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Blog: Coping with Grief - Lulu

It is with heavy heart that I would like to share with everyone that my aunt has passed away this morning. I could not sleep due to the grief I am feeling. I am pushing all of the responsibilities from civilian work and Army to the right.

I got a call this morning while in training. It was very hard for me to hide my emotions while training soldiers. With permission, I was able to drive home early to handle the situation.

The hardest part is the sudden shock of the news. I expected it to certain extent, just didn't think it was goanna be this month or even today.

It is 2:24AM and I am making a character. Why? Because it allows my mind to dive into a world to escape. Some people view character making a job, but I view it as a way for me to cope with my emotions.

The best way to cope with grief is to channel that energy to something else. So, I did the best thing I could do: I made Lulu.

The story of Lulu is of her confusion of coping with grief after the passing of her parents. So, you took her in to help heal her fragile heart. When I made her, I was grieving, so I let out all my emotions and made her. I am not sure how it turned out, or how your experience with her will be, but I am sure you will feel part of my sorrow and grief of losing a loved one.

As life continues to throw shit at me, I continue to walk against the wind and swim against the tide.

The inspirations that come to creators are usually when they are experiencing an extreme emotion. In my case, I am grieving, confused, and frustrated. But guess what, I am not alone.

No need to worry about me fellow Patreons, I stand and fight for another day.

Thanks for all the love and wishes.

Blog: Coping with Grief - Lulu

Comments

I know words can ring hollow but... However expected the departure is, i know it always hits hard. December before last my stepfather died, and knowing he was in great pain, most of me was thankful he got away from pain, and thankful for the good years. But still, there are days when flashes of memories appear in my eyes. and it isn't any easier in this age, I'm over 50... All I can say: stay strong. And carry her in your heart.

Mauritz Nurmi

I'm sorry. I know its hard especially losing a close relative even more when your close with that one. During covid I lost my dad a week after my birthday, my grandfather a month later, my cousin shot himself a few months later and my aunt a week before Christmas all from covid in the same year. All I can say is things do get better but the grief is still there it just becomes a little less over time but is still there.

RikashayOGS

I’m sorry for your loss. Unexpectedly losing a family member is the worst way to have it happen. We are all here for you.πŸ«‚

BigD

My condolences on your loss. πŸ«‚

Alex Torres

a sincere hug

Elios

I had a feeling when Lulu showed up and I hoped it isn't true. Take your time now for yourself if needed. If you need someone to talk I offer you a listening ear. I wish you strength. It is not easy but you are not alone, you have your family, your friends, us, maybe this thought helps a bit in those dark hours.

Areios

I'm sorry for your loss, I know how sudden everything felt when my grandpa passed in 2007. Stay strong, and I know you'll get through this 🫑πŸ’ͺ

Argile

Just wanted to chine in and say here for ya.

vforvodka

I'm sorry for your loss.

Formboy1

Very sorry for your loss, life never a peaceful and simple road but you have all of us to support you. Remember to take it easy and take care of yourself okay?

Yasuki

I'm very sorry to hear that and I'm sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need. Remember that you've got hundreds of fans that are supporting you. But do take your time. πŸ«‚πŸ«‚πŸ«‚

Strawberry

We are here for you.

Wordsmithie

My condolences.. stay strong and mighty, Queen!

Lefty BlueHand

I'm sorry for your loss. I know how you feel, after all still new I lost my grandmom, and Lulu is a character who is makes people lump in throat and secretly cry. She is very emotional. But My Queen, take a rest if you need.

Leslie Szalay

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Sabri Rubiia


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