Usatame

Serious Update

Added 2019-06-30 21:27:18 +0000 UTC

Hey guys I feel the need to let you all know, I'm really really mentally having a bad time right now.
My heartrate has consistently been high for over a week now thanks to my anxiety (This leads to my limbs going numb, lack of sleep, not being able to eat, headaches, hard to breathe....just a lot of not fun stuff), I had a really bad panic attack a little bit ago (I've had quite a few small ones already through the week, just this one was really bad and hard to come out of) and so I really need to take some time and see if I can get back into a calmer state. At this moment the littlest things, things that would never matter normally send me into a panic. I don't usually share these kinda things super often (and when I do it's usually only mainly to close friends and then you all here next)

But I feel like I atleast need to step away from the internet, even if for just a couple days.
I will get your rewards for June, but please understand if it takes me a few extra days.
I know I'm behind on messages here and everywhere else, I'm also behind on answering family....just everyone.

I'm hoping it's just alot of the stress piling up from con, but I've done con work a million times, and it has never been this bad, so honestly....not really sure the actual cause, just I know I can't seem to shake it atm.

I'm sorry everyone, I appreciate you all are always so supportive to me. I just always want to be as transparent with you all as I can possibly be.

Again, I will try my best to get caught up once I can get mentally back to a more stable calm state.
Hopefully all that wasn't a horrible jumbled mess, lol I wouldn't be surprised with how my mind is swirling atm tho.