idfk what im gonna do with this patreon and im at the verge of collapse becuse of my general lack of success in art
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ive tried a bunch of different strategies and nothing works lol
people just dont wanna suppurt my wrok si i ahve either done something to earn their distrust or idfk
im just so tired of this tbh
sine patreon is liteallyu my only source of income and my general energy to do art is drained
and i cant sell out to whatever is trendy or popular, i really cant without emotional drainage
and now i've got tired of drawing the big titty squid lady so i guess none of my plans work out
drwaing fro 4 years wtih virtualaly no tangile results has been an absolute pain
and paywaklling my content only makes people despise my work or me as person for being greedy lol
so ill be brutally honest
i'm so sick of doing art.
sick of my general dsiability to chase trends and post quantity over quality which are a huge disadvantage in the market mind you
and sick of drawaing for basically free for the exception of like
10 people lol
is not about being ungrateful its about being realistic
i cant do art like this or ill fucking starve.
So
I might just end up quitting
im sick of flipflopping arround getting negligible tangible results in the real world from my art
my health has only gotten worse both physically and mentally
im not really that good at drawing judging for how long i take to make what others make in 20 minutes
im getting hardly any money or crowd from this
and no doing things out of passion is not feasible thing.
i dont have the energy anymore to draw as much as i used to and i only do it out of habit
my brain is also cognitively fried because of the general lack of proper nutrition
and itjust keeps getting worse, being an artist has been one of the worst most painful things in my life
seeing how people who started the same time as you did get ahead of you in life
already making a living and having a strong followerbase
meanwhile here i am still fliflopping because i cant neother draw fanart neither draw fast due emotional damage or general incompete
im also sick of all of the gaslighthing in the art community and the people who sells courses and shit, talent is not a myth and lemme tell you, i dont fucking have it. talent being one of these things that facilitated success:
1- being a fast learner
2- self efficacy
3- good fine motor skills
4 - good observation skills
5- drwaing fanart restores your sanity instead of draining it
6- not being a perfectionist
7- being able to draw fast and good at the same time
i have none of the above
and it shows on my results
the only thing i have left now is venting and hope somebody cares.
im sick of this crap, so sick of it. you can only draw for so long without getting good resuls without destroying your sanity. 2023 has been an absolute horrid year for me and will only keep getting worse unless baically a miracle happen.
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well. kind of anxious selling out my work, and since i dont have ilike... status, aintuqiity influence whatever you wanna call it ill basically have to sell my work for a fraction of what i believe is worth, as for the fanart well, i hate doing it. like... i didnt signed up into art to make fanart, i really don't like the idea of not drawing my own characters and that stuff. also there is jealousy, i do not enjoy basically fucking a character that everybody else is fucking. Nsfw fanart is pretty far away from what i actually wanted to do with my artwork in the beggining. and yes i struggle a lot doing comission work because of that to ike i said before i have horrible self efficacy skills too and hte more comissions i fail to make the less people trusts in me and the less willing they are to support lol ive seen it time and time again ive also seen plenty of time people who only used me for cheap comissions and then discarded me lol havent had the best experience doing those tbh and there is also seeing my most personal self indulgent original work flop that also hurts like hell lol also i probably still carry the stigma of being neocoill's coycat style wise lol, never try to replicate someone else's style, worst mistake of my life. generally speaking tho all of the most caring supporters hav ecome from sk and hdn so thats a thing still i kind of hate the sight of my fanart overshadowing my original stuff lol. thats more pain. i also used to talk more openly here, or generally with the people I really don't anymnore lol i feel lik im just annoying them telling them my whole life story, and ive been backstapped or basically taking advantage off for opening up emotionally bout my problems plenty of times so there is that.
Mantideesh Devata
2023-12-17 20:19:31 +0000 UTCI like your Senran Kagura artworks too I also miss you doing Neptunia art
Tommy-kun123
2023-12-17 08:38:37 +0000 UTCHey now, don’t feel down just yet. Your art is super incredible. Your shadings and style are top notch. If you’re worried about income, how about opening up commissions? You could post your art on Twitter and Reddit. There is a Sub-Reddit that allows you to receive commissions if you just put yourself out there. r/commissions
Tommy-kun123
2023-12-17 08:37:57 +0000 UTC
