Is this home?
Added 2024-05-21 23:39:52 +0000 UTCFound myself back in Florida this last weekend and felt immediately more tranquil. The way the humidity blends with the warmth feels comforting. The jungle is so alive around me. I just hope this place doesn't get taken over and trampled on.
Since moving to South Carolina, I've been hoping to find a similar magic and feeling about the area. I've found so many places are special but it takes a while to see them. I've been so caught up in my new job though I haven't had the time to explore. I have been touring though. I'm glad to keep modeling. I'm also exhausted! I just can't seem to catch up on sleep. I love being busy. I wanted a job to relax to, and instead I'm trying to find new projects and I'm feeling just as inspired. I love this job. I love learning something new. I'm so curious about it. A part of me is dying in South Carolina though. I need to find something to create some sanity.
I think I may have found a dream apartment for myself. It's expensive, but I'm hoping it'll encourage me to stay home and create and dream and take care of myself. I think it's hard to relax when I feel a bit homeless. Part of modeling is never really having a home. I just traveled all the time. My car became my little familiar space. I'm so appreciative of the people letting me stay in their spaces as I travel, it's made me want my own space. I dream about a little sanctuary.
Maybe this will be a change from all my outdoor photoshoots (probably not). More than anything I'm so excited by the idea of staring out into the night sky as I fall asleep at night and watching the sunrises and sunsets with my cat. It's calling to me in a way that a space never has before.
