SISSY BOY AT MILITARY SCHOOL CHAPTER 4

So there we were… I and Julia chose our costumes for the school play and I have to admit that it was actually fun after all. I mean… It was still just a little embarrassing, especially wearing the bra and panties just in front of her… And Julia even took photos of me in the maid dress and she made me pose for her which was a bit embarrassing as well. But she told me that she really liked me when I was wearing this maid costume and it made me quite hopeful that she could really like me as well and that my crush on her won´t be futile. And the funny thing was that she convinced me to keep the feminine underwear on. I still had the bra and panties on my body and it was such a strange feeling. Fortunately, I was wearing quite a thick hoodie so the bra couldn´t be seen, but still… it was funny.

I paid for the bra, panties and nylon tights and we went out of the shop with our costumes. There we looked at each other and we started to laugh really loud. I don´t even know why, but probably the whole situation was so comic that we just had to laugh. I mean… me wearing a bra and panties and Julia as a princess and the maid costume… that is just funny.

“So what do you think, Ben? Are you happy with your costume?” she asked me.

“Well… It is really feminine … the pink and white colour… and of course, it is the dress so it is really feminine and I look really comic as you could see. And… I guess that I need to get used to wearing a bra because it still feels a bit strange!” I giggled.

“Oh,,, yeah the bra… You will get used to it. And I think that after a while you will actually like the feeling of it! It makes you feel safe. But I have to tell you one thing, Ben!” she said and she looked at me almost in a very seductive way. I was quite surprised by that fact.

“What? Tell me?” I said and I was excited.

“You really looked so adorable while you were dressing up as a maid. I absolutely loved your red embarrassed cheeks and… it was just so cute! I loved that!” Julia told me and she really meant it. I was a bit surprised that it was so cute… because I definitely didn´t feel cute about it.

“Oh… really? I mean… I should wear feminine clothes in front of you more often then, right?” I giggled and I was willing to do it if she like it so much. But back then… I just had no idea what I had just said. Julia smiled at me and she answered:

“Well… you should because I really like you!”

“I like you too! A lot!” I dared to say, but my red cheeks were telling everything. I was so much in love with her.

“Okay… so… I am going home now, but we should definitely do a rehearsal for the play. Maybe right tomorrow would be good. There is quite a lot of text and we must start learning it as soon as possible. And of course, we will rehearse it already in the costume and I can´t wait to see you in the maid dress again!” she giggled and we hugged each other. I looked at her… walking away to her home and I realized that she was really the girl of my life. I just can´t lose her and I am willing to do absolutely anything for it. I would even wear feminine clothes for her… I really would because she liked it obviously so much.

Well… it was time for me to go home as well. It was just a few minutes of walking and was still thinking about Julia on my way home. I just couldn´t stop thinking about her.

I came home and the first thing I heard was my mum… she was so much interested in our school and it was actually annoying. She knew sometimes more about our school projects than I did and it was creepy.

“Hello, Ben! How was the school?” she asked me.

“Ehm… it was good… yeah!” I said and I went to get myself a late lunch.

“What about your new school play?” she asked and I was shocked that she knows about the school play. I just became aware of the school play today and how could she know about it?

“Mum! How do you know about the school play? How do you know?” I asked her.

“It was in my mailbox and it is on the school´s website!” said my mum in a defensive way, but she was such a nerd about my school. It was so annoying.

“You are crazy sometimes, you know it?” I said.

“Oh come on, Ben! Tell me, what role are you playing? Will you be the king? The knight? Tell me, I am so curious!” said my mum and she was so persistent. And I had really enough of her scouting and I just told her the truth:

“Well… I will be actually playing a maid with Julia and it is really cool if you must know it!” I told her in quite an angry way and I could see how much was my mum surprised by that fact. She definitely didn´t expect that I will be a maid… that I will play a feminine role. My mum always wanted me to be the strong boy who plays baseball or soccer and who is the leader of everything. She always reminds me that it is the only way to be successful in life. But I found out something else… I don´t care about my strength or ability to lead. I want to be more happy than successful and the key to being happy is to give love to others. And that was my belief, my credo. But my mother didn´t understand it at all. She just wanted me to be her strong guy and it was annoying. And when I told her that I will play a maid, the feminine role, she got really angry with me. Her cheeks became so red and she started to yell at me:

“You will play what? You will play a maid? Are you completely out of your mind? Why would you play a feminine character? Why? Tell me, why? You are a man! You are my man and why would you want to play the feminine character?” And she just couldn´t stop yelling at me because of that. She was so mad that her boy won´t play a king or at the very least a knight.

“Because this could make me a lot better actor, mum! I am already good at playing these man characters like king or knight! But I have never tried playing a woman and this was just the perfect opportunity! I want to try it and it will improve my acting so much! But you will never understand, mum… you will never understand because you always make me do things which you want to do and you never ask me what I want to do!” I answered and I was quite harsh as well. But I wanted to be harsh because she was out of line. She must stop dictating my life. I will accept it no longer and it ends here… Or I thought that it ended here. But my mum was so mad and angry. She came right to me and she tore out the bag with the outfit I just bought with Julia. And I could already see the mess… At first, my mum almost fainted when she pulled the pink maid dress out of the bag and she looked at it for a while… Then her cheeks became even more red and she started to yell at me again:

“Are you serious Ben? Do you really want to put this on? This ugly feminine dress? No…you just can´t wear this! You can´t put this on! I forbid you to put this dress on! This is just too feminine and you must not wear pink clothes!”

“Too late, mum! I already put this dress on in the shop and you know what? I actually loved it and it was a good feeling! I am going to play the maid in the school play and nobody can stop me, not even you!” I said and I was getting really angry as well. But my mum still couldn´t believe that this was actually happening. She just couldn´t believe that her son was going to wear feminine clothes and play a maid in the school play.

“Tell me, Ben! Tell me who made you accept the role! Who gave you the role? I don´t believe that you would pick up this fricking role! Tell me now! I must know!” yelled mum again.

“I have a deal with Julia, my amazing classmate! She is actually my only friend at school and she was so nice that she helped me to pick up the costume and she is really so nice to me. Actually a lot nicer than you are and you are my mum… which is quite sad!” I answered in a very angry way as well and I had enough of this. But my mum obviously enjoyed this whole argumentation and she wanted to persuade me on her side, which was never going to happen. Never!

“Julia? The pretty girl? What a cow! She just can´t force you to wear feminine clothes! I am going to school tomorrow with you and I will talk to her! She will not fool my son into such a bad thing!” she said and this time, I was the one who got really angry and started to yell:

“Stop it, mum! You will not do such a thing or I am leaving the house! I will leave you if you ever talk to Julia! And I mean it!”

My mum was overwhelmed that I was able to say such things to her, but I just needed to get this out of my chest because my mum was really unbelievable sometimes.

“You would leave me for a girl?” she yelled and she already had tears in her eyes.

“I would and it is written in the bible after all that men are obliged to leave their parents because of their women!” I said and I was done with her. She started crying when I answered her and I had no mood for it. I took back my maid outfit and went back to my room and locked myself there. And I wanted to cry as well. Why do I have to have such a terrible mum? She doesn´t understand me at all and she is so selfish… I don´t like her and it hurts me that I have such a bad relationship with my own mother.

I pulled out the maid dress from the bag and touched it. I felt the silky material and it made me happy to just touch it. I remembered Julia and her pretty smile… I remembered her amazing kiss… And I couldn´t wait to see her… I wanted to be back with her… And that was a reason why I turned on my phone and I texted her:

“You won´t believe what has just happened to me at home…”