IMPORTANT: REWARD CHANGES. please read!

hey folks! please read this post. i know it's a bit long but it contains important info about a couple of changes i'm making to my patreon rewards. 

 •  i've realised i currently can't handle doing commissions/YCHs. due to my mental health issues they cause me too much stress and anxiety, and consume excessive time and energy. i'm kind of struggling to keep myself afloat, so i have to focus on creating fun and stress-relieving things instead of stress-inducing. so i've decided to entirely remove the "first notice of open commission slots, YCHs, and available adoptables" reward from tier 1 ($1).

will i ever do commissions, YCHs, or adoptables in the future? i honestly don't know. i'm more open to the idea of doing adoptables, but we'll see. 

long story long: i'm currently feeling like shit. i have obsessive compulsive disorder and general anxiety disorder. i'm dealing with a lot of financial issues and an uncertain living situation. my day job is kind of going to shit (i'm barely making enough to pay rent + i'm worried about getting fired) and i don't know how long i can stay in my current apartment. my beloved dog - my best friend (and unofficial therapy dog) for 15 years - is suffering grave health issues and has an estimated 5 months left to live. i really would need to see a therapist but i can't afford it. i live alone with no family or close friends nearby, so i have to face every hardship on my own. (kubi is always there for me, but we live 9 time zones apart.) tl;dr: woe is me.

with all this stress and anxiety i have realised that i currently can't manage taking on commissions or doing YCHs. it's very stressful because i put a lot of pressure on myself to overdeliver and 'perfect' the piece, my OCD kicks in, and i end up spending excessive amounts of time and energy on each piece. i can spend hours upon hours obsessively tweaking and editing tiny details that nobody else would ever notice, until my stomach aches from anxiety and i just want to cry because it's so exhausting. i don't know if people who don't have OCD can relate to that feeling. and the worse i feel, the worse it gets. i can't afford it right now.

 •  i'm changing the tier 2 ($3) process pack reward from "1-2 process packs/month" to "1 process pack/month." quality over quantity. (just to be clear i'll still also do the MOTM $5 process pack as per usual: there will always be one $3 process pack and one $5 MOTM process pack.)

 •  the GOOD news is i currently have more time to draw and create. my ultimate dream is being able to support myself entirely as an independent artist online. i want to focus more on my patreon and create more stuff, including new stuff/new rewards. i just gotta settle on stuff that won't stress me out - and i need your help deciding! i've just posted 2 polls, the first is about what you enjoy the most out of my current content and the second is all about ideas for new rewards - please vote in both of them, it'd be really helpful! (right now it definitely looks like i'll start writing nsfw stories!)

 •  i've added a 5th tier: 20 USD. beyond a twitter shoutout feat. a sketch of one of my OCs saying thanks, it has no special rewards attached to it. it's simply for those of you who would like to support me a bit more - people *have* pledged $20 in the past, so i figured i might as well "officially" offer the option. u//v//u

and that's it for now! thanks for reading, and thanks for understanding <3