10-18 08:58:39 +0000 UTCthank you for this <3 hugs
Matilda Klemets
2024-10-18 08:58:34 +0000 UTChonestly, this was so healing and cathartic. they will always be my boys
Hannah Childress
2024-10-18 08:52:52 +0000 UTCThank for this Troy, I don’t think I knew I needed it until I did. I just feel so lucky that I got to live all of this in real time and had it play such a special part in my life. A much needed reminder that we’ll always have the music and videos to go back to when we need it, that’s magic
Beccy Smith
2024-10-18 08:38:27 +0000 UTCI have no words to thank you for giving us this video right now. I live in Buenos Aires and these past two days have been a mix of shock, denial, pain and nostalgia. I never expected to witness the death of one of the five before I turned 60, much less having it happen just 3 miles from my home. I fell in love with them on the x factor when I was 10, and I’m still loving them at 24. I grew up listening, singing, following, dreaming, smiling and crying with 1D. It's very strange to grieve for someone you’ve never met personally, but they left a mark on my life forever. It's really hard to accept this, to think about the pain of the family, little Bear and the boys. So thank you so so much for this bittersweet video because I cried and laughed while feeling comforted. May our Liam rest in peace 🤍
Carol Bermond
2024-10-18 07:43:50 +0000 UTCtroye your little face at the beginning is killing me im only 2 minutes in and im sobbing with you
Diana
2024-10-18 07:16:02 +0000 UTCThis was so nice to watch. Very emotional but also made me remember why I was so obsessed when I was younger. I miss them so much and can’t believe we’ll never see all five of them together again 😢💔
Emma
2024-10-18 07:15:54 +0000 UTCWhen you look at the last 8 years, it’s hard to remember these times. It was so god damn special. Thank you for posting this. My directioner days, following the tour bus, fangirling so hard and seeing them perform are reminisced on so fondly. So sad about Liam and so devastated for the other guys and his loved ones.
Kim
2024-10-18 07:09:55 +0000 UTCwhen I met the band in 2012, I remember so distinctly that Liam was the kindest one there. Really took the time to look me in the eye and listen and was soo sweet. His parents raised him so well. He never took the fans for granted
Fahmeen
2024-10-18 07:03:50 +0000 UTCgrieving with u. sending lots of luv
Biancka
2024-10-18 07:03:32 +0000 UTCi’m so lucky to have been apart of this fandom, this community as a kid. i’ll always love my fellow directioners. thank you for this. my younger self needed it
nut buddy ~★
2024-10-18 06:58:29 +0000 UTCthank u sm! we all needed this.
blissnigxts
2024-10-18 06:57:00 +0000 UTCYou have no idea how much you’ve helped so many of us process this loss. I don’t think I could have watched something like this without you, very grateful that you did this for everyone. 🤍
Jailene Polanco
2024-10-18 06:46:13 +0000 UTCthank you troy this made me feel less alone <3
Katie Rose
2024-10-18 06:39:55 +0000 UTCthank you for this, really. i'm sending loads of love to you troy and everyone who needs it 🫶🫶🫶
Alice Kameron
2024-10-18 06:36:43 +0000 UTCthank you troy, i am sobbing along with you. i’m still in shock and hit me like a truck today after seeing everyone’s posts. i don’t think i’ll ever get over this celebrity loss.
Fahmeen
2024-10-18 06:05:54 +0000 UTCgoing to revisit this weekend but thank you so much 💖
ariah
2024-10-18 06:02:50 +0000 UTCthank you troy
Vanessa ⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚
2024-10-18 05:54:56 +0000 UTCthankyou Troy, I think a lot of us including you needed this. ❤️ there are no words I can say to sum up how I’m feeling. but it get nice to not have to watch this alone.
Tahlia Dockrey
2024-10-18 05:45:17 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing with us your grief Troy, it's hard to do so openly and honestly. Thank you for showing us it's okay to grieve and show our tears. It all represents deep love and appreciation for someone who mattered to you. 🩷
Melissa Picone
2024-10-18 05:35:52 +0000 UTCthank you so much for creating this space for us to grieve and re-live these moments that were so important in all of our lives. i have spent hours rewatching music videos and video diaries; it just does not feel real. i will never forget the time i made my family help me bake a cake in his favorite color and hand-make decorations for Liam's birthday because i thought everyone should be celebrating him. i hope he knew how much we love him.
evie
2024-10-18 05:32:50 +0000 UTCThank you for this and thank you for saying this isn’t for right now if we’re not ready. I’m not sure I’m ready yet, but it’s nice to know that I’ll have someone to watch it with when I am. 🤍
Katiana Abad
2024-10-18 04:57:05 +0000 UTCthank you for this video, troy. we love you and are grieving along with you. 💔
Piper
2024-10-18 04:43:42 +0000 UTCI haven’t been able to listen to any 1D or Liam solo music since he’s passed. God that feels so eerie to type or say… I’ll definitely rewatch this when I’m in a better headspace. Thank you Troy! ❤️💔🙏🏾
Dani
2024-10-18 04:39:58 +0000 UTCI walked into my wardrobe last night to where I keep my 1D memorabilia, and the last thing I did before going to sleep was look at a poster of 2011 Liam, and it made me cry, but it was also very cathartic.
Valentine Valmadre
2024-10-18 04:16:54 +0000 UTCI think the worst part for me is that he wasn't at his best when he passed. All the allegations had come out against him, and he was drinking again and was likely a frequent drug user. It hurts me that he either didn't want to, or didn't know how to reach out for support. I'll remember him fondly and mourn the man that he used to be, the man he was, and the man he would have been. I feel so awful for his family and everyone else who loved him. I urge everyone who's feeling alone to reach out for support, help is there. While Liam's death might not have been a suicide, I don't doubt that he was feeling extremely isolated.
Valentine Valmadre
2024-10-18 04:12:47 +0000 UTCThank you, thank you, thank you... 💙 Beautiful tribute with honest emotions. We needed this.
Dana Collins
2024-10-18 04:10:18 +0000 UTCI hope you’re okay Troy ❤️ I’m right here in the trenches with you. Thank for grieving with me
Renny
2024-10-18 04:07:16 +0000 UTCI will watch later… but Troy… you are a real one. I’m so glad I support you.
Ally ❤️
2024-10-18 04:03:12 +0000 UTCI like to think that Louis's mom is there to greet Liam. 4 moms lost a son but a mother got to see one of her 5 sons.
Athena Lea
2024-10-18 04:02:36 +0000 UTCThank you for this Troy, i’m not ready to watch this but when i am, i know that it will bring me so much comfort! One direction was such a big part of me growing, they came into my life when i was going through a really dark time and they made me feel like everything was going to be okay. they were my safe place for the longest. The lost of Liam hit deeper than i could ever imagine! Long live Liam
Maria Beatriz Lelis
2024-10-18 04:01:35 +0000 UTCreally needed this today, thank you for letting us grieve with you. sending love to everyone ❤️
taylor
2024-10-18 04:00:27 +0000 UTCthank you Troy
Victoria Won
2024-10-18 04:00:00 +0000 UTCI think I need a little bit but I’m happy to get to sit down with you when I’m ready. I’ll feel a sense of comfort watching along side you
Alyssa Kelly
2024-10-18 03:48:12 +0000 UTCI appreciate you sharing your grieving experience with us and allowing us to go through it with you 🫶 My younger self is heartbroken.
Jenny
2024-10-18 03:41:17 +0000 UTCThank you, Troy. This helped me heal a little bit. The hole Liam left is going to be felt for a long time but it's not going to outweigh all of the many happy memories we all have of him and one direction and I think we should just keep going back to the happy times when we need to until we fully heal. This was a great first step and I appreciate you and am sending you love.
Antoinette
2024-10-18 03:34:09 +0000 UTCIt’s still so surreal all of it. Thanks for doing this, it’s helping me process things.
Emery Azure
2024-10-18 03:22:43 +0000 UTCas I'm sure many have said the same, but thank you deeply for this, Troy. In my mid-twenties now but spent all my teenage years being a huge Directioner, even now they stay in my top artists played, and the boys hold such a special place in my heart. This was the best way to grieve Liam - instead celebrate and reminisce on the man who helped shape our formative years. Take care of yourselves everyone, I will definitely be 60 doing these dance moves thinking of Liam 💖 thank you Troy
jess jess
2024-10-18 03:12:44 +0000 UTCMan I needed this so bad
Jessica
2024-10-18 03:08:48 +0000 UTCP.S I'm glad I wasn't alone in having the puffy eyes, made the viewing experience 10 times more relatable
Grace Schischka
2024-10-18 03:05:13 +0000 UTCI don't ever comment, but I just want to thank you Troy from the bottom of my heart. I was such a big One Direction fan growing up, but as happens I have lost touch with all my old friends who were directioners. This has been the most healing, funny (and emotional) way you could have chosen to support the fandom, and it was truly amazing. Getting to reminisce and reflect on the Liam we knew before, and process the immense trauma they all went through at such a young age was just what we needed, and I am so grateful. I hope you are taking some time, and may he rest in peace.
Grace Schischka
2024-10-18 03:04:31 +0000 UTCi needed this more than i knew. the little girl in me is devastated. i would've never thought i'd still be in my teen years when one of the members passed away. may he rest in peace with louis' mom <3
Jenizyz Ramirez
2024-10-18 03:02:11 +0000 UTCto troy and everyone in the comments. this is everything i needed today. long live liam and long live one direction. sending love to everyone tonight and during this grieving process🤍
Hailey Lynn
2024-10-18 02:58:06 +0000 UTCthank you so much for doing this. People have been making fun of me for crying nonstop these last 2 days. The amount of pain that I have in me is unexplainable, I love these guys with every inch of my soul and receiving this notification made me so happy. love u Troy
Danytg
2024-10-18 02:55:38 +0000 UTCI appreciate you so much for doing this. I’ve been keeping it all in and this broke me but also made me laugh. My friends always made fun of me because I wasn’t a “Harry” girl. I was all about Liam. I’m the same age as the boys from 1D and they got me through my late teens and early 20s. I genuinely feel like I lost part of my young adult life with Liam’s passing.
denisebryden
2024-10-18 02:52:08 +0000 UTCThank you so much for this Troy. One direction was truly my childhood and with his passing I feel as of that girl that eat slept and breathed one direction is gone. I've done nothing but cry and try to process this grief and this was honestly so comforting to watch. Seeing someone else be so open about this grief and who understands it means everything. No one in my life understands why I've been crying so much and why it hurts so much, so thank you.
Audrey Knowles
2024-10-18 02:50:39 +0000 UTCThank you for making this space to laugh and cry and remember our boy! <3 we love u
Caroline Portante
2024-10-18 02:49:44 +0000 UTCoh i know i’m gonna cry but i’m pressing play. i know we’re all sad but thank you troy for letting us relive this with you❤️🥺
halle
2024-10-18 02:49:28 +0000 UTCThank you so much for this Troy, sharing this grief and choosing to remember the happy moments was exactly what I needed ❤️
Adriana
2024-10-18 02:43:02 +0000 UTCThank you very much Troy for posting this. I was nervous to sit down and try to watch it by myself, but it felt nostalgic and comforting having you to watch with me :) Grief can be overwhelming and confusing, but it is nice knowing we are all experiencing this together, because of our love for them
Kaylee Toomey
2024-10-18 02:42:54 +0000 UTCThis was so fun! Thank you Troy for reminding us it’s okay to love what you love no matter what age or what genre!
Kylie Webb
2024-10-18 02:39:43 +0000 UTCHoping this will finally allow me to cry. This whole day and even last night I’ve been on the verge of tears but not actually crying. I genuinely can’t believe he’s really gone.
Andrea E.
2024-10-18 02:39:27 +0000 UTCwe love you troy, thank you for this. many of us needed it. it was nice to not feel so alone.
Allison Jenkins
2024-10-18 02:34:01 +0000 UTCi know this is so hard. when you’re ready. i’d love to watch the where we are tour movie with you all. such a fun memory. i love you all so much. big 1d hug ❤️
Ashleigh
2024-10-18 02:29:37 +0000 UTCThat was a hard watch 😑💘🥲 why are my tears not stopping
Jenna
2024-10-18 02:29:12 +0000 UTCAfter watching this with you I’m filled with so much love for 1D all over again. They were such a huge part of my life in high school and idk where I’d be without them fr
Layluh
2024-10-18 02:09:31 +0000 UTCneeded this today <33
Victoria S
2024-10-18 02:05:13 +0000 UTCthank you troy, sending you all the love <3
MacKenzie Sanders
2024-10-18 02:01:49 +0000 UTCI really did need this today to help me process and grieve. Thank you so much Troy, and I wish everyone so much love <3
Madi
2024-10-18 02:00:45 +0000 UTCthank you man, I was kind of neglecting the situation and pretending that it didn't affect me, but you know what, my inner child needed this :( I needed to cry one last time, and remember what it was, the kids that they were and who I was so in love with for so many years. We now have to heal and move forward, caring the best times of our lives with us, forever. Love to everyone ❤️🩹.
Aillén Pereira
2024-10-18 01:56:15 +0000 UTCI am not ready to watch this yet as I am too heartbroken but thank you for making this for us :-). I am a silent viewer but wanted let you know your videos bring so much happiness to me and my friends so thank you <3
Katherine
2024-10-18 01:51:05 +0000 UTCi got the privilege to see them in concert when i was little like 6 or 7 and it has always been one of my favourite memories and my biggest flex. rip liam you will be missed🤍
gracie
2024-10-18 01:43:48 +0000 UTCsending you and everyone in here love <3
kylinb
2024-10-18 01:28:20 +0000 UTCall the love Troy 🤍
Cas
2024-10-18 01:27:13 +0000 UTCTAKE ME HOME GREATEST ALBUM OF ALL TIME
Sabrina Thompson-Cook
2024-10-18 01:27:03 +0000 UTCThank you for this Troy <3
Jasmin Campos
2024-10-18 01:25:22 +0000 UTCyep 2 minutes in and i have to log off, i’m sorry i’m not ready yet
khushi04
2024-10-18 01:21:03 +0000 UTCi can’t wait to revisit this with time ❤️🩹🕊️ not now, but soon. thank you for sharing this with just Troy.
Kristen
2024-10-18 01:19:56 +0000 UTCthank you for crying with me troy
charlie
2024-10-18 01:19:49 +0000 UTCtroy, thank you so much for this. i needed this, as i’m sure you did and many others as well. i know many people struggle to look back at memories like this because it can be hard, this is also how i cope. i need to be reminded of those happy memories as much as possible. it’s important to keep things like this alive. your vulnerability is so refreshing, and i couldn’t appreciate you more for creating a safe space for all of us to come together and mourn this beautiful band, and person. a space to laugh, cry, reminisce. when i found out the news yesterday, i found myself struggling to cry. just in shock, in disbelief. picturing how my preteen self would handle this news was not something i could accept nor digest. i planned to pull out my this is us DVD and give it a watch, and then i got this notification. watching this along with you, i completely let go, finding myself crying with you rather than holding in my tears and feelings. i appreciate you for not putting this behind a paywall as well. it’s refreshing to see how one direction impacted you as a young man in college. we are all so lucky to have been able around in real time for all of this. history at its finest. i was 10 when i first found one direction and simply fell in love. when i was 12 i went to their 3rd tour, it was my first concert. they changed my life. as a now 22 year old, so much that i love is built around one direction and their influence. when i love things, i love hard and with my full chest. whether that’s music, a movie, a person, anything. i learn everything about it. and for that, people have always sort of made fun of me. they were the first that made me realize how hard i can love something. i will forever be grateful for them to have taught me that about myself. again, thank you so much for this and to anyone struggling with this news you are not at all alone🤍 rest in peace, liam. 🕊️💞
cass
2024-10-18 01:19:20 +0000 UTCI'm so glad I'm not alone in this sadness
Sarrah Garcia
2024-10-18 01:13:45 +0000 UTCI just finished watching it on my own and immediately restarted it but I’ll watch it AGAIN. I needed this
Jordan Knudsvig
2024-10-18 00:56:34 +0000 UTCHe really did love it so much :( <3
Lucy
2024-10-18 00:46:19 +0000 UTCNo one has understood this pain and watching this with you made me feel like I’m not alone. Please take care of yourself ❤️
Chauntel
2024-10-18 00:42:10 +0000 UTClove you Troy 🤍 the boys were my first ever concert in high school. they hold such a special place in my heart and I met some of my best friends because of them 🩷
capricornmom
2024-10-18 00:41:39 +0000 UTCI keep trying to avoid all media/videos/posts, but then find myself feeling more alone and end up going back and scrolling more. There’s something comforting about mourning with you all here. 💔 Here to remember the good times and comfort our inner child that grew up with these boys. Love you all 🖤
Anna
2024-10-18 00:34:19 +0000 UTCI appreciate you trying to crack jokes to make us smile and adding commentary whilst you’re also grieving with us, we love you Troy thank you for letting us watch this with you 🤍🤍🤍
z
2024-10-18 00:28:00 +0000 UTCI was never the biggest one direction person (when they were big I was like 13 going through my “not like other girls” phase, but I remember my older sister being obsessed. Like cutting out each band members face out of a million magazines and making collages of them on her wall plus a life size Louis poster. She even got to see One Direction for her 16th birthday, something I’ll never forgive myself for missing because my mom offered to let me tag along but I was in way too deep in that phase to let myself go. Even now, a decade later, I’m unfortunately not a huge 1D music fan (I enjoy their music when it comes on but I’m not going to actively listen to it ya know). But I adore the 1D fandom even from the outside; they created so much internet culture that layed so many foundations of what we know and love about internet culture. I also really supported all the guys as solo artists and only ever wanted the best for them. Finding out about the shitty things Liam did really hurt in that regard, knowing these guys were the foundation of so much I loved and meant so much to many people I loved. I really hoped he’d get back on track eventually. When the news broke my sister messaged me about it in shock, and sent me a screenshot of her twitter timeline of people making what were essentially jokes about it. She was upset by this, and I offered that maybe it’s difficult because he was showing he wasn’t a great guy and everyone knew that - but how do you deal with that at the same time as knowing how deeply integral he was to your development and childhood? It’s like jokes about 9/11 in the United States, ya know, like holy shit what a tragedy. No one would ever deny that the people who died that day were jokes nor should that be their legacy. But how do you hold the weight of that tragedy while also knowing how much violence, pain, and misplaced patriotism to assert their own greedy agenda using 9/11 as an excuse for it all? You can’t talk about all that nuance in one tweet but you can’t not talk about it because holy fuck what a life changing thing?? So you joke. That’s what we do, we joke, we joke to show we care without having to exert the force of will to discuss the nuances but still recognize it as deeply impactful. Liam’s death is the same, I think. He isn’t anything to make jokes about, but holding all the true facts in your head about how you feel about him is too much to keep in but also too much to comfortably express. All that to say, if you find yourself growing upset by the response online I think it’s all because people care so much about what happened, not because they don’t care at all. This is so, so much. And it’s okay to feel a lot about it
Dippity_Dip
2024-10-18 00:25:24 +0000 UTCBro, I'm right there with you 🫂 I was an "older" 1D fan in my early 20's back in the day and I just loved their music. They had so many bops that would put you in such a good mood and their vibe as a band and friends was so goofy but real 🥹 I'm a bit like you atm with this loss: one minute I'm smiling and vibing to the songs and the next minute, a wave of grief will wash over me. This loss is so hard to fathom and I know Liam wasn't perfect and he had his troubles but I'm choosing to remember the 1D years of Liam where he was having fun and doing what he loved ❤️💔 RIP Liam 🪽
brie ✨️
2024-10-18 00:21:54 +0000 UTCI cried with you when they showed the moms 💔devastating.
Nikki S
2024-10-18 00:20:57 +0000 UTCTo you Troy, and to everyone here in the comments, please know that you are not alone. Please take care of yourselves, and please ask for help when you need it. I love this little family we have and I love the family One Direction gave me ❤️🩹
Picklebre
2024-10-18 00:19:30 +0000 UTCThank you for this Troy, it’s all too raw for me right now and I will have to come back and revisit this soon 🤍
Taylor Patenaude
2024-10-18 00:15:21 +0000 UTCTroy, I can’t thank you enough for deciding to post this. What a small gift in a moment like this.
Ruby LaFrance
2024-10-18 00:11:18 +0000 UTCI have been crying all day today and was about to go get my This Is Us DVD but really happy I don't have to watch it alone. One Direction was everything to little me and is responsible for so many happy memories I have. I still remember where I was when I first heard What Makes You Beautiful, watching their music videos premiere while still in class with my best friends, going to see this movie in theaters and even running a fan account. All I could think about listening to their music was, "how can I listen to 1D anymore without crying when Liam starts most of the songs". This still doesn't feel real and I cannot imagine how those that were close to him are feeling right now. I am beyond grateful for the community that One Direction introduced me to and even more grateful for this community. Rest in peace Liam <3
bree
2024-10-18 00:09:04 +0000 UTCThank you Troy❤️ I'm sending love to all of you. This fucking sucks.
Rachel Harshbarger
2024-10-18 00:06:42 +0000 UTCSending you so much love, thank you for giving us a safe place to feel our feelings together ❤️
Samantha Briggs
2024-10-18 00:05:50 +0000 UTCthis made me cry all over again. thank you for sharing your grief with us and for also showing us it’s OKAY it feel all of this. another one of the reasons you’re my favorite creator 🩷
Virginia Book
2024-10-18 00:04:21 +0000 UTCi genuinely dont think i wouldve made it past my teens if it wasnt for One Direction, my bedroom was practically a shrine to them.. i didnt ever expect to have to grieve any of them this soon 💔💔
kaitlyns_insanity
2024-10-18 00:04:03 +0000 UTCI’m not ready but I have to watch it. They were everything to me. I’ll watch with you and cry.
Ashlynn
2024-10-18 00:02:47 +0000 UTCi can’t believe this is something we have to go through. we’re in this together, we’re grieving and mourning together. please remember to take care of yourself during this terrible time. thank you for helping make us laugh through this, we need the joy and happy memories. love you troy <3
Emilia Seidita
2024-10-18 00:01:57 +0000 UTCI already felt like i needed to watch this again during this time but watching it with you will make a 100 times more easy 🫶
Souk Darnajou
2024-10-17 23:58:35 +0000 UTCi love you troy
danielle vt
2024-10-17 23:56:04 +0000 UTCi love you so much troy. thank you for this, i really needed it. i hope youre doing as good as you can be :)
Chloe Lollar
2024-10-17 23:55:48 +0000 UTCthank you so much troy, i truly needed this. it’s beyond heartbreaking and devastating, liam will always be in my heart as a big part of my happiness. rest in great peace liam
Nicole Ellerbrock
2024-10-17 23:54:09 +0000 UTCthank you for this, appreciate you endlessly and I hope you’re doing alright too 🤍🤍
z
2024-10-17 23:53:27 +0000 UTCthis is exactly what i need and watching it with you makes it so much better
Priyanka Patel
2024-10-17 23:51:06 +0000 UTC😭😭 im going to jail 😭😭
Sabrina Thompson-Cook
2024-10-17 23:48:51 +0000 UTCappreciate you🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍
emma 🌷
2024-10-17 23:48:25 +0000 UTCSuch a beautiful message and tribute 🤍 rip Liam 🕊️
Nada M
2024-10-17 23:44:39 +0000 UTCThis was a beautifully written statement. I know watching this with you will be cathartic and will help us all remember the happy memories
Morgan Antinoja
2024-10-17 23:43:28 +0000 UTCThank you for giving us this space Troy. I know watching this will be cathartic when I'm able to.
Ashley Wood
2024-10-17 23:42:00 +0000 UTCLove you 💕
Maggie Deboer
2024-10-17 23:40:51 +0000 UTCThank you for letting us all mourn together this way 🩷
BeccaBee
2024-10-17 23:40:47 +0000 UTCHow can I compensate you for this therapy session? Disassociated to get through Sweat Tour last night, but it’s hitting BIG today 😭
Shay Shay
2024-10-17 23:40:23 +0000 UTCThank you for this. It’s been a difficult 24 hours to process
Ally Riopelle
2024-10-17 23:40:19 +0000 UTCI can’t stop crying today, this whole thing is so messed up, I feel so bad for his family, friends and all of the fans. Posts by the boys are so heartbreaking, I literally tried to read them several times and each time I was interrupted by uncontrollable tears. I’m trying so hard to keep it together, I’ve never thought that celebrity passing away could affect me this hard, as if I lost a friend. I’ve been a fan since forever. It’s a good thing this community exists so we can all be there for each other even without actually knowing one another. May he finally be at peace 🙏🏼
Dina
2024-10-17 23:40:14 +0000 UTCstarted bawling immediately i can't even read the caption rn
selena
2024-10-17 23:38:13 +0000 UTCI’ve been having the hardest day with what happened and seeing this means the world to me. I was just a kid when I saw them on X factor and this is hitting me hard. Thank you and I hope you’re doing okay 🫶🏻
BeccaBee
2024-10-17 23:37:37 +0000 UTCThank you! ♥️
Catharina Goedecke
2024-10-17 23:37:17 +0000 UTCsending love 🧡🧡
Hannah Baker
2024-10-17 23:37:16 +0000 UTCoh god idk if i can do this 😭😭
Allyson Hayes
2024-10-17 23:36:07 +0000 UTCThank you so much for this. Reading your description made me cry. It’s insane to see the impact that they had on us as a generation. I’ve seen so many ppl say the boys shaped them, got them into the career fields they love, and brought connections into their lives. Who can say that a boy band had that much of an impact on you. They are truly so so special and this is truly like closing a door on our childhood. Thank you for making this a comfortable space for us to all grieve together bc you and I aren’t the only directioners that could use this comfort rn. Thank you for all that you do with all of your channels. You’ve truly brought comfort, love of music, and joy to us all and so did the boys. 🤍
Mia
2024-10-17 23:34:55 +0000 UTCthank you for doing this. let's cry together <3
Ashleigh
2024-10-17 23:34:18 +0000 UTCwe love you!!! i am so proud of you for being vulnerable and open about your grief. it is so hard to lose those we look up to. thank you for allowing us to grieve and cry with you <3 my childhood self needed this.
Sami Boyles
2024-10-17 23:33:47 +0000 UTCI don't think I will be able to move on, because just thinking about Liam being gone now in this lifetime, is really really a hard pill to swallow. I grew up with the band, and Liam is indeed the vital of the band. I still can't accept he's gone, like I'm in this endless nightmare. 😭
Jerico Rivera
2024-10-17 23:33:36 +0000 UTCI love this community that you have built so much, Troy. Thank you so much for creating a safe space to grieve and to laugh and to feel all of the complicated feelings that we have all been feeling for the last 24 hours. Sending so much love your way—your journey with One Direction is so spot on with mine, and you’ve made me feel so much less alone. 🤍🤍🤍
Julia Metzger
2024-10-17 23:33:21 +0000 UTCNot ready to watch this again yet as I haven’t seen it since it was in theaters and it’ll hurt too much right now. Just wanted to come here and say I hope you’re doing all right. I’ve been seeing your stories and I’m right there with you. It has been a real tough 24 hours. And to any other directioners I’m sending yall virtual hugs fr 😭❤️🕊️
Demi P.
2024-10-17 23:33:17 +0000 UTCYou always create such safe space Troy. I started watching you because of one direction and it was genuinely one of the best decisions. Thank you for this and i’m sending so much love to you and everyone here 🫠 the world is so cruel
Emily
2024-10-17 23:29:50 +0000 UTCMr first verse 😭😭😭 i hope you're doing okay Troy ❤️ I'll be watching this when it isn't too hard to
Sophie Y
2024-10-17 23:28:12 +0000 UTCI've been struggling all day and I've really wanted to watch this is us but I've been too scared to do it alone, thank you Troy for making me feel less alone ❤️
Mac
2024-10-17 23:28:06 +0000 UTCThanks for letting us cry with you ❤️
Alex K
2024-10-17 23:27:42 +0000 UTCLove you, Troy!! We are all hurting so bad. Grieve how you need to grieve 🤍
Caylie Mayo
2024-10-17 23:27:31 +0000 UTC😔❤️
Amanda F
2024-10-17 23:26:45 +0000 UTCI've been so damn sad - Especially reading Louis and Zayns posts this morning. Had me bawling.
Bee
2024-10-17 23:26:41 +0000 UTCAs a Liam girly from day one this has truly rocked me. My first celebrity death to hit me so hard. Thank you for choosing to watch this with us, us directioners need to unite now more than ever. ❤️❤️
Lara Fryer
2024-10-17 23:25:31 +0000 UTCi love you and we’re all going through the same ❤️
Sheyla Padrón Febles
2024-10-17 23:24:37 +0000 UTCI’m so glad that you decided to do this! My best friend/roommate was not a 1D fan so I can’t really talk to them about it. But we can now all use this as a way to bring back the good memories. None of us have to go through this alone, I’m so sorry Troy for the grief that you’re experiencing, sending lots of love❤️❤️ Rest in Peace Liam😭
Mary Johnson
2024-10-17 23:24:36 +0000 UTCI was about to watch this alone when I got a notification that you posted this. It’s like u knew I would need someone to watch it with 😢
kay
2024-10-17 23:24:22 +0000 UTCthank you🤍
Abbyy Etheredge
2024-10-17 23:24:19 +0000 UTCThank you
Khadija Fatima
2024-10-17 23:23:49 +0000 UTCnever clicked on something so fast. have spent my day watching old clips, old interviews, compilations, music videos. i spent last night crying to the discography. was gonna do this as well because reliving and remembering is also how i grieve, but ill gladly watch with you. thank you for letting us grieve and be vulnerable with you. as someone who never had real life friends to bond over my love for one direction with as a teen-im forever grateful for the online community back then, and now, of directioners for always making me feel seen. okay i’ll actually watch now and cry with you<3
liv
2024-10-17 23:23:48 +0000 UTCThank you for posting this Troy, I'll be glad to have it tomorrow. One Direction gave me my best friend, some of my fondest memories, comfort in my low times and is part of how I found my way to your channel. They'll always be part of me and I'll always have love for each of them ❤️
Rebecca 🌻
2024-10-17 23:23:47 +0000 UTCLong live 1D
Pat
2024-10-17 23:23:30 +0000 UTCthank you for this and for your words. this movie is the reason why I became a 1D fan and spending my college years with them was a joy beyond words. their concert in Brazil was my first ever experience working as press and I'll be forever grateful for what they taught me. they were and still are such an important part of so many peoples lives and we share so many amazing memories together with them and with each other, it's only right we come together at this time as well, to mourn but also celebrate his memory
Giu Bressani
2024-10-17 23:23:19 +0000 UTCnot even a 1D fan and I can’t believe this already has me crying like 20 seconds in 😭😭 troy saying he’s going to jail right after sobbing is taking me out IM SO SORRY🤣
elaina fitzsimmons
2024-10-17 23:22:54 +0000 UTCI will come back to this when I can but thank you Troy and we love you ♥️ One Direction was such a momentous part of mine and a lot of other peoples childhoods and this is a heartbreaking and senseless loss. We will forever be thankful for the time dedication and love these guys have put towards the fans and the love for each other 🫶🏼♥️
gabrie
2024-10-17 23:22:46 +0000 UTCi’m not ready yet, but it’s good to know that, once it’s my first time watching it after liam, i’ll have someone else who understands the feeling and help me go through it watching along. thanks troy
Giullia Franciscon
2024-10-17 23:22:18 +0000 UTCNo cause this really was the comfort I needed
Maria-Gabriela Flores
2024-10-17 23:22:05 +0000 UTCany other day i would love seeing you react to this but i don't think i will ever be able to honestly. this is truly too much for me and i command you for being brave and strong enough to do this. the band was everything to 10 year old me and this is the worst i've ever felt in my life and i've never felt so powerless. hopefully one day i'm strong enough to watch this and smile at the memories. love u troy
anawt91
2024-10-17 23:22:00 +0000 UTCThis has devastated me to my core, when I woke yesterday morning my body went into shock, I didn’t know what to say or how to feel, I consumed as much knowledge as I could overnight and found myself finally releasing my emotions when they released their joint statement!! I will be watching this soon, not today but I need to be with my twin sister to watch this ❤️
Georgina Bosco
2024-10-17 23:21:46 +0000 UTCOh TROY seeing you sob makes me want to sob
Caitlin Gradl
2024-10-17 23:21:45 +0000 UTCTroy 😭😭 I hope eventually I can watch this when im more stable and we can share our grief together. This is such a rough and confusing time but we will get through this together 💙
Marlena Campos
2024-10-17 23:21:38 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this ❤️ One direction shaped my teenage years and who I am today, I have been wanting to watch this all day but didn’t want to watch alone and cry by myself. My heart hurts in so many ways from this news, I hope everyone who reads this knows how loved and important you are 🫶🏽
Trinity DeJesus
2024-10-17 23:21:26 +0000 UTCi NEED this right now. and I didn’t want to watch it by myself, so thank you. this means so much specially today
alejandra
2024-10-17 23:21:23 +0000 UTCalthough i was never really a 1D girlie myself, i know the feeling from similar situations and i know how devastating and overwhelming this grief can feel. we’re all here for you and we all love you *hugs* ♥️
Kaycie Kentzell
2024-10-17 23:21:21 +0000 UTCtroy i started crying as soon as i saw this notification oh my god. i was 11 when they dropped their first album. i relied on their music and engaging in their fandom to get through some of the hardest moments in my life to date. gonna watch this and remember so many good times and cry and continue to try and process.
ariona leilani
2024-10-17 23:21:11 +0000 UTCthis notification started the tears all over again. thank you for this and i will watch and cry with you soon ❤️
Rachel Monson
2024-10-17 23:21:02 +0000 UTCI know I’m gonna sob while watching this omg 💔
Lauren
2024-10-17 23:21:01 +0000 UTCThis is exactly what I need right now. So sad. We love you Liam
Linsey
2024-10-17 23:21:01 +0000 UTCToday has been so incredibly tough. I wanted to watch this but couldn’t bring myself to do it by myself. Thank you for allowing me to grieve with you💔❤️🩹
Genevieve Smith
2024-10-17 23:20:44 +0000 UTCI really needed this thank you ❤️
Emily Hopkins
2024-10-17 23:20:41 +0000 UTCi was really wanting to rewatch it, but not by myself. thank you for that
Nicole Valente
2024-10-17 23:20:39 +0000 UTC🤍🤍🤍
Kayla
2024-10-17 23:20:36 +0000 UTCjust from the thumbnail, i am already broken
Moriah
2024-10-17 23:20:36 +0000 UTCthank you for this troy ❤️ sending love to all my fellow directioners past and present
Sarah Layton
2024-10-17 23:20:34 +0000 UTCi dont know if i can watch this right now, but know that i am feeling every same emotion. the impact they had on me is immense
Emilia Monge
2024-10-17 23:20:25 +0000 UTCThis is so sweet of you 🥺
Zoeybadoey
2024-10-17 23:20:09 +0000 UTCI'm so thankful 1D ended up giving us the gift of you Troy. Sending you mad love 💜
Missy
2024-10-17 23:20:02 +0000 UTCI can't watch right now, but thank you for doing this. I know when my little one goes to sleep and I have time to grieve alone this will help ♥️
Shylena Alba
2024-10-17 23:20:00 +0000 UTCI’m coming back for this I promise
Renelle Finley
2024-10-17 23:19:58 +0000 UTCSaving for later and sending godown vibes your way! :(
Telewyre
2024-10-17 23:19:56 +0000 UTCthank you for this. this fandom needs each other so badly right now, and to be around others who understand what we are feeling. watching this with you feels like the biggest hug.
Skylar
2024-10-17 23:19:47 +0000 UTCtrust me we're all feeling the same way💔 there are no words
charlie
2024-10-17 23:19:42 +0000 UTCWe love you Troy!!! Group hug 😭💜
Ashley
2024-10-17 23:19:42 +0000 UTCsaving this for later ❤️ thank you!!
gg
2024-10-17 23:19:35 +0000 UTCOh the way I just burst into tears
Mads
2024-10-17 23:19:13 +0000 UTC💔💔💔💔💔
Lauren
2024-10-17 23:19:11 +0000 UTCOH MY GOD THIS BROKE MY HEART
savannah mccann
2024-10-17 23:19:05 +0000 UTCThank you for this Troy, we really needed this in a time of grief and sadness. You always know how to bring happiness in times of sorrow, even when you yourself are sad. We love you ❤️
Taeya Holmes
2024-10-17 23:19:04 +0000 UTCThank you so much I needed this rn
Leah
2024-10-17 23:18:59 +0000 UTCi have never ran to a notification so fast. thank you so much for this. i know im gonna cry. YOU ARE MY COMFORT CREATOR FOR A REASON. AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
emily glasser
2024-10-17 23:18:58 +0000 UTCwahhhhh im sat
Petal
2024-10-17 23:18:58 +0000 UTCI really needed this right now 💜
Cat Anderson
2024-10-17 23:18:55 +0000 UTCnuch love, thank you for sharing your story with us <3
Arrow Sparrow
2024-10-17 23:18:54 +0000 UTC<3
Raquel Teixeira
2024-10-17 23:18:50 +0000 UTCi can’t do it yet, they were my everything ❤️🩹 but thank you troy, thank you so so so much
khushi04
2024-10-17 23:18:50 +0000 UTC😭😭❤️🩹❤️🩹
Emily Ferring
2024-10-17 23:18:49 +0000 UTCI’m so broken Troy. I feel so silly being 28 and crying over this boy and yet again, but I just can’t get out of this funk. They were such a big part of my teenage years. They WERE my teenage years.
kay
2024-10-17 23:18:49 +0000 UTCWe all will miss Liam.
Zaria Ewing
2024-10-17 23:18:45 +0000 UTComg troy🥺🤍 we love u!! we have each other
Julie
2024-10-17 23:18:28 +0000 UTCTROY 😭😭😭😭😭
Alexa Stewart
2024-10-17 23:18:23 +0000 UTC❤️
Jess Angus
2024-10-17 23:18:12 +0000 UTC❤️🫶🏼it’s okay
leia
2024-10-17 23:18:09 +0000 UTC💜💜💜
Charlotte C
2024-10-17 23:18:08 +0000 UTCILY TROY❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
gren inigo
2024-10-17 23:17:49 +0000 UTCstooooop i’m literally in the middle of watching it rn
bayleigh
2024-10-17 23:17:45 +0000 UTC
