So many sets

Photos by Triangle City

edited by me

I have a lot of photos and self portraits to post, but I've been bogged down by editing them. Partially, I have spent my time on other things, but mentally I haven't been in the right frame of mind to edit. I enjoy editing, but creating a mood and recreating a feeling with the photos can be a struggle if I'm not clear on my own feelings in the moment. 

I've mentioned it once and will a thousand more times that this pandemic has shaken me.  I keep second guessing if I want to model because a part of me has forgotten what it's like to model, and only associates it with the last few months of sitting, losing money, and reading internet drama.  I need to move on from modeling while it isn't happening at a rate that's frequent enough to do my job, or else tour again, but I don't expect a tour to be very busy right now, for the best reasons.  I can sew, work on self portraits, continue to edit photos, but it doesn't have the same challenges and opportunities as pursuing a business. 

I dabbled in how to make modeling more remote. I haven't been very good at it or pursuing it.  I'm hoping with the build of my own studio space, I'll feel more inspired to do so.  It's a different frame of mine, and different kind of work.  Maybe it'll be better, and maybe it'll be less interesting. I'm nervous to try soemthing I might not like, and want to tear down after building it up. But that is life. It's the constant pursuit of various things until we find the right career, partner, house, wine, etc etc. Everything small to large.  It's less a concern with wasting my time, as it is with how will my choices effect other people. It's all a new experience, journey, and story for me.

My friends are working their hardest to convince me I need to move to onlyfans. While patreon has more the branding I want, more people have hopped shipped to go there. Anyone have experience with it?