Health weirdness.

Hi all, apologies in advance, this is gonna be a bit of a vent post.

TW: health issues?

For the last... Two and half months, I've been sick pretty much constantly. It began at the start of February with heart palpitations and lightheadedness, and currently I'm on near-constant headaches and nausea. It has been very hard to work on art consistently, and it's immensely frustrating because I just haven't been able to do what I planned for nearly 3 months now.

Of course, I've been to the doctor's several times. I'm going again next week. Every time I do get an explanation, and it calms me down for a bit as I get told to come back in 5 weeks if it doesn't go away, and then 5 weeks later I am indeed back. I'm not even sure if I'm suffering from one thing, or if this is multiple things with similar symptoms back to back to back. It's also not like it's always equally bad. The main reason I do believe it is the latter (multiple things back to back to back) is because there have been patches where I have felt like I was getting better, before crashing again a couple days later.

It is driving me insane. I haven't felt properly healthy since January, and I'm trying my best not to go crazy and have an anxiety attack fueled breakdown every other day. It's hard. Really hard. And my attempts to distract myself from my anxiety-riddled brain often aren't succesful.

I'm doing my best to work on art as much as I can, not just because I owe it to my lovely Patrons and commissioners, but also because I want to, obviously. I love drawing. And it is super frustrating that I have to stop myself incredibly often because my health currently just won't allow me to do any more.

I hope I'll at least know what's going on soon. And crossing my fingers I'll actually be able to do something about it.

Thanks for hearing out my crazy ramblings. Love you all.