THIS WEEK...
Added 2022-09-20 15:37:32 +0000 UTCSome of you know this already, but my dad died this morning.
We're doing okay. The last few months - the last few years, to be honest - have been incredibly hard on all of us, physically as well as emotionally, so the main thing I'm feeling (for now anyway) is relief. He was suffering terribly, and I'm happy for him that it's over.
We visited yesterday, and he seemed to be at peace for the first time since he went into hospital. I was pretty sure that would be the final time I'd see him, so I got to say my goodbyes properly.
Suffice to say, there won't be a Digi this week. Aside from anything else, I hadn't realised there was so much damn paperwork when a person dies.
Not sure about BYAMPOD yet. I'd like to record one - and it isn't as if we've not done emotional ones before - but we'll see. We still intend to be at the Aylesbury gig on Saturday. Life goes on.
Thanks, everyone, for bearing with us during this time.
Rest in peace, dad. We love you.
Paul
Comments
This post reminded me so much of the last time I got to sit at my Dad’s bedside as he was passing from Covid. Just holding his hand like you did here, knowing it was the last time. So sorry Paul, but so grateful you’ve got an amazing family to help hold you up. I know the sense of relief too, my Dad was in and out of hospital for two years, and it was just me looking after him. That relief is mixed with pain. In any case, much love to you and take any time you need, we will all be here waiting.
Christopher Clayton
2022-09-24 12:18:41 +0000 UTCSo sorry to hear, but I'm glad he is at peace and the rest of you will have some kind of 'normalcy' back in your lives. I wish you all strength. Take your time, we'll be here when you're ready to come back
The Nitroglycerin Child
2022-09-23 10:59:03 +0000 UTCOh gosh, so sorry to hear this.
Sharpworks
2022-09-22 08:46:29 +0000 UTCTruly sorry for your loss Paul
Darren Le Noble
2022-09-21 20:43:53 +0000 UTCI'm sorry for your loss. I understand entirely about feeling relief, it's difficult to watch loved ones suffer, most especially when you can see there's no rising back out of it. Take all the time you need
Sedric And Charlie
2022-09-21 16:21:51 +0000 UTCSo sorry for you all. I totally get the relief you feel though. My dad did the off while I was sat with him on the August bank holiday 2017. He went suddenly, but before he became so ill it would have been worse. The relief came from not having to worry about him any more, you know? I know it's a cliche to say it, but time really does make things easier. You get to a point where you're no longer automatically sad when you think back. xx
pixelguff
2022-09-21 11:29:13 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry for your loss Paul. We lost mum at the end of May this year after a decade of alzheimers and even knowing it was coming it still felt like being hit by a truck when it happened. We're still not at the end of all the paperwork to deal with and won't be done with the entire process until mid-October. Admin, the final insult.
David Parr
2022-09-21 08:22:44 +0000 UTCSorry to read this. Deepest sympathies.
Phil Alderton
2022-09-21 08:15:09 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry to hear this. Sending all the love to you, mate.
Goggz
2022-09-20 22:58:55 +0000 UTCSending you my condolences, Paul and Sanja. I lost my dear old mum earlier this year and even though it was expected and it was a relief that her suffering had come to an end, it's still such a shock that continues to reverberate months later, and I guess it will continue to reverberate for years to come. Take some time for yourself.
Daniel Spreadbury
2022-09-20 22:27:06 +0000 UTC
