Just a few thoughts

Beauties, I wanna tell you how I feel right now. Designing cards became a full time job for me. It’s great if you can do what you love and getting paid for it. But I’m so incredible tired of all these dumb ass people out there - sorry for my wording.

At the end of 2019 I wanted to stop designing cards. Not forever, but I knew I need a break. It’s exhausting. But then the Remedies deck was born. This deck gave Madison and myself so much new energy.

Right now, my energy level is pretty much at zero again. I'm glad that the second Remedies edition is right around the corner and I hope the energy and motivation comes back with this deck.

I’m a workaholic – I’m bad at taking breaks…

It’s so wonderful and great to see when you are happy with a new deck of cards of mine. They exist to beautify your everyday life a bit. Of course, most people who like something enjoy in silence. That is sad because it makes the opposing voices sound so much louder.

You rarely see my face on social media, yes maybe on my private Instagram account but not really often on the Black Roses account. I’m one of a few who let the designs speak. You know there are people who sell decks because of their name and they can really sell everything. And that’s totally fine. That was just never the case with me and my decks. My perfectionism always forces me to deliver the best. I always set myself under pressure. Yes, there are more and more people like you with every new release, who really appreciate what I do. So more and more just like to support the artist but for the masses I still need to deliver with bad ass cards. :D I also wouldn’t be happier with less.

You know how much work I put into every new release. It’s ridiculous if you think about the fact that I destroy a piece myself with every new release a bit more. The designing process is fun until the urge to perfectionism kicks in.

So why do I tell this to you? I put my life into my art. Playing cards are my life currently. All I wanna do is designing cards for myself and for those who love it.

I'm harmless. I don’t do anything to you – as long you don’t piss me off. Why should I? But I can't say the same thing about these damn idiots that I have to deal with almost every day now.

Here is a little story that I wanna share with you.

I've heard that this guy who tries to make a name in this playing card industry was talking bad about me. Things like: “Nobody knows who Daniel Schneider is” and “Murphy’s Magic doesn’t know who Daniel Schneider is”.

First of all, until I have heard that, I really liked what this person is doing on Instagram. I have never talked more than two sentences to him on Instagram.

And secondly, as if I would care if someone knows me or not. But fact is, if I wouldn’t be successful with what I’m doing, people would never talk so much bullshit. Of course, it's pure envy. But that is no reason for me that can reassure me. He invited me to his show and I said no because I don’t go live online. I don’t feel comfortable to talk in another language in front of a camera. That’s exactly what I told him and that is also the reason why you never see me going live on IG. But my “no” apparently was reason enough to talk so condescendingly about me.

I can't stop the stupidity. I’m so tired of defending my work.

There is this girl who thinks she is the Queen in this playing card forum.

She said the girl on my Innocence deck looks like she's is doing it to herself (to say it in friendly words for the Patreon guidelines). That’s only one of a lot dumb things she writes online about other people and their decks. Last thing she wrote about me was that I’m a “homophobic misogynist” because I try to release a breast cancer awareness deck – I’m not kidding… I thought about suing her at this point because this is already far away from funny.

“A wise man told me don't argue with fools. Cause people from a distance can't tell who is who.”

I know you will say don’t take it personal. And I try. I really try but the fact that I don’t do anything makes it so hard for me to accept everything.

No question, I'm a sensitive person. But I'm also very self-reflected. That’s why I know how words can hit you.

I've learned a lot about people this year. And it probably would have destroyed me already if I wouldn't be successful with what I'm doing. But that's only a small consolation that keeps everything together.

I talked to Aaron Fisher about all the negativity from other people and he said something really really great that keeps me running: “welcome to a flourishing career.”

With all this negativity I hope you know how glad I am about your support.

Thank you!

Daniel Schneider