Edits
Added 2019-12-31 06:57:44 +0000 UTCMy plan was to edit at least one of these and post them before midnight but I struggled. I have another one that I probably worked the longest on and it still didn't come out right. Maybe I'll wake up in the morning and it'll look alright. It isn't a self confidence issue but plane old writer's block. I forced myself to squeeze out some creativity and perspective. While it might not be my best work, I feel some cathartic release. Editing is a great way for me to be creative besides editing. Photography would be too if I felt that same kind of passion for it. I can't begin to reason why I don't, other than maybe wanting to be defiant. My personality is very rebellious, even when there is no real reason to be. In photography everything is too real. Will I'm forced to find things to enjoy I'm the world and feel that I have the ability to capture the beautiful moments I see (sunset hitting tree branches, layers of fall leaves, the glitter over water), I find the escapism of modeling and editing more satisfying. As a model I'm cool, comfortable, naturally inclined to have better posture. I can dream up that I'm a bombshell, a mermaid, someone glamorous or stylish. With editing I can tell a new story by making a beautiful sunny day haunting or cartoonish.
