Regarding the Future
Added 2021-03-01 21:27:04 +0000 UTCAugust of last year I attempted suicide. Since then, my mental and physical health has only continued to spiral downwards. I've reached a threshold where these issues and their origins must be addressed to avoid continued, escalating self-harm. I share this because my steps to get well, consequently affect Offcanny.
Garrett is no longer a part of the channel by my decision. Working with him caused me crippling anxiety for a year developing. This is not an invitation to make speculative claims or direct hostility towards any party. Despite the circumstances, we're both equally entitled to privacy and respect. In lieu, you can most often expect Trevor (ModestCube) to appear. His involvement will be limited to that of a guest, which there will be continued incorporations of when possible. Expectations can be set by the stunt video, as it was put together independently by me. I'll probably be a bit funnier in the future though since my grandpa despawned the week leading to that shoot. All out of grandparents now though, so we're in the clear.
Other changes I'm making to improve my health are developing or private.
I've avoided speaking to this immediately as I wanted to be better when I did. But better looks farther away than ever now. I don't want to be dishonest. I'd be happy to answer any questions within reason and for those of you who'll be done watching, thank you for your time.
- Jakob
Comments
Please put yourself first. We all love you my guy.
Christopher Fontaine
2021-08-06 21:55:16 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this with us, I hope that you're in a better place now. Take as much time as you need. We love you <3
PRN
2021-05-10 06:43:20 +0000 UTCI'm glad you're taking the steps to recover and putting that first. Please do whatever you need to do to get better. I can't wait to see what next steps you take creatively but your mental space and happiness itself is priority number one. Just take care and don't push yourself as the funny clown man, I'm sure many of us care more about you and your wellbeing than 'haha meme man funny break glass light fire.' Please take care of yourself first and try not to worry about any of this.
Rabu Fuentes
2021-03-31 14:42:12 +0000 UTCPutting yourself first with your health and safety is more important. Jakob stay safe love you man.
AndyBobandy
2021-03-17 18:19:12 +0000 UTCyou're a great guy jakob, putting your health and safety is more important than anything else. love you, stay safe, and get better, i know you can do it.
Korona
2021-03-11 03:19:57 +0000 UTCregardless of where you're at in terms of progress, we're all proud of you for putting your health first. take as much time as you need. love you and take care.
isa
2021-03-06 19:09:54 +0000 UTCJesus Christ. I had no idea you were going through this level of shit. I knew you were going through somethings when I found out that you and your girlfriend broke up a while ago, but goddamn. This is a whole different level. Much love bro, and best of luck to you. Hopefully the rest of this year goes better for you. Remember that no matter how dark the tunnel, there’s always light at the end of it.
Fluff Monkey
2021-03-06 02:39:19 +0000 UTCThe content can chill on the back burner, we will all be here when you are ready! It's easier said than done, but be patient and kind with yourself. Positive mental growth can be so fucking hard but well worth it in the end. Much love, dude.
Ginger Salad
2021-03-06 02:35:41 +0000 UTCBig love dude, take your time, we’ll be here right along side you!
James
2021-03-05 16:51:34 +0000 UTCBig love for you Jakob. Getting to a better place in between your ears is a long journey, but it'll be so worth when you get there. Keep fighting brother ♥️
MegaPete
2021-03-05 07:45:33 +0000 UTCHey dude, your gonna get through this and there are a ton of people supporting you. Honestly your content makes me and many others happy. Always look forward for the next video. Your editing skills ans sketch comedy is better than most things out there right now. Keep looking up!!
SweetCoolBreeze
2021-03-04 18:17:11 +0000 UTCJakob I love you. Life gets hard but I learned myself thats no way out, Life is good, even if you dont get to shape your future beyond today...... You make people happy brother. and........Bitch If you kill yourself M E2 so NO PRESSURE U GOT M E?
bubrup
2021-03-04 01:02:42 +0000 UTCGet well soon Jakob, we love you.
EazyA
2021-03-02 19:33:50 +0000 UTCI'm here for the long haul my sweet prince ❤️❤️ life really be hard. Opening up can be a pretty uncomfortable/weird and scary feeling, you doing that at all could be seen as a step in the right direction if viewed from the proper angle but sometimes ya gotta view force yourself to (like oh man I couldn't even do that X time ago, I guess that's a win) if that even makes sense. Idk what the point I'm even trying to make is, if there's anything I want you to take away it's I/we hope you're doing as good as you can be, staying safe and all that jazz.
shitheel
2021-03-02 18:19:45 +0000 UTCAlways look forward to what you make. Hope things get better.
Wheresmywaffles
2021-03-02 17:49:40 +0000 UTCI truly hope things start to look up for you man. Content should take a backseat to getting yourself back to a level mind. Though I'm sure you know yourself better than we do, and what you're willing to put on your plate. Please stay safe and do your best to keep steady feet! Until next time~
iAyeCaptainKai
2021-03-02 17:08:31 +0000 UTCPlease stay safe. We all love you. And we all wait patiently for your next work, however long it may take.
purernge153
2021-03-02 16:22:31 +0000 UTClove the content jakob, hope things get better for you
Roddan
2021-03-02 10:24:14 +0000 UTCso much love
Finn Macpherson
2021-03-02 07:55:54 +0000 UTCThank you Jakob for sharing this and for what you've done so far for this channel. I wish you all the best and can't wait to see what else is in store for the future whether it is Offcanny or not!
Jason Sevilla
2021-03-02 01:45:07 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing. Hope you the best
Pabludes
2021-03-02 01:39:54 +0000 UTCI hope all is well. I've been in similar places. I just hope that you keep talking to those closest to you & to those you love. Hope you continue forward with a proud stride, brave, bold & happy! ^-^ Also, if you ever need music let me know. I play quite a few instruments and have work out already. Even if its not for a video I have a lot of healing & retrospective songs. I hope that they can touch you in any way & or heal you. One of my EPs was a suicide letter that helped me relieve myself. I hope it can do the same for you, even if a little bit.
Joshua Lamar!
2021-03-02 01:04:10 +0000 UTCLove you
Jish
2021-03-02 00:14:55 +0000 UTCTake your time with whatever you need man. No matter how long it takes I always look forward to the content you put out and work on, its truly awesome and honestly thank you for all you do. But take care of yourself please!!
Jessi
2021-03-02 00:11:13 +0000 UTCWe're here because we want to watch the awesome stuff you put out. I learned during the closing of CC that the creators we watch are humans too and to be ok with the funny vids not being uploaded anymore. I hope you find what makes you happy. Your creations have definitely helped me, if that means anything to you.
Nate
2021-03-02 00:03:07 +0000 UTCIs Offcanny something that is helping or hindering your mental health? It seems like you don't intend to take a break so I imagine you are finding it to be a worthwhile and uplifting creative outlet. Either way, your own wellbeing and mental health always always always comes first and I hope that every day you continue to push a little closer towards better.
Barry'sChefMadeHisGlueGunForTheTable&Drowned
2021-03-01 23:58:32 +0000 UTCNo apologies necessary- take your time and keep putting out quality my guy
Glaive
2021-03-01 23:32:32 +0000 UTC<3
Garrett Zalenski
2021-03-01 23:16:27 +0000 UTCHey man, I know I as well as others on here, are just random people you don't know, another comment. But just because you can't see things getting better or know how they will get better as sure as shit doesn't mean they won't. There is so much out there it can feel overwhelming despite feeling like you have so much around you, but here IS not "might" there IS something out there for you. You don't know everything, this is both a shitty and amazing fact, because there is a reason for going forward in life and genuinely, i mean it genuinely a purpose in life, and before it will become meaningful to the world it will be meaningful to you. I had the incredible delight of meeting you in London at RTX a couple years ago (we talked about irn bru soda drink for some reason), its real fucking dumb but it was the happiest I had been in ages, I watched the content more than tv so it was more meaningful to me than meeting and A-list celebrity. I don't know you, I know of your content, your humour and your fashion sense, but I know as stupid as it sounds that you don't fully know yourself either. Giving yourself the chance to become something and grow is beautiful man. Sorry for long as post. We the fans/random people despite what you think, Love you bro. Reach out to somebody and please give yourself a chance.
Manraj Kahlon
2021-03-01 22:56:23 +0000 UTCJakob you do not need to apologize to us for anything you do not owe us anything at all. That being said, I am so thankful for all that you have done for us. Offcanny is legitimately my favourite channel on YouTube ever. The amount of effort put in is so fucking high quality. It’s so fucking hilarious, the editing is fantastic and the ideas are fun, creative, and somehow have that nostalgic feeling of “the good old days” of YouTube. It’s a breath of fresh air as I have been very upset with the lack of quality content on YouTube lately. I see so much potential for the channel to just explode. I always try to share it with my friends to grow the channel as much as I can and everyone loves it. You and Trevor making videos together?? Makes me so fucking happy! I’m sure many others are pumped! Keep doing what YOU want to do, keep doing what YOU need. I like offcanny because of you, you make it fucking fantastic. You’re superb. Stay strong. I know you may not read this, or think it’s a very good idea but if you EVER are in a bad place and just need a stranger to vent to please reach out. Please. We are all here to support you. You are so deeply loved. If there’s anything any of us can do for you or the channel we would all be happy AF to help :)
Ass Blaster Allie
2021-03-01 22:53:42 +0000 UTCIt makes sense when I think about it. The biggest problem comes from having a lot of people doing the shoot. Just don't rush it, having fewer videos on the level of Knights or Stunts is more than enough.
Patrik Dvořáček
2021-03-01 22:53:09 +0000 UTCI became a patron because Jakob and Alec were the best part of cc (the homeboys video is honestly the pinnacle of cc content) I've stayed a patron easily due to the chemistry between most folks in offcanny. If I have to wait a month or two in-between videos, that's ok! Watching twomad do somersaults and watching Jakob getting kicked through a wall was definitely worth the wait. I think most of everyone knows their demons and how hard it is to share that and I respect you so much for that. We love ya' and take the time you need as long as you're happy and healthy, and I hope everyone else at offcanny is happy too! 🐊🐊🐊
Anthony Saraino
2021-03-01 22:50:09 +0000 UTCtake time to focus on yourself and do what's best for you, we're all proud to see how far you've come and the amazing stuff you've put out into the world <3
reallypeanut
2021-03-01 22:48:53 +0000 UTCThe workload behind the scenes is manageable alone. I've always done a lot, so it's not totally foreign to me.
OFFCANNY
2021-03-01 22:46:57 +0000 UTCWe all love you mate. Just take care and focus on yourself first. 💜
Kyle Snyder
2021-03-01 22:43:52 +0000 UTCLiterally just subbed to the Patreon last night, and I couldn't be more glad I did. Take the time, enjoy my 5 bucks, make some funny, and take care of yourself. Read some of these comments if you need a bit of a boost, even if it's just random text on the computer from strangers
sneeze burger
2021-03-01 22:37:25 +0000 UTCThe videos will come when they come, what’s more important is your mental health. We will still be here no matter what. We love you Jakob
Hector Lopez
2021-03-01 22:35:15 +0000 UTCWe love you Jakob no matter what you do. We’re proud of your honesty and vulnerability. If you need to take more time in between videos we all understand. We’re here for you 💕
Mikayla
2021-03-01 22:33:59 +0000 UTCI believe in you and this channel. Thank you for making me smile. Take all the time you need to get better, we will be here for the goofs and gaffs whenever that is man❤️
Borby Jones
2021-03-01 22:31:50 +0000 UTCMental illness sucks dick. I'm in a constant state of anxiety and I can confirm, it sucks dick. So please, sister, take time to yourself. There is support all around you, even when you don't think there is, there is. I hope as time goes on you live in a much better mental and physical state. HOORAH.
Toast
2021-03-01 22:29:11 +0000 UTCYour mental health is important man, take as many steps as you need. Everyone here following you supports you and loves you, and we want what's best for you. Take your time healing! Its super brave of you to address this to your fans and it means a lot. All that matters is that you're taking care of yourself.
BigDogBun
2021-03-01 22:25:53 +0000 UTCjust wanna let you know that you inspire me everyday man !! genuinely wishing you all the love in the world, brave brother stay strong
Zaveguin
2021-03-01 22:21:59 +0000 UTCLove you very much man you make all are life’s so much better you deserve the best get well my guy mwah kisses.
Michael Arroyo
2021-03-01 22:18:11 +0000 UTCIncredibly brave posting this on here, its a shame that better seems far away but there's so many people both who you know and who you dont that want you to get there and will stand by you the whole way. Sending love G
GR33Nxc
2021-03-01 22:13:34 +0000 UTCShit man, that's rough. Take some time, don't rush it. We aren't going anywhere. Just a quick question: are you planning on going forward alone? I know Trevor will pop up here and there and you probably have some people behind the scenes helping.
Patrik Dvořáček
2021-03-01 22:10:17 +0000 UTCDamn, can't believe how close it came to losing what has very quickly become one of my favourite channels. You're a trooper Jakob, and your videos will always have me crying with laughter : ^}
Espy
2021-03-01 22:08:17 +0000 UTCBeen dealing with similar things myself recently and I’m happy to hear you’re taking steps to get better! I’m proud of what you’ve accomplished so far with the channel and I know it’ll only continue to evolve. Thank you for all the laughs man, I look forward to many more. We’re here for you!
Alex
2021-03-01 22:07:22 +0000 UTCI hope you understand how much you’ve done for me and this community, Jakob. Please take care of yourself, man. Offcanny is a fucking project of the century and I know you’ll continue to do amazing things with it.
Purce
2021-03-01 22:03:21 +0000 UTCwishing you the best jakob! take as much time as you need to be in a good headspace. <3
Emma Saiter
2021-03-01 22:01:47 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself man sending good healing vibes all around. 💛💛💛
Allison Terry
2021-03-01 22:00:30 +0000 UTCDo what you have to do. We all love you and only want the best. We are here for you!
MrCmh
2021-03-01 21:55:04 +0000 UTCI hope the changes you make help to improve your mental health. Remember to take your time making content for OffCanny. The channel seemed to be made for people to have fun with, and when you're genuinely happy it shows. I'm really looking forward to seeing what you do in the future <3
Goblin
2021-03-01 21:45:40 +0000 UTCLove you Jakob, keep working at getting better and the results will show. Will always show support however possible!
Vincent Brown
2021-03-01 21:45:39 +0000 UTC💛💛
Ryleigh Dring
2021-03-01 21:45:26 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing that with us Jakob, I know it doesn't mean much coming from strangers but we truly do appreciate all the work and passion you out into these videos, my face lights up whenever I get a notification for a new video. Stay strong and take your time.
David Torres
2021-03-01 21:44:02 +0000 UTCJakob, you're what makes Offcanny special in the first place, so as long as you keep making it I'm gonna keep watching. Do whatever you can to stay healthy, take as much time as you need!
Danny Sullivan
2021-03-01 21:43:03 +0000 UTCMake sure you take care of yourself. Lots of love to you xx
Han Ridden
2021-03-01 21:42:57 +0000 UTCI'm definitely going to try for more collaborations in that vein, sorry if that wasn't clear.
OFFCANNY
2021-03-01 21:41:31 +0000 UTCSeriously Jakob, do what you gotta do to get better. We'll be here for you
Unofficially Joey
2021-03-01 21:41:24 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this. I know in the past you have commented on your feeling of needing to be just funny guy, so I can imagine this is a particularly vulnerable moment. For me being in a mental illness rut makes me feel incredibly weak, so I would at least like to say that you are strong for making it this far. I know internet strangers are mostly incomprehensible as human beings, but if you are ever in need there are plenty of people out here willing to talk to you like a real person and not a form of entertainment.
Dogspit
2021-03-01 21:40:33 +0000 UTCMental health comes first! You know you have support from everyone. Take all the time you need!
Leo Boulevardier
2021-03-01 21:39:51 +0000 UTCHey man, do whatever you need to do to make sure you're staying healthy
Austin Niño
2021-03-01 21:39:26 +0000 UTCStay up bro. We love you.
Jared Lainhart
2021-03-01 21:39:22 +0000 UTCHey Jakob, first of all I just wanted to say that I have never laughed more than I do at your videos. From Cow Chop to early OffCanny to your streams to now, you have an ability to make me Crack like no other and I can never thank you enough for that. That being said, take all the time you need to get well. And I know that sometimes putting time and effort into things (like OffCanny) helps, but don't feel obligated to do so if it would have negative effects on your mental health. I've been a Patron since the beginning and even in the months of no uploads, I never once considered canceling. Obviously I enjoy the OffCanny content, but at the end of the day I'm supporting you, not the videos. If my money is going towards a goofy prop for a vid, cool. If it's going towards a fucking game you wanna play in your free time or lunch for the day, who cares. We are all here to support YOU. Best of luck getting back on track, buddy. We'll be right here if you need us.
Adam Cook
2021-03-01 21:39:21 +0000 UTCWe love you Jakob❤️
Danny
2021-03-01 21:37:44 +0000 UTCI'm sorry jakob. I hope you get the mental health/help you deserve.
Rachel Rinehart
2021-03-01 21:37:43 +0000 UTCI'll never stop watching your content, no matter who is taking part in the video. We got your back no matter what happens, I hope you can find that balance between making content and keeping yourself sane. Love ya man
Jack
2021-03-01 21:37:14 +0000 UTCI really hope you get better Jakob, please if need be take more time off to get better, your self health is so much more important then trying to make videos for us and we'll understand, love you dude, I hope you get better <3
Tyler Comeau
2021-03-01 21:36:31 +0000 UTCholy shit that was a bit of a mental email to read, glad you’re doing better though man and still looking forward to anything and everything you put out in the future! with you every step of the way (digitally)
jim
2021-03-01 21:36:14 +0000 UTCi hope taking care of yourself is your number one priority. you deserve so much. you’re such a talent it’s insane. accessing mental health care can be a tumultuous journey, but something that is so, so worth it. i hope you find some peace and solace soon. the world’s a better and brighter place with you in it. all the love in the world to you 💕
charlie
2021-03-01 21:36:12 +0000 UTCGet better soon my guy. Love ya a bunch and hope moving forward you can start to feel better.
Fork and Spoon Entertainment
2021-03-01 21:36:02 +0000 UTCDon't know what to say other than I truly hope you can get the help you need or do whatever you need to do to help yourself. Really respect you dude, and I'm really sorry you have to go through what you're going through.
NonsensicalFox
2021-03-01 21:36:00 +0000 UTC♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
Ctross
2021-03-01 21:35:50 +0000 UTCAy man, take as much time as you need to get your mental straight. Just keep it in mind that while you are out here making goofy, potentially dangerous content, you are loved and cherished by (hopefully) not only your family, but all of us who love up every bit of content you put out. I’m genuniely proud that you are able to make this channel your own and still do twitch stuff on the side. My only question is, since this is gonna be mostly you and some Trevor, will there be more collaborative vids like the ones with Schlatt and Twomad? Also, as a side note, you never have to worry about not being funny. Seeing you pop in on CC vids was the highlight of that channel for me, so to see you branching off with these well-edited as fuck videos and doing the fun shit you want to do whilst going through it is really fucking honorable. Keep up the cool shit man. You got this. 🖤💛
benny worm
2021-03-01 21:34:51 +0000 UTCYour videos bring so much light and joy to our lives, the least we could do is support you when you need it. I'm glad you're still with us <3
S.C
2021-03-01 21:34:25 +0000 UTCMy condolences for your grandpa. Also please take care of yourself and we will wait patiently no matter how long it takes for you to get better and please never feel bad about it. I hope you’ll feel better soon. All love ❤️
Raph
2021-03-01 21:34:22 +0000 UTCHey man, just take whatever time you need and do whatever it takes to get to a better place mentally, no pressure.
Johnny Rivera
2021-03-01 21:33:56 +0000 UTCBro this community will always get your back. It's good to see you doing better, and looking forward to your next project.
Jabbles 'Raz'
2021-03-01 21:33:34 +0000 UTCYo thanks for being honest here. I hope all gets better for you! Take all the time you need to do what you gotta do. ❤️
PianoGarbage
2021-03-01 21:33:26 +0000 UTCMan this breaks my heart to hear. Jakob just know that we support you in every possible way through this journey. Drop any thoughts about you needing to upload consistently or keep this channel going if you feel like it's not enjoyable for you. In the end that's all that matters. From now on do everything that's needed to make yourself feel happy again and know that there's a bunch of us that'll support you all the way. ❤️
Squid
2021-03-01 21:33:19 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself Jakob.
Cody Burns
2021-03-01 21:33:19 +0000 UTCTake as much time as you need Jakob, you’re mental health comes first and we’ll all be here for whatever you decide to make next ❤️
Cristian castillo
2021-03-01 21:33:18 +0000 UTCLove you Jakob. I think we are all here for the long haul and will continue to support you for as long as you’ll have us ❤️
Ben
2021-03-01 21:32:26 +0000 UTCI've been there before myself man. The sympathy of a random internet stranger probably doesn't mean much, but just know that I'll keep watching and keep supporting, because your content is awesome regardless of who's in it. Keep working on yourself, and don't worry about what other people say about what you should be or how quickly you should be getting "better." Only you can decide what being better means, and how and when it should or could happen. Hang in there man.
John Preston Lindsay
2021-03-01 21:32:21 +0000 UTCholy fuck, i didn't know you were going through that. as someone who's overcome a really really dark part in my life i am really proud of you for opening up like this, things will get better and you should always take care of yourself. I may not know you personally but i very much appreciate the content you create, and personally knowing how hard a sucide attempt is (i have been in that situation too) i am really happy you are still here, and i feel like everyone who watches you and those who are close to you appreciate your presence and appreciate you. I know things hurt, but you deserve as much love and respect and positivity that you give to others. Thank you for being here alive today and thank you for all that you do.
APackofNewports
2021-03-01 21:32:16 +0000 UTCYour health is more important than anything, we are here for you Jakob!
Jack Singer
2021-03-01 21:32:10 +0000 UTCHey man, you are funny and I respect you for it. I cant expect you to be funny 100% of the time because you are a human. You don't owe me shit, do what you gotta do because whenever you do upload I watch it asap. I like laughing to your vids, I pray life gets less stressful for you 🙏.
MrCreamen
2021-03-01 21:31:42 +0000 UTCIt’s alright Jakob, we’ll always be here supporting you! You’re never alone. I hope that you’re doing better. ❤️
kpop star
2021-03-01 21:31:38 +0000 UTCTruly thank you for continuing even through your tough times. Take care of yourself first we can hold our breaths
MeCo
2021-03-01 21:31:34 +0000 UTCSo sorry to hear what you had to go through, but very glad you’re working on feeling better. Take your time and remember that you and your channel are very loved! :)
Aida
2021-03-01 21:31:24 +0000 UTCJakob i appreciate your honesty and i hope you begin to feel better!!! ❤️❤️❤️
Jayden
2021-03-01 21:31:00 +0000 UTCThat's really brave of you to share your hardships. Glad to hear you're taking steps to better yourself, mental health is hard to talk about but super important. Best of luck to you ♥️
Alex Zicaro
2021-03-01 21:30:52 +0000 UTCI love everything you’re doing! We are all here for you ❤️
Matthew Brown
2021-03-01 21:30:47 +0000 UTCYour mental health comes first, we're here for you
Leon Brill
2021-03-01 21:30:41 +0000 UTCWe love you man! We will always be here for you💜
Favio Gutierrez
2021-03-01 21:30:22 +0000 UTCYou’re mental health is the most important thing. Don’t feel like you need to be putting stuff out for us. We care about you and not just the content.
Catzilla
2021-03-01 21:30:22 +0000 UTCWe’re all behind you and we love you and we’re so happy you’re here. ❤️
Brendan Howell
2021-03-01 21:30:12 +0000 UTCSending you my best wishes Jakob 💙 take it easy
Glowl
2021-03-01 21:29:54 +0000 UTCWe love you Jakob, do whatever you need to do for your mental health 🗣🗣
urye
2021-03-01 21:28:45 +0000 UTC
