Aurora - BROKEN DOWN: Ep.6
Added 2023-07-14 07:00:05 +0000 UTCA local Beaver took down another tree, so we head out to go "clean it up". We venture out onto the frozen lake again to have a beer. I question work, my creativity and life in general, but that's ok because that night had something more important in store.
Comments
You are good at what you do. Your videos are amongst the best that I have seen on youtube. Your skill at marrying video, music and narration are outstanding. That said thank you for being honest about yourself.
Mark Lewis
2023-09-18 20:20:08 +0000 UTCIt’s ok to just say CJ video’s is what makes you’re life style possible. You love it less than you did 5 years ago as it’s come with problems you couldn’t of predicted! Am quite a weird guy a struggle way living the sheep life have no real option the now and couldn’t do what you do wouldn’t be comfortable for me. Liked watching you grow from you building amber till now. Lifes dificult mate so live it you’re way bro X
Stephen Williamson
2023-07-21 18:43:04 +0000 UTCI’ve met you on a bunch of occasions at various meet-ups and a show(probably on your worst day for getting hounded by randoms) and never once thought you come across as a fumbler. All good bud. Quite well spoken actually. As for true friends,.. too right mate. The only kind I keep. Time should not matter.
Toastie_Jack
2023-07-18 22:53:45 +0000 UTCagain your output has just blown my mind. i've been sat here for what seems like an age trying to find the right words to express my thoughts. but i'm at a loss. just keep kicking your demons into touch Dude, with a crew like yours you can't lose.
mick leach
2023-07-16 18:46:14 +0000 UTCMate, as per , bloody awesome content, thank you. Never ever for one minute self doubt yourself please, lots of us following you have been or are still in a dark place working our way out of it so we get you. You have awesome close circle of friends , whether it’s a week or a year since you last chews the fat or cracked a can that is priceless. One thing I personally have found when the devils starting to tickle your ass about to try and give you a mind fuck and mess you up is to get out of wherever you are. Exercise, walk , do something. Easier said than done but it helps. Look at you splitting the wood , vent like a mad man , but not in a supermarket lol. Lance is your go to buddy, what a awesome dog. Ever thought about putting all your adventures on a podcast or book? Your stories and photos would make a hit. Enjoy Sweden, because when you go back to Portugal your gonna burn like a mother f@#ker… Onwards and Upwards. I think, you need to look at a similar venture , a permanent structure! Just a thought, if it’s wank I apologise , but I think you need roots \ a base, Portugal is that but am thinking a house of sorts. Cooped up in Amber on dark days 24/7 .. ?
Ewenb
2023-07-16 07:48:33 +0000 UTCHey CJ, bear with me while i tell you a little story that might help you along your journey. This year I turned 62. I've been behind a camera since my late teens. I have shot for magazines, sporting clubs, and friends over those years up till 4 years ago, when I realised the whole time I wasn't shooting for me, I was shooting for them. I went away in 2014 on a surf trip to Sumatra and the whole two months I was there, I shot photos of other surfers for them to remember their trip, I shot photos of the landscapes to show on my socials, and I shot photos for the lovely couple who own the surf camp I stayed at. But when I have the camera in my hand, I Feel the urge to produce photos for others (and when I say others, I include the hungry socials that make us work harder than we should to produce), but, that never satisfied my desire to shoot for ME. 5 years ago, I was away shooting with the surf club, I was treading water grabbing shots of them surfing as usually do when it suddenly dawned on me that the people who get pleasure out of my shots DIDNT include me. I swam back to shore, pack my things in the car and started the 8 hour drive home. I spent months coming to grips with myself over who I was as a photographer. My dream was to travel in my van and shoot what I wanted to shoot, and produce a book of my travels. I nearly got there too, then covid hit and I became a carer for mum when we lost dad not long after. In the last three and a bit years I've touched the camera half a dozen times because the voices in my head my work was shit and why and I letting other people enjoy my shit. DON'T BE LIKE ME, you are still young enough to follow ALL your dreams, Shoot for you, produce these great raw videos for you, not for socials, not because you feel you need to feed the machine, but for you to look back on and remember those dark times and how you beat them and if you decide to put them out there, be proud of what you have done. Don;t be like me and become a hermit wallowing in self pitty and doubt. Its a dark place to be in and you dont want to go there. Trust me, its not an easy place to escape from. You have a group of people who WANT to be here (not talking about YT) and watch what you produce because we can relate to it, and for some of us, your videos bring joy, not because they are funny and well produced, but they are raw and real and we can relate and it helps us, well at least me, it gives us (me) hope that one day I will take photos again that I yearned to take. So as they say these days "You do you, and fuck the rest". Make friends with the voices (I am finally doing that after admitting I needed help and getting it) and produce what you want us to see good or bad, because life isnt full of roses and so much of what others produce is for the algorithms and the facade that is life. Most of us will still follow and be members of your channel, and those keyboard heroes that want to be negative and disrespectful need to fuck off and get a grip on their own life and stop shitting on others. The world is really a beautiful place and your videos show that, its just unfortunately its populated by humans who think they are better than everyone else while they sit on the sofa watching coronation street getting fat eating and drinking . Remember ITS YOUR LIFE, we are just along for the ride. You are doing ok, most of us are behind you 100%, thats why we sponsor you mate.
John Harney
2023-07-16 00:13:34 +0000 UTCLife is hard and unpredictable, that is why I enjoy these videos, there is no falsehoods or glossing over reality in these videos, we all struggle from time to time, so don't worry we are all here for you and you for us, so thank you for sharing this story
Ciarán
2023-07-15 23:59:29 +0000 UTCI saw the video you then deleted from youtube and was supposed to sign on patreon, but forgot it. Now I signed when saw your trailer about this series. Dude, dont stress. You make quality content and please keep doing it if you find any pleasure from it. If it starts feeling too much like a work then feel free to chill. We like your stuff because you are you, and that should be a sign to not put so much pressure on yourself, even though I know it can be very difficult not to.
MK
2023-07-15 21:11:19 +0000 UTCCJ with your honesty and opening up hope it helps you deal with things, stay strong dude.
Brian Brown
2023-07-15 00:07:38 +0000 UTCThanks for another great episode in your amazing life! I ve just realised that I am totally addicted.When the email from patreon comes in telling me that there is a new posting from you, I can't get home fast enough to watch it. Also now equally addicted to Lost in Europe! Thanks for your honesty, very brave to bear your soul like that.xx
Susan twomey
2023-07-14 23:03:35 +0000 UTCThank you CJ. I really appreciate you bringing us along for the experience. You are right to set us aside and do things just for you. It's so important that you have that time no matter how long it takes. This is your life, you own it. We are interlopers who admire you, enjoy your exploit and love everything that you do including all the honesty about the dark side of this lifestyle. We.......the genuine people only want what you are able to give us. You're health and wellbeing are far more important than content ( although I have to say the content is always great and I mean ALWAYS.) Don't worry about us, we love you and Lance dearly and are happy with what ever you share whenever...... Stay safe and take your time. Huge to all. XX
Wenna
2023-07-14 12:16:01 +0000 UTCThankyou for yet another amazing video, please stop second guessing yourself! You are Awesome at what you do ❤
Dreaded scots lass
2023-07-14 11:49:09 +0000 UTC
