Chapter 3: The Ever-Positive Angel Is in Charge of the Magical Girl's Mental Care
Added 2025-05-16 07:35:35 +0000 UTCMagical Girl Black (Food)
Maybe because I passed straight through the door, Yoo Seo-ah gave up and let me inside.
After all that back-and-forth, I finally entered her homeâ
And âmessâ didnât even begin to describe it.
The entire room was saturated with the stench of old cigarette smoke.
She mustâve smoked so much that even the wallpaper was stained a dull apricot color.
Youâre wondering, âWasnât it just that color to begin with?â
No. I can say with confidenceâdefinitely not.
I mean, ceilings are usually white, right?
But even the ceiling had turned apricot.
Actually, the upper part of the wall near the ceiling was almost brown.
If thatâs what hits you right away, you can imagine what the rest of the room looked like.
The sticky floor made squelch, squelch sounds with every step.
Empty cigarette packs scattered everywhere, glass bottles filled not with drinks but with ash and spit, and dozens of overflowing ashtrays.
How can someone live in a place like this?
It wasnât a room. It was more like she was living inside an ashtray.
As I glanced around the disaster zone, Yoo Seo-ah sighed and slumped onto the bed, looking completely drained.
ââŚJust find somewhere to sit. Donât waste time with pointless chatter.â
âAh, yes.â
Somewhere to sit⌠but aside from the bed, thereâs literally nowhere.
I could float in midair, but itâd feel weird to just hover around when Iâm supposed to be here doing mental care...
Guess thereâs no choice.
âUh, excuse me, Iâll just⌠scooch in for a moment.â
ââŚHuh? O-oh⌠okay.â
Fluttering gently through the air, I sat down next to Yoo Seo-ah on the bed.
She flinched slightly in surprise, but didnât push me away.
Now that I was sitting right beside her, I expected⌠you know, that kind of soft girl scent.
But there wasnât any.
From head to toeâjust the smell of cigarettes. Nothing else.
âŚThis is bad. Really bad.
âUm⌠Where should I begin? I guess a self-introduction would be best?â
As I cautiously opened the conversation, she glanced at me with a surprised expression, then looked away, staring blankly ahead again.
Judging from that hazy expression, she didnât even seem to have the will to talk.
âAnyway, Iâll go first then?â
ââŚDo whatever you want.â
âIâm⌠well, just like I said earlier, Iâm an angel. See? Wings, halo, right here.â
ââŚYeah. I see that.â
âŚCould you at least look this way when you say it?
I swallowed the words rising to my throat and forced a bitter smile.
âI came here to help you, Yoo Seo-ah-ssi.â
ââŚHelp me?â
The moment I said âhelp,â Seo-ahâs voice dropped low and heavy as she turned to glare at me.
Her eyes made it clearâif I said the wrong thing now, I might die.
Goosebumps crawled down my arms.
âYou think you can say that shit when you donât know anything about me?â
That glare could kill.
I averted my eyes and replied quietly.
âI donât know.â
ââŚWhat?â
âI donât know. Thatâs why I came. To hear your story. The pain, the suffering, everything thatâs been hurting and tearing you apart. So I can listen, and then try to help.â
ââŚHa.â
Yoo Seo-ah let out a hollow laugh and covered her mouth.
The way she covered her lips with one hand didnât look like she was trying to stop herself from speaking, it looked more like she was holding a cigarette.
She stared silently into empty space for a while, then finally let out a sigh and answered.
ââŚDidnât you already know everything about me before you came?â
Her words, tossed out like she didnât care, were filled with nothing but resignation.
Lying and saying ânoâ would only backfire here.
It was better to be at least a little honest.
âHmm⌠Not everything. All I knew was that youâre a magical girl⌠and that youâre really struggling.â
ââŚI see.â
She flinched a little at the mention of magical girls, but then simply nodded.
There wasnât any deep meaning behind itâjust a nod.
ââŚGuess I really am having a hard time, huh.â
She muttered that, then turned her eyes toward me.
âIf Iâm hallucinating something like this, I must be really fucked up.â
âŚIs that why she didnât hit me earlier, even though she looked like she wanted to?
I let out another long sigh, then hopped off the bed and stood up straight.
âHuh?â
Yoo Seo-ah stared at me, blinking blankly, but didnât do anything.
I stepped toward her and gently took both of her hands in mine.
Her handsâthose hands that had held weapons and fought for so longâwere nothing like the image of a magical girl.
They were hard, rough, and covered in calluses.
With these hands, sheâd saved others.
With these hands⌠sheâd taken her own life.
When my thoughts reached that point, a small flame ignited in my heart.
No matter what happens, Iâm going to make sure this magical girl smiles again.
Truly, genuinely smiles.
In the chaos of everything, Iâd almost forgotten.
Why I came to this world in the first place.
âMake the magical girls happy in place of that bastard author.â
With that resolve, I squeezed her hands tighter.
Only then did Yoo Seo-ah flinch and finally look at me.
ââŚHuh?â
âIâm not a hallucination. And Iâm not a voice in your head, either. Like I said, Iâm an angel. An angel sent just for you.â
I smiled brightly as I said that.
Her hands started trembling.
âI know itâs going to be hard. But Iâll be right here, helping you. So please, let me help you.â
She bowed her head deeply, and I quietly waited for her reply.
Soon after, Yoo Seo-ah slowly lifted her head.
ââŚGet out.â
ââŚHuh?â
âGet the hell out of my house!â
She grabbed me by the collar and before I could react, she flung me out the front door.
âW-wait! Thereâs still a story to shareâ!â
âIâ!!â
I flinched at the sudden shout.
âIâŚI never asked for anyoneâs help. So just leave me alone. Please⌠just go awayâŚâ
With that, she turned her back on me and walked off into the night.
I stood frozen for a while, staring at the spot sheâd been.
Then I looked back at the open door.
ââŚShe didnât even close it.â
After a momentâs thought, I gave a small nod.
Yeah.
Screw it, letâs just barge right back in.
***
Iâm pissed off.
Seriously pissed off...
Help me?
Who the hell are you to say something like that?
Like you know anything.
You donât know a damn thing.
You donât know how much I've been through.
And yet you want to help me?
Crack...
I grit my teeth and head for the convenience store.
When I arrive at the usual place, the same part-timer as always greets me.
âAh, welcome. Youâre here earlier than usual today.â
The way he smiled brightly made me think of that self-proclaimed angel again, and my stomach twisted.
No, this is all because I havenât smoked.
Once I have a cigarette, everything will be fine.
This damn irritation, the headacheâeverything.
âFive cartons of Marlboro Red, please.â
âHuh? Itâs only been four days. Did you already finish all of them? Thatâs really bad for your health, you know.â
âWhat makes you think you get to worry about me?â
The words slipped out before I could stop them, reacting to the concerned tone in his voice.
Normally, I wouldnât have snapped like that.
But I guess not being able to smoke has made me more on edge than I realized.
âAhaha⌠Y-yeah, youâre right. Sorry. I guess I was oversteppingâŚâ
ââŚJust ring it up already.â
âThing is⌠we havenât gotten the new stock in yet. I only have two cartons right now. Do you still want them?â
I usually only come in once a week, so I guess itâs not weird they donât have more.
Not that it matters. Whether itâs two or tenâif thereâs any, thatâs enough.
âYes.â
âAlright, thatâll be 90,000 won. Iâll throw in a lighter for free.â
Instead of saying thanks, I gave a quick nod, paid, and walked out.

(TL: This is Yoo Seo-ah)
Hands shaking, I tore open the packaging, shoved a cigarette between my lips, and lit it up.
Click. Flick.
I took such a deep drag that my vision started spinning.
The cigarette burned down in an instant.
As I exhaled with a long sigh, all the tension in my body drained out.
I staggered for a moment, then leaned against the wall of the convenience store and took another drag.
My lungs are burning.
The auditory hallucinations faded along with the crackling of burning tobacco.
That damn headache vanished behind a curtain of smoke.
âHaaaahâŚâ
Just two drags, and Iâd already burned through the whole stick.
A cold shiver ran through my body.
I gagged. My mouth dried up completely.
But that horrible sensationâthat was what reminded me I was still alive.
And this toxic smokeâthis was my oxygen tank.
ââŚâ
Just one more.
Tears I couldnât even explain welled up in my eyes as I stuck another cigarette in my mouth.
Lighting it, I breathed in, praying that lunatic would be gone by the time I got home.
One cigarette, then anotherâŚ
By the time my hand stopped trembling and my mind started to go fuzzy, I realized the brand-new pack Iâd just opened had gotten noticeably lighter.
âAlready almost through a whole packâŚâ
At this rate, I really might die young.
âŚIf only I actually could.
If I could just burn up and disappear like one of these cigarettes, all in an instantâŚ
With that thought lingering, I slowly got up and made my way home.
Dragging my feet, swimming through the dusky, fading streets of evening, I finally arrived.
âDid I leave the door openâŚ?â
I squinted at the half-open front door, closed my eyes tightly, and then reopened them as I stepped forward.
ââŚFood?â
The moment I stood at the entrance, what hit me wasnât the usual stale stench of cigarettesâ
It was the warm, savory scent of soybean paste stew.
Of course, no one lives in my house but me.
Itâs a single-family homeâno roommates, no neighbors.
Which meansâŚ
Thereâs only one possible culprit.
ââŚâ
Any slight sense of calm Iâd gotten vanished like it had been stomped into mud.
I flung the door open and stepped inside.
Gone were the piles of filth, cigarette butts, and overflowing ashtraysâ
Instead, I was greeted by a room that had been scrubbed clean.
The yellowed wallpaper and stained ceiling were still the same, but at least the sticky floor no longer clung to my feet with every step.
âWhy the hell would she do something like this without my permissionâŚ!!â
I stormed in, tossed the cartons of cigarettes onto the bed, and started tearing through the place.
But no matter where I looked, there wasnât a single trace of that so-called angel.
âCome out!! Come out right now!! I never asked for your help!! You donât know a damn thing, so what gives you the right to âhelpâ me?! Youâre just getting in the way!! Who the hell do you think you are toâ!!â
I screamed, but of course, no answer came.
I fumed and paced for a while, but the pounding headache forced me to put a cigarette to my lips again.
Just as I was about to light itâ
I froze, staring at the meal set out on the table.
Soybean paste stew, white rice, kimchi, grilled fish.
A simple meal, but⌠it somehow felt familiar.
I stared at the food in a daze for a while.
Then, like I was in a trance, I sat down and picked up the spoon.
I took one sip of the stewâ
And it was salty.
So salty it stung my tongue.
She mustâve gotten the water ratio wrong.
Well, I guess that makes sense.
An angel who doesnât even eat trying to cook for a humanâŚ
ââŚWhyâd she make it so damn saltyâŚâ
Drip. DripâŚ
I set the cigarette down by the table and covered my eyes with one hand.
ââŚSeriously. Youâre such a pain in the assâŚâ
Just one salty soup.
Just one clean room.
Why the hell does something so insignificant shake me up this much?
I kept eating as I cried.
âUgh⌠sniff... gakhâŚ!â
I felt nauseous every time I swallowed something because I had smoked too muchâ
But I kept forcing food into my mouth and down my throat.
Because in that too-salty soybean paste stewâŚ
I tasted my momâs cooking.
***
Using the leftovers in the fridge, I tried making stew, but I accidentally put in too much saltâso I ran out to buy ingredients to redo itâŚ
âHic⌠sniff... ugh, hrrrrghâŚâ
And now, Yoo Seo-ah is crying while eating the stew I made.
She even keeps gagging in betweenâŚ
âWas it really that bad...?â
I really tried my best, thoughâŚ
I felt a little sulky.
Still, at least sheâs not refusing to eat.
Letâs think positive!
Comments
She went through those cigs like it was nothing đ Angel-nim please save Yoo Seo-ah and make her happy! Thanks for the chapter!
Kzalca
2025-05-19 13:38:58 +0000 UTC