Boop
Added 2018-09-18 09:54:47 +0000 UTCHi everyone!
Good morning or good evening or whatever time it is where you're all at lmao
It's about 5:30 am here and I'm just working on this upcoming video. I wanted to have the entire thing edited and released for some time tomorrow but honestly we'll see. I feel like lately my mind has been in such a fog. I'm going through the motions of video editing and scripting but I'm constantly riddled with anxieties about the whole thing. Its It's what I enjoy doing of course, but lately I feel like it's been getting harder to really "face the numbers".
I had two collaborations I have been working on- one has been pushed back indefinitely, and I dont blame that person, they honestly just werent feeling the game at the moment and wished to work on other stuff until their crcreativity came back, which i totally get as i've also experienced this many times. Its just the timing is sort of a downer xD
In terms of my second collab, the entire script was finished and I had shot my part, but suddenly the other person waa no longer feeling the topic, as the topic was picked by their fans so they felt their heart wasnt in it. Thats was poopie too. I cant blame them for not being able to continue because I understand that you really have to be in a certain head space for video making, but still it just feels like lost opportunities to help my channel get the push it needs in the right direction. And two consecutive collabs that fail can be super discouraging. Ahhh
Im gonna take a but of a break then return to editing in an hour from now. I guess I just wanted to rant a little haha
