[EXCLUSIVE][F4A] No Matter What [Girlfriend][Chronic Pain][Migraine][Frustration][Why do you stay with me?][Deep Love][Giggles][Reverse Comfort][Banter][Romantic][Intimate][Making Out][Oral][Afterglow][L-Bombs]

CONTENT WARNING FOR BOTH THE AUDIO AND BLUE'S NOTES: Chronic pain, grief over loss of full mobility/chronic pain issues

I miss my old body. I miss being able to just get up and do things and not have to worry about whether my body was going to work for me today or not. And on days like today, where I get some normal human extra thing like a migraine...I just feel so much more helpless.

I have no idea why you stay with me. I know you love me, and I know you always reassure me that you don't get frustrated by my condition. I just...I wish I could be better for you.

IMPROV

Gender Notes:

No mentions of the listener's appearance, genitals, or pronouns.

Blue's Notes:

This is probably one of the rawest things I've made, born out of some real frustrations of mine with my own body. I don't talk very much about my struggles with chronic pain because honestly, it's a bummer and I don't like to talk about it. I feel a lot of grief for how much my body has changed from when I was a very athletic younger person. Through physical therapy I'm finally starting to regain some of that, but I still have days where my body Simply Ain't Having It, and there's a kind of grief you experience for that that can get very overwhelming some days. I imagine some of you out there have experienced one side of this equation before, too, whether you were the one in pain or the one watching your partner battle their traitorous body.

My girlfriend has been my saving grace and constant encouragement as I navigate the frustrating healing/learning to accept my new body journey. With her help, I outlined this adorable little moment between an imaginary couple having the same struggle... Listening back to it made me smile, and I hope it makes you smile, too.