I am still alive

Hey, How are you all doing? It's been a while yeah... Just gotta say... Sigh... what a fucking mess I was in. I tried to do everything at once and then I couldn't cope... It's very frustrating and tired... I was doing whatever I could to complete this volume. It's so close yet it's so far. Long story short, I was testing a few artists... Those test pages, wasted a big chunk of my savings... I tested with 4 artists and they couldn't deliver the quality that I was looking for even after numerous adjustments. And they were so pricey... I was so caught up with this project and I lost my job. My girlfriend left me because I prioritized on this project. I didn't have enough money to pay for my dog's medical bills... It was just a lot for me... At one point, I thought to stop this project because it gave me so much hassle. That's why I was taking 2 weeks to reconsider the plan. Believe me that I am still testing artist but I believe that finally have a good candidate. I think you can see his work in one of the pics I submitted here. This delay is fucking bullshit... I hate myself for this and I wish I had the funds to compensate you guys for it but I am in debt right now... I hope my job interview tomorrow can go well and give me a lifeboat. If you think what i did was unforgivable, I understand. And I am sorry. Those who are still with me, I just wanna say, my nights are less lonely with you lot in my heart. Thank you. . It's tough, honestly. But I will go on. So sorry for the nonsense. I have a feeling that after this challenge, nothing can stop me what doing what I want. I will overcome this. It's part of growth. It's been a while since I last said this. As always, stay safe and healthy guys. And more importantly, stay awesome! Cheers, Vincent.