Deebs

10-8-16

Added 2016-10-08 19:05:31 +0000 UTC

Experimenting with different textures, layer blending options, and a bit with pallet. Not entirely sure what I think of it. The eye and the mouth I think are probably my favorite things?

Anyway, I mentioned in my last post that I had something I needed to talk about but that I had to work myself up to it.

Lately I haven't exactly been feeling 'myself'. Very little enthusiasm for things. Very little desire to do anything. A lot of stress and frustration with myself. A lot of dark thoughts. I'm working on these things, but since this seems to be having a direct impact on my artwork, I thought you guys had a right to know why there's been comparatively little compared to what there was before.

It's just very frustrating. I remember that when I was a kid, I used to produce tons and tons of artwork all the time. Sure, it wasn't great artwork, but I enjoyed making it and every piece made was a step towards improvement. These days it feels like getting water from a rock, and I feel like I've stagnated as well- I don't have much pride in my work.

I don't want this. I want to be better than this, you know?

But I don't know how long it's going to take.

I wanted to thank you guys for sticking by me, by helping me. It matters to me more than you know. I mean not just the monetary. Just knowing I have your support, that someone thinks this is all worth it.

It helps.

Hope things will be better soon, yeah?