I'm a bit broken

Ok it's been a while since I've made a video and I know people are probably curious what the heckers checkers is going on.

Whelp I underestimated how easy my job was going to be. You see I got my old job as a Teen Mentor back, only it's not really my old job, it's basically a new job since it's all remote. I wont bore you with the details but basically I help kids with their school work. I did Youtubing in the past working there physically but doing it remote has really thrown my routine out the window and I've been just trying to adjust. The main issue is that this all happened in the midst of some killer burn out. Idk exactly when but at a certain point in the last few months making videos stopped being fun, somewhere it became work and a source of stress.

Something broke inside me, and I've basically decided to take a break from the grind of video making. But relax yourself that doesn't mean I'm quitting. I'm not even really taking a break from video making, if you go back and read that sentence you'll see that I said I'm taking a break from the "grind" of video making. In the past I've given myself fairly strict deadlines for making videos, and I think this is the main attribute of the stress the process adds to my life. So that's what I'm taking a break from, I'm currently even working on a Doom Eternal DLC video, but when it will come out I can't say. I'm doing what I can to try to enjoy making videos again, so I'm taking it slow for now.

Another aspect to this too is that I don't know when I'll return to making videos about platform fighters again, because I've been like 95% dedicated to that and so I need a break from that subject matter as well. I have so many other interests and I've put off making videos about those interests for the most part because I've been really trying to grow the channel, but the down side is that I've made video making less fun since I'm denying myself many of the things I find fun. So in short I think I gotta just spend some time making videos for myself that probably will do very poorly in terms of views.

So this is all a bummer let's focus on some positives. I've been still having a blast making Dinock and streaming it all. Streaming is very easy for me and low effort so if you like that then you're in luck. Right now I can only guarantee streams on the weekends, but I'm confident at some point my work schedule will settle down and I'll be able to have more streams throughout the week. Basically since my job was just getting started I've been adding more and more kids that I need to mentor and moving different work meetings around, but at some point that should level out. Anywho I've been loving it, and my progress with Dinock is really fulfilling, so stop by and check it out if you haven't already plug plug wink wink nudge nudge.

Alrighty sorry that I can't make a bajillion more Rivals videos, a part of myself still wants to and I'm sure in time I'll be able to get back to it, but until then I'll be chugging along.

See you all on the flip flop and Merry Xmas yall! (Yes, Xmas time is November 1st-New Year, I will defend this until the day I die)