Ramble: Vampire Skitty has Mild Impostor Syndrome [20:15]

Lie's Lhy (sorry, I love silly word play with your name lol)! You're a wonderful patron and an even better person! As a patron, you continue supporting Skitty to a greater extent than most of us and are an amazing pillar of the community! You are familiar with pretty much all of her work, and listen to all her stuff as soon as it drops . . . and you regularly reply to her posts! That's a heck of a lot more than most of us do! I know you're not entirely serious, but still, don't be so hard on yourself! That said, Imposter Syndrome sucks, I battled that for a bit for a good part of the past 6 months and off and on in the years before that. But as far as Skitty and her work and characters go, I feel she has done a wonderful job of creating a very distinctive, unique and obviously *Skitty* characters. I know the fame and the success can kinda bring a number of feelings but if you're reading this Skitty, you have earned every bit of your success! We know there's a disconnect between you and your characters, and you have a lot to do to keep your personal and professional and skitty professional lives separate so I can see how this all adds up. I wish there were more support or some other help we could offer, but you've got this and already seem well composed and poised. You got this! And Lhy, take care of yourself, take some time and treat or spoil yourself! You are a truly wonderful person! But definitely don't beat yourself up, especially over anything small. Trust me, you're amazing, and I'm sure Skitty and the rest think so too!!

AnotherDeafMute

Late to the comment section on this post, I'm a bad patron >.< I want to get back into donating blood more. I last gave in March right after lockdown in my area O.o But I've got another appointment in September. I couldn't for awhile because I had gotten some tattoos and in my state I guess the regulations for tattoo parlors are more lax than other states. I've got good veins too so it's never usually a problem for me. Imposter Syndrome is new to me but I can say I have felt that feeling before. I've been there where you work your butt off and get acknowledged for it but it felt awkward for me because in my eyes I was just doing my job. I think part of the problem is I have high standards for myself, or said another way I'm pretty hard on myself when I don't meet my own standards. Posting this comment late though I can comment on the Vampire Skitty video. Loved it! Especially how both videos begin with "Human!..." Keep up the great work.

Lhykosidae

Because of you I'm gonna go donate blood and plasma and platelets. Hope you're proud mama skitty.

The BoomBiggity

When I was younger giving blood, it was hard to find a vein on me because of my heavy weight. Then the last time I went to to give blood, I was super lean, you could see the vein down my shoulder to bicep, so I thought, well this will be easy for them, they can give me to the newbie. Instead I overheard one saying to another they're afraid to do the draw with veins that prominent. I was surprised at the misconception.

Seneca

omg so many comments... glad you read all of them and reply to most. <3 That Pornhub thing was bull. But glad you skipped over to somewhere else rather than not post the audio. 13th blood donation?! There's a guy who got like 9 liters transferred to save his life and he got 9 hearts (like in Legend of Zelda) tattooed on his arm and gets a heart filled for every liter he donates. I kinda want to donate blood cause of you. I'm adding it to the bucket list. Love yourself, be proud! Hard work in audios and IRL shows. Glad you're keeping the audio side going. Thanks for everything you do, skits.

livejoker

I can see myself doing that sometimes. Overthinking things. I hope your brain will start accepting compliments, 'cuz you are good :)

SkittyKat

Taking a step back has really allowed me to catch up on sleep. <3 Oh man, telling my boss I wanted to scale back was scary. But thankfully they were supportive. If only work knew what this sneaky skitty was up to during her spare time... And thank you so much for the kind words. We should all practice more self-love...and fapnaps ;)

SkittyKat

Yis, fapnaps are da best ^w^ We should rename you to HappyDork :)

SkittyKat

It's okay Skitty we all have trouble taking a compliment sometimes, I personally have extreme difficulty just accepting compliments. My brain is super paranoid from years of bullying that the compliment will just lead to some complex insult later, but I'm getting better about that at least. It's not quite impostor syndrome but I can for sure understand why someone feels that way. Can't say I've ever been tired enough to pass out when I desired to fap... hm... well no that's not entirely true... Nice of you to give the ladies a treat, I could definitely listen to both versions of Skitty being a subby little kitten for guys and gals :3 Your lack of stamina is why you are so naturally subby clearly :D That said you do play a good dom sometimes too. Sequel hype!!! Sequel hype!!! Sequel hype!!! Skitty is such a good girl giving blood even though she has health issues though, more pats for Skitty!

Renmaru

Late to the comment party, but first of all CONGRATULATIONS on the award, and on taking the big step to pull back your hours a bit so you can focus on other things! That's huge, and I'm sure it demanded some courage to make it work! Fapnaps are the best naps btw they just put you right out and then you wake up relaxed. :D But finally, I know ALL about impostor syndrome, heh - not actually, but I feel it often, and I find that it *definitely* helps to remind yourself that you deserve to be in this place, you are where you belong and have every right to be, and that your successes have come as a result of your actual work, your energy, your time, and your struggles as well as your talent and any luck that you've had along the way! Appreciate yourself as hard as you criticize yourself when things go wrong, and then try to tip that balance in favor of appreciation. :D I know I can be really hard on myself when I do something poorly, but it's also important to celebrate those big wins too, because fuck, you deserve them!

phoenix

Yay a new Skitty ramble! :3 I have a feeling if I recorded in bed, I'd fall asleep within minutes xD Hehehe :3 Fap naps sound adorable x3 I honestly giggled at that way too much x3 Woooh, super excited for the vampire Skitty audio! :3 I definitely get impostor syndrome a lot; at uni, on reddit, and basically with anything else. But I feel like recently I have gotten a lot happier with what I do and am starting to accept praise and compliments a lot more. And it honestly feels really good not putting myself down so much anymore and being able to take compliments :3 And congrats on the award at your job Skitty! I'm sure you deserve it and I'm glad all the hard work you put in got recognized! &lt;3

Aw, people shouldn't bully you if you have a legitimate reason. Your health should always come first. Even I can't give all the time. *hands you a shiny award for being a good listener* :)

SkittyKat

Aw <3 I'm really happy you liked it so much. I still can't believe I did a 40min audio. lol I hope the second one will do it justice.

SkittyKat

Fap nap? Never heard of that, but it may explain sometimes my waking up with my hands in my drawers, if you know what I mean ;) Sapphic Skitty is good content too :) Sounds like a Dom for Skitty should add in fingering exercises :p Wish I could give blood, but I have a "rare" blood disease, so that's a no. Fun how other folk try to guilt me into it. I bet both your arms have nice veins. Do you deserve the award? The answer is yes, you deserve it. It sounds like you sacrifice a bit for work. I personally don't have imposter syndrome. I don't get recognized for stuff as is, so when I get "rewarded" for anything, I take it. Belated good night Skitty :D

Da_robblar

Cant wait for Vampire Skitty 2. First one is still my Favorit fall asleep Audio <3

Noxy Keng

Let me help start you off by saying you're a good person. Thoughtful and kind, and I hope one day you'll be able to see what in yourself as well :)

SkittyKat

Thanks Armas :) I hope your studying has also been going well. Remember to take breaks!

SkittyKat

*hugs* That sounds like a whole lot of stress. Take a step back maybe and reassess what needs to change. It sounds like this job needs to go. If and when you have spare time, look into sprucing up your resume.

SkittyKat

It sounds like you know what you're doing now. Really happy to hear that :) Donating would be the perfect opportunity to figure out what blood type you are. (They'll find out for you)

SkittyKat

I hope you got some sleep in before work. You sound very humble, I respect that :) ...I realize I may be a gateway for a lot of my YouTube listeners. ...a little concerned about the young'uns who may wander into my adult content.

SkittyKat

Oof, that is no fun. Fear of disappointment, I can empathize with that one. I found that talking to those I'm afraid of disappointing really helps puts things into perspective. It's usually not as bad as we think :)

SkittyKat

You are successful :) *patpat* <3

SkittyKat

F4FM could be a JOI/JOE. I'm sure it probably exists, but probably very popular. The one up the new site has on soundgasm is that you can search. It's trying to combine GWA and soundgasm. Well, they do say impostor syndrome is highest among high achievers. So...*patpat* You're doing well :)

SkittyKat

Maybe we can hide in a blanket-fort together and marvel at our new shiny awards. :3

SkittyKat

*pats head* You are very awesome <3 We'll work on getting to you accept praise :)

SkittyKat

And belated congrats to you as well!! :) Grad school is hard. Well, uni/college in general. I remember feeling like such a smartie in high school to wtf-am-I-doing in post-secondary.

SkittyKat

Yeah, I think acceptance is really important. We write off a lot of the things we do.

SkittyKat

Our brains are dumb sometimes. :p

SkittyKat

I get fidgety if my supervisors or co-workers compliment my work. I never really feel like I deserve it. At least I understand now it's an irrational feeling and I'm trying to get past it. Maybe if I tell myself I'm awesome enough times I'll start believing it someday.

Daniel Mayer

It's the opposite for me. I've been told I'm not as good as someone else, told, to my face. I'm probably very, very underpaid, which stresses me out. It just kills my motivation thinking about it, but I have to still work. I have to work to pay bills, to live honestly, and I'm tired. My problems seemed like they were pushed aside because I was being compared to this other person I'm not as good as. My job makes me feel not important. I just need a better outlet and to do other things I guess. I just don't talk about it because it would seem like I'm just complaining?? I just need a break from life or something. But I'm always fighting that tired/lazy feeling. Man I don't know

qravity

I don’t know if it really counts but in the past I use to never give myself credit for anything that I achieved, like I didn’t deserve it or it didn’t mean anything coming from me. Now I just smile and go on and be happy about it. I know sometimes you can feel like you didn’t do much but I just appreciate myself and the people around me. I never actually donated blood I’m not afraid of needles just never find myself to actually do it, I thought about donating before but in the end of the day I don’t think about it or the opportunity. Doesn’t help that I don’t know my blood type either 😅 Sleep well skitty! 😴

JDLGBOYZ21

Performers, writers, olympians, engineers. Yes, some people do manage to fool the masses and scam their way to riches and fame (as far as we see--they probably had their own share of struggles). But, like you said: we put a load of work into a valuable thing, so we do deserve a reward. They wouldn't be giving you a reward if you weren't deserving of it. (On the other hand, don't forget to give thanks to those who work thanklessly.) Have I experienced it myself? Yes. Outside of the Internet, I mostly like to keep to myself and avoid the spotlight. Until some particular contributions apparently warranted high praise. I was just performing my work duties. As for the state of the web, I remember when things were more open, varied, and you could speak more freely. Now websites are looking more uniform, everyone and everything gets consolidated into a handful of platforms with increasingly restrictive content policies. Is it all just for the sake of advertiser-friendliness or will the more niche stuff be pushed underground? How valid is the argument that this is the gateway stuff into more extreme stuff? I don't know it's 6:45AM and I have work in 2h15m whoops have a good night

silent_glass

I’ve been dealing with imposter syndrome for some time now, and that mixed with my fear of disappointing people has been making the project I’ve been trying to work on for the last couple months really difficult for me. not fun, don’t recommend :c

DoujinShinji

No, that would imply that I am successful and get complements/praise.

Shining_Darkness

You say you'd fall asleep recording audios. And I don't know, I think that'd be lovely. Fap nap is wonderful. Either way you win. Instead of F4A, has anyone ever done an F4FM? I'm not even sure how it'd work. But interesting thought. How does the new one stack up against soundgasm? Isn't that also community made? Good girl! I too like to give blood as much as possible. Since I give platelets, I've given every couple weeks since I was 16. 24 donations a year.... I must be near 360 donations so far. Over time I got used to the needles. But when I started I would look away and pinch a fingertip on the alternate hand to try and draw attention away. Im on the marrow registry and an organ doner as well. The one time I got called up for marrow was a trip. 8 hours in the bed. But such a great feeling. Because they only ever take marrow when you are compatible and someone needs it right away, everytime you know you're saving some's life. Tomorrow someone is alive because of you. Bethematch.org save a life. (And you get free cookies and juice). I suffer from imposter syndrome a lot. I'm still sometimes amazed Skitty is my friend. I'm sure tomorrow she'll find out I'm just a terrible piece of garbage and never want to talk to me again.

TeddyBearPaladin

I'm with you on the formal work recognition.... sometimes when I get announced at roll call my brain is screaming at me "No I know I could've done X better, I don't deserve this" Covid has made roll call a thing of the past, we just kinda do it as we walk past in a hallway so I very quietly accepted officer of the month recently and was happy that the new major said she wish she could have more officers with my attitude... that made me feel like my effort to try to always do my best didnt go unnoticed =^,^=

NekoWinters .

I get this feeling almost on a daily basis because of my colleagues praising me for things I don’t think are worthy of praise. I know the feeling all too well.

Ramiru

Congratulations on the award! I'm sure you deserve it. The worst I've ever felt impostor syndrome is when I was just starting graduate school. I thought everyone was more talented and deserving than I was, and felt in way over my head. Little by little though, 5 years later, I got my poofy hat and piece of paper!

Oliver Lum

I’ve been in that position too; where it’s like I’m put on a pedestal and become a sort of role model for everyone else. Sometimes that feeling makes me feel like I’m slacking on things and I’ll do even more work and it kinda becomes a cycle 🤷🏻‍♂️ But like you say just reflect on yourself and accept the compliment. Selfishness is not always a bad thing

Ryan N

Last time I was this early I had to be put into an incubator to survive =0.0= *~Wiggles into my blanket fort with my earbuds in just incase I get sleepy from teh potential sleepy rambles~*

NekoWinters .

Ye I get that feeling alot regardless of what it is I'm doing

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