Endhawks // shigadabi fanfic pt 1

( this is just a brief explanation of the context of this fanart. I’ll have small paragraphs like this for the following fanarts too since I feel like they add some depth to my fanarts )

Part 1

“Focus Keigo. Focus!”

Hunched on the cold ground he breathed out small puffs of air. This routine was impossible but it was the only thing that would get him the Gold medal at the nationals.

He looked up “why so moody today coach?Woke up on the wrong side of reality? “ he said with a chuckle and Enji just stared at him. Keigo shivered. Right now he didn’t know if the ice beneath him was cold or if it was Enjis stare.

He got up and Enji looked away and turned around to play the music

…

Touya was on the bench on edge taking a break. Not that he wanted to but his father seemed very focused on the winged twink before him.

It used to bother him how focused he was on his boyfriend. Right now it only felt convenient since he took most of his time and touya could freely text the person he was really invested in.

He wouldn’t call himself a cheater. He was just…exploring other opportunities. It would be a pity to stay with one person when your soul mate might be out there,no?

“Touya you’re up”

He heard his dads voice and placed his phone underneath his jacket on the bench.

He skated his way to where Keigo stood in the middle of the ice rink. He offered a small smile as he slid around him placing his hand on his hip and the other on his hand to start their routine.

Keigos eyeliner was starting to smudge from the sweat.

Keigo never tried hard for anything. So who was he trying to impress ? Him or his dad ?

…

“Where are you going?”

“Just out. I need to workout before the nationals so I’m going for a run”

Keigo frowned

“It’s 1 am”

Touya was losing his composure “and?”

Keigo shrugged and lifted his hand “eyo don’t mean to piss you off, you do you”

He grabbed his backpack and left the rink. Touya looked at his red wings as he exited the gym. He almost felt bad for how much Keigo trusted him

…

He took a long drag from his cigarette while waiting outside. He kicked a stone on the road that ended up falling flat on the snow not making a sound.

The light was barely hanging in there as it flickered on and off occasionally shutting off completely for a few seconds.

“Were you waiting long?” He heard a familiar voice with that soft rasp that drove him crazy.

It went from his mind straight to his dick

Tomura seemed pissy “well?”

Touya snapped out of it “you know I had to stay late to practice my routine”

“So why not cancel for tonight?”

Touya took a step forward “ I thought you wanted to see me ?”

“Fuck you” he spat

The sex was gonna be good tonight

….

“TWO YEARS ?? and you never once thought to tell me about it ?!”

Keigo was losing it. He never really yelled but he felt beyond betrayed at this moment. Yes he always had suspicions over his boyfriend. He never made him feel like he was trustworthy in the first place but he blamed it on himself as him being paranoid.

But oh was he wrong. So fucking wrong

“You can’t give me shit about this”

Touya refrained from yelling too much, his staples had a good grip, and as healed as they were they still hurt him when he was having intense facial reactions.

“Oh really? Are you going to tell me it’s not what I think it is ? Was it an on going -accident- that accidentally went on for two years ?”

Touya looked up and noticed Keigos wings puff up and cover the edges of his shoulders. He was trying to protect himself. For having the nickname “hawks” he surely seemed weak and pitiful right now.

“Well, I’d like to believe myself smarter than that. I was very much aware of what I was doing”

He said and looked away

Keigo run his hand through his hair and let go of his ponytail. Enji would be here any moment now. They’d have to practice the routine. He would have to perform well.

So many things he had to do and yet his mind was a haze

He looked at Touya from beneath his brows “you do realise it’s you who is pitiful right now ? Messing with everyone, not having the guts to talk to them directly face to face. You really are a fucking disappointment “

Did he really mean those words ? He wasn’t sure. But that set Touya off

“You don’t get to give me shit when all along I was just a replacement for my dad. I don’t have the guts to speak ? What about you? “

He said as enji entered the stadium leaving Hawks mouth agape, eyes wide open. He looked at the floor and spoke  “what you did to me was out of spite, while I have always been genuine”

Touya grabbed his bag and went for the exit. He didn’t have anything else to offer to this conversation but a-

“Fuck you both”