February Update

Update image made by my friend: CandlesStyx 

This month certainly had days in it.

I'm gonna keep this update personal since my output this month has been terrible despite the growth I've been striding towards. I'm gonna try to explain things and I do hope you understand; overall, I'm feeling better now and I do want to get back to my art. As I've said before, I have zero plans to quit my art.

Anyway, well I was extremely optimistic for February; especially with my doc's appointment that I went to earlier in the month.

At my doc's appointment, I found out that my health was in far worse shape than I thought it could be. The sum is probable permanent nerve and/or organ damage. The days after my appointment, I was in a really sad place. It's ironic since after years of avoiding talking to a professional about my mental health, I went into that office with the intention of finally seeking help. My doc, ignored me. Even as I was given the terrible health news, my doc just said, "you're taking this news well." The reality was that I just shut myself off. My doc gave me tasks to perform and told me to not change of my normal daily habits. Talking with friends, family, and acquaintances in the medical field, I've come to the conclusion that I'm gonna fire my doctor during my next visit.

Then the winter storm was coming to Texas. This started with me getting in a wreck and sliding into the vehicle in front of me. I took precautions, like driving slow and giving myself plenty of breaking distance. This wasn't enough, but the damage was minimal for the other person and myself. My job cancelled that day but my SO was still called into her work despite her calling to her boss and saying how terrible the roads were.

The storm got worse and we lost power. The temps in our home kept dropping and we had to sleep in the living room to try and conserve heat, we even slept in layered clothing. I ended up losing a week of work at my new job from this.

My anxiety was rising as deadlines for projects were during that week and also thinking of my insurance dealing with the wreck.

The culmination of this month was a financial account of mine being hacked. Nothing was taken, but my emotional state further dwindled.

I've had to ask my friend CandlesStyx to help me make some content for you all; I'll be posting these tonight. I'm still working to get what I have out through the evening, but I'm sorry about all this.