caitlinbenson / I Gotta be honest with Y'all...

Ofc, Its different when you have a channel, and a bigger one. The kpop world can be toxic, but what can we really do? The Companys should protect the Idols better and ignore the hate. Tho its hart. Kpop Culture is really different. I love watching youre kpop reactions but also k dramas. Tv shows. Variety was always my fav stuff to watch on youre Channel (at least from the 3-4 groups i follow) but im exited seeing you to start watching bl or gls in the future

stephanie44

2024-11-05 18:32:58 +0000 UTC

Its sad that you feel this way. I personally try do stay out of fanwars, i stan my 3-4 fav groups, (ateez, txt, nct, gidle) (and my ult fav group skz) sometimes i also check out some other groups comebacks, but thats it. Ofc i also see some antis and people hating on groups, and ofc it did bother me at the beginning, but now i just don’t care anymore. stupid people sadly exist, i don’t really take them seriously. I just enjoy my favs content and music. I would never want to Go back. My life was pretty boring before i knew kpop, and it gibts me so much fun. Im not gonna let people ruin that. But i also still watch and listen to western stuff

stephanie44

2024-11-05 18:25:06 +0000 UTC

Aye you gottah do what is best for you. Whatever that means for us, we'll be along for the ride. Hope school goes well and you find the passion in whatever it is that keeps you going! Keep up the amazing work.

JoshJ5Hawk

2024-11-02 05:16:59 +0000 UTC

Hi I'm a Korean NCTzen who watched your videos since 2021. Thanks to your various NCT reaction videos, my Kpop life has been much more enjoyable. There have been so many Kpop incidents in recent years, and both Korean and global fandom are getting so tiring, so I fully agree about how people feel. I will support you no matter what you choose. Always stay healthy and happy!

S Y

2024-10-24 23:41:59 +0000 UTC

The 8th sense is pretty good ^_^. Blueming is another addition. Love in the big city was just released (loved it). Also Where your eyes linger and Long time no see as well.

Abby Quay

2024-10-23 00:51:49 +0000 UTC

if we're recommending kbls 8th sense is a must! one of my all time faves

FroggyMuds

2024-10-23 00:39:51 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin. Thank you so much for saying something. Yesterday I had found myself in a really depressed state. And I don't want to make this about me, it's just to explain you are not alone. I stayed in bed the whole day going in in out of sleep with a migraine due to stress. For no other reason but the one thing like you I used to use as an escape from my reality. I started getting into K-pop 2020, I also feel in love with it because of my love for music as well as dancing. Did not know what I was getting into. I would also notice toxic things here in there, but I would ignore them. I became addicted and dependent to K-pop. Gradually my love for K-pop became a love hate relationship. Like you mentioned, the whole industry foundation is just not for me. Maybe I'm just too weak? Especially because I'm an empathetic person. Which is a blessing and a curse, and right now it feels like my biggest curse...I feel people too easily. I don't understand it, but I felt trapped. Like I'm in a toxic relationship. I love it, but it's bad for me. I'm also falling out of Kpop, and honestly, I have not been watching much of you Kpop reactions at all this year I realized besides groups like Riize or Zerobaseone. I'm mostly watching the Kdrama post. 2024 was my breaking point, especially after what happened yesterday, I realized Kpop just keeps putting me in these depressed states. When I got into it for the opposite. I decided to take a long break from kpop idk how it will work, I'll most likely still listen to the music and watch MVs but that's it. No more Deep dives into groups for me. Cause I need to take of my mental first. And please Do the Same!! Do what's best for you boo! I understand wanting to please everyone, but one thing I had to realize that helped me slowly get out of people pleasing is when I realized. "Girl you could literally die trying to make these people happy not taking care of yourself, and then when you do die these same people are only going to feel bad for one week and them move on." Being selfish is a good thing, you need balance for everything in life for it to be easier.

coco.mg

2024-10-22 21:46:17 +0000 UTC

kpop comes and goes in waves for me. I originally found your kpop reactions years ago, but I've been feeling so proud of you expanding your channel and starting CBTV, sharing your own stuff. You as a content creator are so much more than just kpop, and I'm here all the way no matter where you go with it.

Sean Salley

2024-10-21 05:14:57 +0000 UTC

You do what you gotta do! P.S. I love your hair. I think you always have the coolest styles.

Nyah

2024-10-20 15:14:00 +0000 UTC

I'm sorry that you're going through all this. To be honest, I am also falling out of love with kpop. Everyone is so toxic. Yes, I still listen to the music and will watch the mvs but I can't say I love it as much as before. I got into kpop right before I found your channel. I loved watching your videos because I didn't have anyone in my life at the time who liked it. I got made fun of for liking it, and watching your videos felt like I had a "friend" who liked watching it with me. That might sound weird but that's how I used to look at it. I still watch your videos because your honest reactions are amazing.

Nyah

2024-10-20 15:13:24 +0000 UTC

Please take care of yourself first and foremost! You deserve time and space to figure out what you want and don’t want going forward. It sucks that something you do because you genuinely enjoy the music and talking about it, turns into something toxic. Music is supposed to be enjoyable and a way to escape or make you feel even more understood in your life. It’s always the people who get into something for vain or ridiculous reasons that ruin it for everyone else. Your health and well being is much more important than the internet! Sending love and some peace your way💕

Katie D'Allessandro

2024-10-20 01:01:15 +0000 UTC

Hey Caitlin, I'm usually a silent viewer but this was too important to stay quiet. Don't ever apologise for taking the time you need to! Whether it's to figure out what you want to do online or whether it's to step back and heal. Any true supporters will support you no matter what. Also maybe taking a break until you finish college might help,, maybe do the odd reaction if it is for no other reason than you wanted to do it. Also your mental health, education and future are more important than satisfying people that are causing this toxic environment. I would like to say that I've never been in your exact position, but I've dealt with the yo-yo mental health for nearly 25 years and I'm only 34 lol and sometimes you just need to be selfish so to speak, and think of yourself. Plus I would be down to hearing some of your original stuff randomly with no reactions if that was something you think could be more freeing than where you feel now. We all are here for you no matter what you do 🥰

Nixxy

2024-10-19 21:45:48 +0000 UTC

Kpop has been a lot lately and I totally understand where you're head is at with it right now! The Riize situation was just another tipping point for me after the Taeil situation. It's so sad but until kpop becomes a better place i think a break from it is good for everyone imo. I think you said it perfectly what you felt and ment in this video! I keep coming back for you, not just ur reactions but for your personality! I can't wait to watch more movies and kdramas with you in the future! Sometimes its good to just move on from some things and start new things. If people leave, let them. I hope you take care of ur health before anything and we will stil be here if you need a break! I am rooting for you!

Caroline

2024-10-18 21:57:45 +0000 UTC

Hey girl, it's completely okay to fall out of love with anything or anyone. Relationships end when they no longer serve us, and just because Kpop and reacting to it once helped you and made you happy, doesn't mean it always will. And life is about shedding the things that don't make you happy. I felt burned out too because I was a multi-stan. It's a lot. I found that following only the 1-3 groups served me better. Whether you decide to follow only 5 groups or if you are done with it all together, it's okay. I am on your channel because of I enjoy your infectious energy and your joy for the things you watch. How can I enjoy your enthusiasm if I were to insist on you continuing to do the things that no longer inspire enthusiasm?

Myanh Ta

2024-10-18 21:55:19 +0000 UTC

Caitlin, the whole riize thing was also the tipping point for me. This year has been so bad. I have also fallen out of love with kpop too. Ive been a fan since suju and ive seen so much bs and toxicity since den all the way up to what’s happening now and its just feels as if its gets worse and worse and nth is changing…and my fav is going to enlist and I just cant do it anymore. You’re not alone, okay? Please take breaks if you need to if it gets too tiring. You shld come first and do what you love ❤️ Your joy is my joy and I wld love to see you happy and enjoying what YOU want to enjoy. I wish I could give you a hug. I think we all need a hug right now. I came to your content because I really love your personality and you make me feel like im not alone in this and Im so sorry that other ppl have failed you by being so heartless and cruel to you with their unsolicited advice. I’ll support you in whatever direction you want to go, gurl. You have one life, YOU GET TO CHOOSE HOW TO LIVE IT ✨

Atikah

2024-10-18 16:36:33 +0000 UTC

Caitlin, you have to know that many of us came for your personality and stayed because you are so real and down to earth -- with a side of sass. As much as I get excited about you reacting to some video or idol I may have recently been blown away by, it actually doesn't matter what you choose to react to as I just enjoy the experience and am happy to have the opportunity to give support. I am a lover of music, dance, and great performances so frankly I end up liking 100s of idols, groups and performances. It is hurtful to see many of these hard working and talented young kids get unfairly targeted -- whether because of just having a life (like Seunghan), or being soo talented vocally that they pose strong competition to other trainees/idols on a survival show (like Jay Chang among many others), or they are just "different" in some way. All I can do is focus on making sure I leave a supportive message full of my appreciation for their talent and hope it finds it's way to them when they need encouragement. I absolutely support you doing whatever feels right to you. The only thought I find sad is that Keeho might miss out on another really entertaining reaction to a P1Harmony MV if you don't post on YT. 😆

Gina ODierno

2024-10-18 12:59:34 +0000 UTC

girl i understand you so much, tbh i've been also driving away from kpop because of all the bs between fandoms and every new thing i learn about kpop, mainly the industry, is making me mad and such. it gets a lot for emotions as they bottled up because of life as well. i hope you will get in a better mental state soon. i send you a lot of love

Akitsune.a

2024-10-18 11:54:20 +0000 UTC

It’s your channel, and your patreon, and you get to choose what you put on it, and I’ve definitely enjoyed your content. There is nothing wrong with being a multi-stan, and there is also nothing wrong with prioritizing your mental health. Anyone who fights you on this can go 🤬 As someone who’s been in a variety of fandom spaces since the 90s, I wish I could give you good answers.  Fandom culture has been the home for the geeks, freaks and nerds since it’s beginnings, and while there is no denying there’s toxicity in some places, we have usually learned to respect people’s personal space.  There was a definite shift during the pandemic. Many who looked for community during the lockdown turned to fandom spaces, and while many found a home and we love them, there was unfortunitely a huge spike in the toxic side. And they are so so so SO LOUD.  Protect your peace of mind, take the time you need to re-center. If you’re going to take a step into the QL(BL/GL) world, I think you’ll love it. There is so much wonderful content out there. But you also mentioned that you didn’t know kpop culture when you got into it, so here’s some advice for this culture in particular: Be open minded. There is a lot of censorship in QL in general around the world, and depending on the country it’s from, there wil definitely be a variety prejudice thrown in the plot. And it will change depending on the year it was released, as well as how the perception of the queer community has changed in that country/culture. Some examples: the word “gay” was discouraged in QL in Thailand until a few years ago, so many series before that will do a lot of juggling to convey the subject, and I have seen many get upset about them not using specific terms. The genre has been so harshly censored in China that most media is re-written as bromance, and you have to read between the lines. Representation: There is a never-ending argument on what is good/bad representation in QL, as well as which side of the world is “doing it right”. There is so so much prejudice, xenophobia, purity culture, not to mention the people who refuse to see the difference between fact and fiction. It can get anywhere from a heated discussion, to massive fights, accussations, doxings, etc. Some online spaces have completely fallen appart over it. But it’s important to understand that we’re not a monolith. As a queer person who enjoys QL I have specific likes, dislikes (and traumas) that will influence my taste in the genre, and those will definitely clash with someone else’s. But we have to give each other space, because we all deserve finding a safe home. The roots! - Understanding where the genre started and how it’s developed helps. There is a growing body of academia dedicated to the world of QL. I highly recommend Sam Aburime, James Welker, and Thomas Baudinette to start with.  Aburime is a scholar who runs a huge online database of academic resources not only about QL, but many aspects of fandom (https://www.fujoshi.info).  Welker edited a book called Queer Transfigurations on the origins and development of the genre as well as various articles.  Baudinette has written numerous articles on the subject, as well as a book on Thai BL. All three have been guests in panels and vlogs some of which you can find on YT. Enjoy! ^_^ . K-BL would probably be a good start for you since you like k-drama. Semantic Error is a great start, and I’d also recommend media by Strongberry. They do a lot of shorts, and you can find their channel on YT.

Abby Quay

2024-10-18 11:43:52 +0000 UTC

i rumbled on my words too much but Thank you Caitlin!

heyitspf

2024-10-18 06:39:31 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin! I first stumbled you channel when you reacted to whydontwe and have been a subscriber ever since then! It has been a journey with you girl! From your first car, to a studio, to a house! Your channel has been always a comfort for me. Your feelings are valid and do not let anybody invalidate it for you. KPOP for sure is very taxing especially with all the fandoms and everybody has their own opinions. it’s okay to feel sad as long as you get back up. you’re allowed to feel whatever you need to feel in order to get to the next step. take care of yourself. Always here for you Caitlin!

heyitspf

2024-10-18 06:38:52 +0000 UTC

Hello Caitlin, I met you briefly at the Ateez concert we were in the same row. You're Ateez reactions are how I came to follow you so it was really nice to then see you at their concert. I don't usually comment because I'm really shy lol but it was really nice meeting you and I am sad to hear that you going through so much. Still, I want to thank you for your reactions, they generally bring me Joy. I am excited to see what new things you put out in the future. I'm an anime girly myself so I can not wait to see your anime reactions! I wish you all the best Caitlin!

Jasmine Allen

2024-10-18 03:54:12 +0000 UTC

Girl I will support you in anything you do. Priority is you taking care of yourself. I personally love you girl, and I’m sure we’re all here for you and support any decision. Do what’s best for you and where YOU want to be, that’s most important. I just want my internet friend to be okay! 🩷🩷

thatssolee_

2024-10-17 23:05:30 +0000 UTC

I honestly don't mind what you post as long as it's what you want to do. so if that's kpop reactions great, if that's nothing at all that's also okay, just as long as you prioritise yourself. I promised myself I'd only have patreon for a month because it's slightly on the expensive side for me, but that's turned into 3 months because your videos bring me so much joy, irregardless of what the content is about. but even for that short amount of time, I can tell how much people here will support you no matter what! so take your time and do as much or as little as you feel like, and if suddenly you change your mind and want to stop posting entirely, or change the type of content you put out, we will always support you in that :)) (also I'd love to be able to watch more twich lives and have access to vods because I always accidentally miss them 😭)

artemis

2024-10-17 20:01:59 +0000 UTC

I want to add, thank you for being honest with us, for giving us this kind of update so we know what's going on and aren't left in the dark for months on end. 💚

Gabrielle T.

2024-10-17 18:18:47 +0000 UTC

I have said this before and I will say it again, it is crazy what people demand of reactors. I have been into KPOP since 2008 so I have gone through a lot of highs and a lot of lows, so many wins and so many scandals. It does get tiring. Especially when you are a multistan and it has always rubbed me the wrong way that people have rules for who get to call themselves a stan or a casual listener. In my personal opinion, as a multistan who has a full time job and bad mental health and other hobbies, I dont even have the time to react to everything. I have never watched any of the TV shows of any groups I stan except shows like RTK and Kingdom. It's just impossible to keep up with everything. Hell, sometimes I even miss the Japanese comebacks and THAT. IS. OKAY. All this to say, I would never expect a reactor to react to everything. That's just not realistic. I've also always found it a bit sad that you are not allowed to be completely honest when you dont like a song bc "fans" will come out and attack you. As if it makes sense to love everything ever? (It doesn't.) You can love a group and still dislike some of their releases omg. This does not make you a bad fan. (Sorry this turned into a bit of a rant 😅) Basically, what it boils down to is, it's okay to take a break, to focus on other things, on your mental health and on healing. I am sure all of us here want what is best for you and we will support any decision you make. I will end my extra long comment by saying that your reactions have always brought a smile to my face and they made me laugh. I also enjoyed the ones where we did not have the same enjoyment of the song because it was interesting to hear your point of view. I have recently been rewatching your Monsta X reactions and what a journey that was 😆 Take good care of yourself Caitlin!!

Gabrielle T.

2024-10-17 18:16:09 +0000 UTC

Rooting for you hun! Go get that diploma!

Kando

2024-10-17 17:25:37 +0000 UTC

First of all, I just wanted to say I completely understand what you're saying. I'm so sorry that the toxic fans/fan bases have made you fall out of love with k-pop. :( To me, watching a group's variety content is one of my comfort past times and it especially helps when I've had a stressful work day and I can just smile and laugh watching groups' contents so if it helps your love for it by watching off cam rather than reacting in the future, I'm all supportive of that. With that said, I personally have a lot of interests and I tend to switch back and forth between them based on my mood and I just love watching your reactions to anything so I'll continue supporting you no matter what you decide to do. I also LOVE BLs and anime so omg, I'd be down to see you react to those in the future as well, since you've mentioned them. But I've always loved your tv/movie reactions ever since you started them bc of how relatable you are in general. Love you and your videos, always! <3

skye

2024-10-17 17:08:37 +0000 UTC

hiiii caitlin!! i usually don't really comment while watching but i feel the need to say this: truly, whatever you do we will support. as someone who has been here since the very beginning you bring so much energy and joy into your viewers life. with that being said, i dont want you to lose that joy and light, if that means not doing as much kpop then so be it. do whatever makes you the happiest and we will support! so much love for you!

youyou

2024-10-17 16:52:54 +0000 UTC

Idk how much work it would be but maybe uploading twitch vods to patreon would be one option too? People could see the reactions even if they miss a stream but the vods would be up for a more limited audience.

Nora

2024-10-17 16:48:12 +0000 UTC

Thank you Chloe! 🥹 your words made me feel lighter just reading them!

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 16:46:50 +0000 UTC

Damn doyoung 😭😭😭😭

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 16:40:25 +0000 UTC

Thank you much for the advice Corey! I’m taking it to heart and really thinking it over! Appreciate the love and support 🥹💕

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 16:39:35 +0000 UTC

You’re fine! I’m for tiers I’m not sure cause I haven’t made a plan yet. This was just me voicing out my feelings and to ask for some advice. If I were to actually do it there most likely would still be KPOP on the Patreon so I don’t know if I would change much on the tiers but I can’t really give a clear answer cause I haven’t made that decision yet. When it comes down to it I will of course communicate that to you guys.

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 16:33:51 +0000 UTC

I forgot about that line until you said it. I know this post isn't for me, but I'm glad he said it because some people need to have that support from idols. Especially people who get too overwhelmed to know what to do and need that small reminder to help them. Thank you for reminding me.

Alexandria T

2024-10-17 16:29:47 +0000 UTC

Dang I didn’t even think of this but you got a point. I always feel back leaving YouTube out of the loop so I try to explain things to them but maybe I should do what you said and post a notice for the break and that’s it.

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 16:28:49 +0000 UTC

Caitlin was my first Patreon sub, too. Lol. I have been here (not on Patreon, but YouTube) since she discovered NCT, too. Crazy, ain't it?

Alexandria T

2024-10-17 16:24:39 +0000 UTC

You’re so sweet thank you so much 😭 - school is rough right now cause I’ve lost my drive but I’m trying to push through this last bit so I can be finished!

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 16:23:48 +0000 UTC

also i have literally NEVER considered subscribing to someone’s patreon ever until i found urs :3

vilo

2024-10-17 15:29:29 +0000 UTC

hey caitlin! first of all i hope u feel better soon and u manage to think abt this topjc less over time (in a GOOD and HEALTHY way ofc)😢😢 I know how much you reactors have to put up with mean and inconsiderate comments especially with how rude some of them are. I totally respect u for going off twitter im so srs rn 🫡 i also know how fan culture actually affects your love for supporting a certain group online publicly so IW U TO KNOW IT’S SO OKAY IF YOU STOP POSTING ON YOUTUBE!! patreon is your (hopefully) safe space and none of us here will pressure you into doing things you don’t like, even if u EVENTUALLY get more disinterested in kpop (i will be watching and looping all ur dua lipa, ariana grande etc. videos to fr) i’m sure everyone here enjoys your content, despite wtv group or artist you react to because we actually LIKE your comments, thoughts and opinions. Same as many other in the comment section, I’ve been here for pretty long now (since your FIRST EVER nct reaction 3 yrs ago holy shwt) and I find myself always checking your channels (yt and patreon) for any new updates and even older videos (i,ve rewatched your BAP & WOODZ reactions at least 4 times since they came out). I once had like a 1 week project submission due and the only thing i was looping in the background while i did my work was your youtube reactions and album review videos! I’d definitely say you’re a safe space for me because i just tend to watch or listen(?) to you whenever I feel stressed. So if u ever feel like you’re “not doing things right” or not feeling urself, I HOPE U KNOW U R A BIGGG SOURCE OF COMFORT FOR ME :P (also i mean all this in like an avid subscriber and watcher way ok not like some parasocial fan) PLEASE DO WHATEVER YOU WANT/WTV UR HEART LETS YOU! and imo it’s totally cool if you just ghosted on ur youtube platform, u don’t rly owe anyone there (especially the haters who still watch ur videos ANYWAY) an explanation!!!!! and FYI i love all the diff hair styles you do ALWAYS EATINNNGGGNG

vilo

2024-10-17 15:27:54 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin, I am usually a silent viewer but I wanted to say that whatever you want to do I support you. I first started loving your reactions but over the time I really loved you personality too. From the start of my kpop journey I love SM groups. Even though it is a shitty company I really love their groups' music but with everything that is happening right now in the kpop industry it is messing with my brain as well so I can understand a little of what you are going through. Just wanted to say that don't listen to others, this is YOUR life so do what you want to do. Those who are your real fans will support you no matter what.

Tulika Auti

2024-10-17 15:15:00 +0000 UTC

hey caitlin! your feelings are 110% valid! i have been a kpop stan for almost 10 years now and i have totally been where you are emotionally a few times within those 10 years. it's about every 2-3 years where i go through a "detox". idk what it is but it seems like clockwork every few years or so i just get so tired and overwhelmed with the industry and fans and it makes me not want to be a part of it anymore bc it is so toxic and it eventually gets to you. especially in this day and age (i sound old but idk how else to word it) it seems like fans are more aggressive and act on that aggression without anyone else's feelings in mind besides themselves and it's not making kpop fun anymore. if you try to defend yourself you're the bad guy and if you glaze over the hate and don't address it then they label you as "incompetent and uninvolved". maybe I was just raised different but i have never understood the reason people feel the need to spread negativity. i was always told if i don't have anything nice to say, then do not say anything. but lately all there is all over sns and in comment sections is just pure hatred and most of it is not relevant and just there to piss people off istg. people are so emotionally involved in kpop and korean idol/actors lives that they don't hesitate to destroy someone else's life to protect their "fave" and again, just pure toxicity. i hate that you are so worn down and exhausted with this community while also trying to handle everything going on in your personal life. i know it's easier said than done, but just do what YOU want to do! do not suffer alone because you are not alone! we are all here for you and can relate to you in some aspect. your health, physical and mental, are priority above everything. whatever you can find to be your happy place is where you need to be right now. i hope nothing but for the best for you, whether you decide to move focus to something else entirely or even take a break so you can breathe. i'll be here rooting for you 🤍 sorry for the long comment

chloe 🖤

2024-10-17 14:42:43 +0000 UTC

Caitlin I am so sorry that people made you start to fall out of love with kpop. But I really do understand. I have been feeling the same way. I have been into way more kdramas then kpop lately. These toxic fandoms and toxic people are insane!! The fact that people had the audacity to make comments about your hair is insanity!! First of all, your new hair cut is GORGEOUS!!!!😍 I will be praying for you, your health and your mental health. Remember that there are many people who love you for you!! And if anybody leave then they don’t belong in your safe space! We love and support you ALWAYS!!!! I will always be here no matter what and I will be watching whatever you want to post. I am here for your amazing reactions and your beautiful personality!! ❤️❤️

Kiki

2024-10-17 14:26:53 +0000 UTC

Let me just say that I'm an oldtimer in kpop and just in general 🤣 so I can 100% say life be LIFEING! What you're going through is kind of what we all do as we grow and change and learn how to realise, set and enforce boundaries for ourselves. Whether with family, jobs, patrons or a youtube audience. It's necessary growth and change. It's never easy but if you can work through and understand the discomfort that is INHERENT in moving forward for YOURSELF, it becomes easier to shake off the negativity and pressure. The amount of people these days that get a kick out of ruining someone else by purposely saying crappy things online is epidemic. Social media is truly a cancer. I hope you can gain strength to do what you need to for yourself and your wellbeing. Will you lose followers? Yes. Will people try to control and prey on your insecurities in order to get you to do what they want? Yes. Will doing what makes you happy and what you enjoy ultimately make your life better? You better effing believe it. Take your time. If you need to take a break from EVERYTHING in order to get centered and clarity about your next steps, DO NOT HESITATE to do so. Don't be afraid. Our lives are too short to be living them for anyone other than ourselves but especially for strangers behind keyboards (I include myself in that as well). Take care of yourself. Deal with finishing school. Give yourself the grace of time and focus to understand what you want and need. Then let loose. Change is good, especially when it's hard. I'm rooting for you!

B.

2024-10-17 14:21:47 +0000 UTC

Whenever I have money to spare I always check your Patreon. So I’m fine with whatever content you make as long as you enjoy doing it. 🙂

Eliora

2024-10-17 14:07:01 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin, I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling. I've been watching your videos since your first BTS reaction and I kept watching because I enjoyed your reactions a lot. You are a fun person and I like your personality and videos as they bring me joy. I mainly watch your BTS reactions and a few other groups like Red Velvet, TXT, A.C.E and although I am ARMY and I've been in this kpop world since 2016, it is quite clear how this environment has become too much on the past few years. Don't give me wrong, it was always a bit intense and thngs started to improve a lot in terms of how companies treat the artists (well, some of those at least) but I think the way people feel entitle to demand things is different and changing to the worst and the whole Riize situation just shows how bad it still is and how much worst it can be as it opens a dangerous precedent. However, there is still a lot of good in this, mainly the friends you make along the way, the music you get in contact and that helps you to escape and be happy for a while, the artistry you find and that can heal and make you feel joy. I hope you can continue with the reactions but if not, it is fine. Your health comes first. I was never able to catch up with the kpop news and the way there are so many groups popping over all the time and I try to maintain a little boundarie to how many new things I absorb to avoid the chaos it s=could turn into. I hope you find this good balance and that you can keep enjoying music and art. All the love to you.

Liuzetz

2024-10-17 14:04:42 +0000 UTC

Doyoung said this in his recent solo concert: "If you wish to take a break from being a fan, that is alright too. I will (always) be here, so you can come back anytime. I hope that supporting me isn't something tiring for you." The last line hits me hard, because yes, we should be enjoying what we consume. Once it's not as enjoyable anymore, there's no shame in cutting back on these contents either :) (I'm a massive BLs/GLs fan, so I'll be seated if you decide to venture there lol!) Big huggies <3

Jerric

2024-10-17 14:03:33 +0000 UTC

I love this idea. Because I think we do enjoy the music videos and albums the most. I have noticed how much you do all the variety shows, and I always think “ Wow, this is a lot for her to be doing”. And I am Sooo excited that you will be doing BLs!!! I have started enjoying BLs lately and think you will too! I think this will be so much more manageable for you. And am so happy for you! 💕

SpicyLife02

2024-10-17 14:02:57 +0000 UTC

Hey Caitlin ! I discovered your channel 2 years ago and I've been following you since then. I really love your energy and your reactions and I don't want to leave your channel. I think you're really brave to speak about what you're going through right now. People can be so mean to other people that it's making me sick too. Obviously, I'm not in your situation, but I'm sure that starting to do what YOU want is the best thing to do. I will continue to support you until the day you stop doing videos. Love you, Cait !

Auri_23

2024-10-17 14:02:30 +0000 UTC

I found your channel about about 2 years ago when I was first getting into k-pop. I was looking for people online to feel like I had someone to experience this journey of discovering and falling in love with this music, since i only had a couple friends irl that listen to k-pop. I've stayed subscribed and joined the Patreon because I appreciate you and your opinions! I'll even watch your reactions to groups that I don't listen to because I appreciate your content. Just saying all this so you know that my advice is coming from a place of someone who cares about you more than the content you create. As for advice on this situation, I'll be honest and say that I think you need to do what is best for you and take a break. Nothing should come before your mental health, especially the opinions of people on YouTube. If you want to post only on Patreon and it be a small handful of groups and some dramas, sign me up! If people leave because you don't react to their faves or have the same opinion as them, good riddance. If you are looking for a refresh on the audience, then a "fandom cleanse" might not be a bad thing. Logistically, if you are up to streaming more on Twitch, that's great. I don't think leaving VODs up for people is a great idea, to be honest. It's just shifting the negative audience from YouTube to Twitch. I know the general audience on Twitch is different, but when it comes to reaction content, I don't know if it's significant enough to avoid that toxicity that you may be experiencing on YouTube. Unless explicit boundaries are set from the jump. And I know that puts most of your content behind a paywall, but I think that the real ones will support you until you are ready to come back to free platforms (like YouTube) with appropriate boundaries and a new perspective. I know this is an essay and please take all of this with a grain of salt, just my thoughts. I just want what's best for you and hope to see you find the joy in this space again. Appreciate you and your content and I hope you find a way to move forward that works best for you and your well being. 🩷🩵

Corey Mullins

2024-10-17 13:59:40 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin, I

Liuzetz

2024-10-17 13:55:44 +0000 UTC

Things will get better. I trust that you’ll be okay. You don’t need to please everyone. Just do what you enjoy doing and the right audience will eventually find you.

Eliora

2024-10-17 13:51:08 +0000 UTC

It breaks my heart so much to see someone who genuinely loves music be this unmotivated to listen because of the toxic fans. I completely understand where you are coming from. I remember screaming into my pillow because of how frustrated I was with everything. I would not blame you for stopping or significantly limiting your reactions to Kpop. I hope you do still listen to it on your own though so the "fans" will be less toxic to you.

Savannah Guess

2024-10-17 13:42:57 +0000 UTC

I don't have much to say that others haven't said, but maybe it could be a good idea for you to step away as much as you can until, for instance, you graduate? I think right now you are struggling with a lot all at once, and, if you were to ask me, the easiest to step away from is kpop. There is no shame in doing what is best for yourself.

Ashley Spaeth

2024-10-17 13:42:08 +0000 UTC

I totally get you. Your most important and reacting should not feel like a burden or a job. Music is fun and you can escape that way. I think a lot of people have problems with the fans and probably even Koreans don’t like how bad it can be, and SM is a terrible company and I feel they made it worse for Seunghan by leaving him out the group that long. But anyways.. If you want a break that’s totally okay and sometimes taking time off something and doing something else, be that kdramas and such or different music, can really help you work things out better. So I’d just say take some time and focus on that rather than kpop if it’s really affecting you. We all get a bit overwhelmed and we get put off by some things when there’s negativity around it, it’s only human. But also I at least don’t focus on fan wars or anything, I just kinda ignore it but not everyone is like that and I think it depends where on which social media platforms you view it. Regardless, take some time, do what you want to do, maybe you’ll feel better about it, if you don’t try not to worry too much. Just go with what your heart is saying. Hope you find some joy again, we’ll be here either way. ❤️🫂

Ryu

2024-10-17 13:39:06 +0000 UTC

♥ read after me: The most important thing in my life is MY HAPPINESS & MY HEALTH. The most important person to me is ME MYSELF. This is MY life, only I have the rights to decide what I gonna to do. So I'm gonna do whatever I want and make MYSELF happy.

Emily Meng

2024-10-17 13:36:01 +0000 UTC

I totally understand you, ive been a kpop fan for 14 years and the recent events makes me want to leave as well. this is not the environment i wanted to support and i hope we can heal from this all. take care of yourself 🙏🏻

aeri

2024-10-17 13:31:07 +0000 UTC

I totally understand you. i have a few groups which i totally love. but sometimes it's difficult to talk to someone about them, just because they only love one group. I don't think you did a bad job. It's just that there are people who don't know how to respect someone. I think it is great that you're trying to focus on yourself more. And I unterstand that it gets more difficult because there are so many new groups. Just react to your favorite groups and have fun. And honestly you deserve a long break. you did so many things! And as you said yourself, you did go trough some heavy things. I hope you will find a way for youself to be happy again and to have fun reacting again. Even if it's in your private time.

Kerstin Mehl

2024-10-17 13:28:03 +0000 UTC

Just react to what you want to react to 🥺 you don't have to react to everything that comes out and kpop has been a mess. Take a break and try new things 💜 Do what is best for you don't try and make others happy!

Sarah Lu12

2024-10-17 13:12:17 +0000 UTC

I agree with you. I’ve been in KPop since 2008 and after the recent stuff with RIIZE, Taeil, and now the toxicity of anti’s going after members in different groups; KPop is neither fun nor my escape anymore. I find myself wondering where the influx of these “so called fans” came from, not understanding the parasocial relationships that kfans actually think are real, and a industry that now made it clear international fans opinions and feelings don’t matter.

Azure Hickman

2024-10-17 12:53:11 +0000 UTC

I understand this so much! The Riize case really hit hard for me. I've been in the kpop space for four years now so kinda as long as you. This Riize thing has sort of been the tipping point for me too. I feel like i'm getting sucked into the toxicity because I care so much about Riize and I'm starting to hate people. That's not healthy. Music, especially kpop, is a safe space and escapism for me and it should be fun. It shouldn't stress you out. It's sad that it feels like work to you now. I found you when you were first discovering BTS, I'm mostly a lurker, but I've always been supporting your decisions. Be it content related or your hair (which is fabulous btw! f people who feel the need to comment negatively about someone's looks). You do you bestie, whatever is healthiest for you and whatever you want to do. We're just here for the ride and if someone doesn't like what you're putting out then no one's forcing them to be here. Really excited to be here if you ever decide to delve into bl/gl/anime! Big bl lover myself. I can definitely help with bl recs if you decide to do like forms or polls for that.

Nora

2024-10-17 12:35:40 +0000 UTC

This made me so sad, I’ve been watching you on YouTube for almost 3 years now. I really appreciated how much into music you were as well as your humour and loving nature. By that I just mean of course I don’t know you personally but you make comments about artists that showed how you were always looking for the good in them and you give people their flowers when they deserve them. I personally don’t know why the internet makes people act so wild.

Martha Ferguson

2024-10-17 12:05:34 +0000 UTC

I completely understand feeling drained by the extra negativity that comes from those spaces in kpop. The toxicity runs deep and while you can avoid that as a listener, it just finds you as a reactor. As much as I love watching your content and enjoying your stuff for you, I dont want you to have to wreck your mental health for it. I'm glad that you're prioritizing yourself with this. Remember that as sweet as some of us can be on here we also don't know what's best for you like you do, so remember to touch base with people who you know have your best interests in mind and check in with yourself. I'm sorry this year has been so rough for you, and I hope that things in general get better for you, and that these changes make things a little easier

Happier

2024-10-17 12:04:01 +0000 UTC

First I want to say that if YouTube and other spaces are not safe spaces for you, that is NOT your fault. You can't control other people's rude & entitled behavior, and you didn't do anything wrong. I see so much nasty behavior all over the internet these days. I feel like it's gotten worse since the pandemic. I totally understand where you're coming from regarding kpop. I got into kpop around the same time as you and it was a fun escape. However after less than a year or so, I started to see how toxic both the fandoms and industry are. Now I only really stan & follow about 3 groups and everything else I just listen to casually. I had to cut back to preserve my sanity, so I fully support you doing the same. Please take care of yourself!

Mel

2024-10-17 11:45:20 +0000 UTC

The internet can be an incredibly toxic place. People like to think that just because they CAN voice their opinion, means that they can say whatever they want regardless of how it affects someone. I work in the video game industry, specifically on the music side, and the amount of opinions and hate that Ive gotten for just doing my JOB is insane. You honestly just have to dissociate a little bit if you work in a space where the public has opinions. Do what makes you happy and do what you can be proud of putting out there, and say BYE to everything else. They do not deserve your energy or attention. You are honestly one of only two reactors I follow. the KPOP space has always been a lot to navigate, and I feel like its gotten worse with social media growth. Everyone is screaming into the void to be heard and it makes things worse. I've been a fan since gen 2 and seeing the changes over the years is both exciting and disgusting in very different ways. Honestly I only really consider myself in the fandom of one group. I just follow along at my own pace and don't engage that much on the fan side. All that being said- we are all here for YOU. You are genuinely a fun person and I love your spirit and honesty. Do what makes you happy and whats going to inspire you to stay creative. Burnout is a very real thing. Take your time.

Morgan Fryer-McCulloch

2024-10-17 11:41:18 +0000 UTC

I honestly have been feeling a similar way with kpop recently. Things have been so toxic, it's really hard. I'm here for u first and foremost though! Whatever u wanna do ppl will be here to support u

FroggyMuds

2024-10-17 11:34:33 +0000 UTC

I, like you, had no idea that kpop fandoms, are so toxic. I got into kpop like you, as a fun escape from all my obligations. I was not and am still not prepared for all the toxicity that surrounds kpop. That being said, if you are not enjoying something or enjoying doing something, then please don't do it. You should do what makes you happy. If you are happy and enjoying what you are doing, then your Patreon followers will enjoy it. Part of the reason that you are so loved, is that you are genuine, and we love your pure happiness when you react to something that "blows your mind". I think the number of comments here, speaks to everyone's love of you and our sincerest desire that you take care of you. If you need a break, then take it. School work is more important than kpop and/or other content reactions. It is more important to prioritize your health and school over this and youtube. My best advice is to give yourself the grace and permission to do what makes you happy. You bring joy to others but, you need to first bring joy to yourself.

Beth LaRue

2024-10-17 10:10:05 +0000 UTC

While I am not a mom, I am absolutely old enough to be your mom, I apologize for coming at this with “mom energy”, but I just want to give you a long distance hug, tell you EVERYTHING you are feeling is valid, YOU get to decide what is best for your life, and you are at the exact age I was when you really start weighing what makes you happy. And that‘s what life should be is what makes you happy. I am always excited to see the next thing you do because you always tip me off to something I didn’t know! Please, put yourself first, find the things that you like, and you‘ll see that the people who like those things will find you too…just like with KPop. Life is learning and growing, and that’s what you’re doing! But I have found that the hardest part of that is some people do get left behind, and you have to find your own way to be ok with that. I for one have enjoyed KDrama watching with you even more so than KPop, I‘m thrilled to see where you take that! Much love.

readyXaimsXfire

2024-10-17 10:06:01 +0000 UTC

all you said is completely valid and understandable, honestly i do not feel like it's on you that the community you tried to build on youtube was not as safe as you wanted, people can be toxic even towards the most chill person ever, so i truly believe that you shouldn't put that on you. one thing i feel like saying, and in the most non confrontational way i swear, i've seen people call what's happening "korean culture" or "culture differences" but i swear nothing about this is on the culture, i've seen international fans act the same way the korean ones did (especially with the riize situation) and i've seen korean fans try to defend seunghan, i just feel like we cannot understand what they did to him not because we're not korean, but simply because we're not that kind of "fans" . that being said if you feel like removing kpop then do that, for you, maybe there will be a loss here of people but if it's to help yourself then i believe you should do it. i do want to ask, i don't think you mentioned it in the video or maybe i missed it or maybe you simply don't know yet, if the memberships and tiers will change based on the fact that there will be less kpop. i'm so sorry for the long message <3

ester perazzo

2024-10-17 09:52:37 +0000 UTC

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Daniel Goland

2024-10-17 09:31:44 +0000 UTC

Hey love I'm mostly a silent viewer but i can tell you that I've been a kpop fan since 2006 and was deep into the voting and buying albums and knowing everything and anything about each and every group and it got EXHAUSTING at the end by 2012 I was done with it all. I just stayed with 1 group that I really followed mainly just for their music was not really involved in the fandom side of things. Until 2019 when fourth gen brought me back into the fold. I still listen to kpop now and im more involved with more groups. However i can tell you that i learned my lesson the first time around and am still not deeply involved in the fandom except for the couple of reactors i follow . The most I do is go to my faves concert now. Everyone's fandom journey is different you'll fin what works for you. If you wanna dive into reacting to non kpop related things like the GOT reactions you mentioned or anime or ANYTHING, I'll still be part of the patreon because I follow it mainly for you and your personality. We really do care about you! Dont worry girl do what will be best for you.

Mary Higgins

2024-10-17 09:23:24 +0000 UTC

I feel you. I've been a fan of various Kpop groups for years and have actively supported them, but only recently have I joined any online Kpop communities and they're just as toxic and scary as every other online community and platform and it's such a shame. What I do now is stay away from the majority of online spaces with a few exceptions that genuinely make me happy and leave it at that and just enjoy everything by myself and for myself.

KalaKeiko

2024-10-17 08:42:59 +0000 UTC

I completely understand what you’re going through. I’ve been experiencing the same thing over the past year because of the toxicity, fan wars, and fans constantly belittling idols for the smallest things. I’ve been watching your content for the past few years, especially when I first got into K-pop, because your reactions are so genuine, fun, and relatable. Sometimes it’s hard to realise when you need to let go of something that no longer brings you joy and causes stress in your life, especially when you’re so attached to it. Thank you for your content and reactions over the last few years. Please do what is best for you and prioritise your mental health. At the end of the day, your decision may cost you a few followers and members of the amazing community you’ve created, but do not feel discouraged by that, because the ones who truly support you and believe in everything you stand for will be the ones who stay – and that’s worth so much more! ❤️❤️❤️

CM ᡣ𐭩

2024-10-17 08:20:46 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin, I’m 26 yo Korean man. And i completely get where you’re coming from. Although i might not be able to understand your recent difficulties as being the reactor and foreign kpop fan to the fullest, i can totally relate to the recent toxicities around kpop! Even majority of koreans find it weird to witness some of the bs that riize has gone through. So i think it is pretty normal for you to lose interest and even hate the kpop fanbase culture as a whole. I’m just trying to let you know that your thoughts are also what majority of the koreans think too, especially sm’s handling of seunghan issue. And about your mental health and overall loss of kpop.. how about taking a break as long as you need? I, too for the most part, rely on your contents to continue my love in kpop, but if this journey keeps hurting you and bothers you, i don’t think you should continue all this. Because at the end of the day, you are what matters the most to yourself. Though if i’m being completely honest, part of me also hope you could react to movies or kdramas if you want to avoid only kpop😅, but that’s just my opinion and i really want you to live a happy life bc over the past few years you really showed me how pure and wonderful human being you are. So what i’m trying to say is…do what is good for you. Put yourself before what others think. If the strangers from youtube keep bothering you, how about post the contents only on patreon, or take a break from everything? Once you take a break from the things that hurt and bother you, maybe your mindset will change and become to see things differently. I hope you take a few steps further from all of this and really contemplate as long as you need, to decide what’s best for you. And if you decide to leave, i just want to tell you i really loved to follow this journey with you. It was truly a blessing❤️💚

Dongjo Kim

2024-10-17 08:13:42 +0000 UTC

If people are going to leave because they keep demanding and getting upset like children when they don’t get what they want, then let them go. Seriously, who needs them? In the K-pop community, I like to think of it as a fight for life. Being toxic is a choice, and sometimes it makes me laugh instead of argue, because I know karma hits hard in ways you don’t expect. For the victims and the idols, life will move on for them, because it always does, even if it’s not the same as before. Feeling sad for them is normal, but don’t let it become a heavy burden that affects you mentally. Cut things out when you don’t feel like it; who cares what others think? You have more people who will stay with you than you realize. Even if you stick to two or three groups that you genuinely enjoy, that’s enough. As for rude comments, just respond with an emoji and let us handle the roasting haha! Seriously, these people are like trash cans you see on the road all the time —just meant to be thrown in the trash. Sometimes you just need to kick them to the bin pff.

tion yun

2024-10-17 08:04:49 +0000 UTC

I hope you feel better, hon! As for making videos, I think you should react to what you like or are interested in and turn off the comments. That’s a very obvious way of letting people know that your reactions are just that, YOUR REACTIONS. I also don’t think you need to really say anything on YouTube. Just put up a notice in the community tab saying you’re taking a long break and remove your contact info. Or post a video that has “Taking a long break” on the screen and that’s it. You don’t owe anyone anything. Being nice and trying to explain yourself may open you up to more nonsense from people.

Jomae Rosa

2024-10-17 07:54:24 +0000 UTC

I hope u find your happiness and I will be sporting you in everything u do love u so much

7 EX

2024-10-17 07:53:51 +0000 UTC

I also fell off the kpop world last year and Riize brought me back and now.. no idea what will happen

Mimi

2024-10-17 07:49:02 +0000 UTC

it’s also really disheartening that such individuals are treated as subhuman just because of the passion they have and their talent… it’s hard to understand the korean culture in that aspect.

Minty Minnie

2024-10-17 07:39:27 +0000 UTC

You do not owe anyone else anything. esp not at the detriment of yourself and esp not for random ppl on the internet (even if they are your supporters) we support you because WE want to and chose to, but that doesn’t mean you’re obligated in any way to overextend yourself. Take however much time you want and do what your heart tells you. The reason ppl like creators in the first place is because we assume the ppl creating are doing something they love. If someone is starting to lose love for something due to the space and stress and work load, then it’s best to take a step back. Your own mental and physical health and personal goals are more important than silly kpop videos. I think the sentiment of falling out of love with kpop is so real to many of us, and alot of us are too scared to acknowledge it or don’t want to. I’d love to see what else you chose to do in the future. We may have found you through kpop reactions, but we stayed for who YOU are and the entertainment YOU provide. Art and paths in art change all the time. You can start reacting to anything else and I’m sure many of us would stick around! ❤️ sending lots of love and i hope you take all the time you need to feel more grounded and content in your day to day.

Minty Minnie

2024-10-17 07:34:03 +0000 UTC

You should definitely do whatever makes you happy and try not to care about other people’s opinions (which is hard). Music in general should be something fun and relaxing so it’s sad that isn’t the case for you anymore :( I hope you’ll continue to do whatever you want to do!!!

Roooos

2024-10-17 06:58:43 +0000 UTC

I found you through your K-pop reactions, but I’ve subscribed and stayed because of you and your personality! Do whatever you need to do to be happy and fulfilled! If you’re not having fun, then nothing else matters. I’ll watch you react to whatever because I’m here for YOU. 💕

Mulandraa

2024-10-17 06:55:01 +0000 UTC

Caitlin, thank you for being so open and honest. I really enjoy your contents. First take care of yourself, being happy and healthy is the most important thing. IF you falling out of love with K-pop Scene just take a break from it and try something else drama/movies/variety/anime, you can get new motivation and inspiration from there too. You can also try other music related things too like K-rock, K-indie, J-pop, J-rock, and others. There is still many path to try if you still want to create content. Don't be afraid to try new things. Please take care of yourself and do what makes you enjoy

Nue00

2024-10-17 06:40:11 +0000 UTC

I got into kpop around 2010-2011 but I made my mind this gonna be my fav group is in 2013 during Growl era too hehe

creamsodamyra

2024-10-17 06:36:57 +0000 UTC

Hey caity! Do what makes you happy!! If you need to take a step back TAKE IT!! I had to when I felt like I put kpop above everything else in my life and had to check myself lmaoo. I think it’s really easy for people to get caught up in the kpop world that they forget that the artist they are fans/stan are human too!!! Also I think that doing twitch streams for the time being could be a good idea because then you don’t have to worry about comments. Being one of the active people in your streams, it’s always a good time. We vibe together and just chill and talk and it’s just always fun! PLEASE TAKE THE TIME YOU NEED, KPOP ISNT GOING ANYWHERE 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾

Ari

2024-10-17 06:35:21 +0000 UTC

100% get it. Do what is best for you and your mental health. Toxic part of the community does make things super enjoyable. Like there is another reactor that I like and they finally checked out one of my favorite groups and then the people in the comments were being negative about the reactors assumptions or comments about the group and the reactor ended up removing the video. Smh like calm down.

Leslie Rich

2024-10-17 06:34:44 +0000 UTC

Ooh, another early gen fan, but I came in at EXO's "Wolf/Growl" era. Lol. I agree with everything you said, Myra.

Alexandria T

2024-10-17 06:33:46 +0000 UTC

i just want to say something simple and short; I love how honest you are because it can be challenging to admit to loosing interest in something you love. Even then, whether you make more content or less content, I’ll still be here to watch them through. Forever grateful for all the reactions you have given us.💗 (You definitely spoiled us😆)

sofixm

2024-10-17 06:33:28 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin, I've been a silent watcher for a while now. But I wanted to write something. Like everyone here I also just wanted to say: Do what's best for you! I believe most of us are here because of you and not only for your reactions. And I agree with the toxicity in KPOP. I startet 3 years ago and after a couple of months I already stoped reading headlines, stoped participating in the fandoms, etc. The world is already full of BS and I thought KPOP could be an outlet but it's not. The music and the groups, yeah. The fandom not so much. Especially in our time, People take advantage of the anonymity of the Internet and unload their own dissatisfaction with their lives onto strangers. If they were standing in front of you, honestly, they wouldn't be able to say a word. What I've learned over the years, is that you need a safe place of your own. It can be your room, it can be your favorite place or whatever. I just sat down, read a book or listened to music or a podcast. And I just took a breath. The most important thing in those situations is to put yourself first. It's easy to say, I know. And taking the first step to say: "Ok, stop. I need to change something", is hard. But as soon as you do that, it's just a matter of time until you start to feeling better. At least from my experience. Sometimes it already helps to read positive and nice things :) So yeah, if you still want to react to KPOP that's totally up to you and I'm in. But like you said, do it on your own terms. Or maybe try new things. Whatever you decide for yourself, I will definitly support you. It should not feel like work, because as soon a hobby becomes work, you just loose interest. Last thing I wanted to share is a quote my grandmother always said: "You can also build beautiful things out of stones that are placed in your path. If it's an annoying stone, just kick it ;)" Much love from Germany ❤️

Sinah Schulz

2024-10-17 06:19:51 +0000 UTC

Do what your heart tells you , don’t worry about anything else

Temami

2024-10-17 06:19:12 +0000 UTC

Thank you. I hope you can find it too

sirius

2024-10-17 06:17:13 +0000 UTC

Hi, been longtime YouTube watcher, honestly I became a fan of you because of your p1harmony reactions and been a Patreon every time I see any kind of p1harmony reaction. I understand where you’re coming from. And all I can is you have to prioritize your mental health first, your recent reactions I kinda feel that your losing interest because your reactions is different from your past content. I do hope you will find the strength to do things that make you happy and don’t let others affect you, you don’t owe them anything. Thank you for making laugh and for a time forget my depression, you have been a huge help and inspiration. Sending you all the love and prayers for whatever place you are right now. I guess it’s time to say goodbye. 🤗

MARCO LYNDON

2024-10-17 06:16:34 +0000 UTC

Hey Caitlin, just wanted to tell you, everything you're feeling is completely valid. Fandom spaces are incredibly toxic. And increasingly so, I think... Feeling the way you do is completely normal. I think the companies doing whatever definitely plays a factor. I went into K-pop in 2019 because of Loona. What BBC has done to them just left such a sour taste in my mouth and I was like... This is how idols are treated? A few months after Loona I started ulting NCT. I'd learn somewhere down the line that ncity...? Not the best neighbourhood to live in. And with the way SM is just doing shit, I got scared I was falling out of love with the group (not the music, never the music) until the day they decided to remove Sungtaro out of NCT. I think that day something really broke. I would always tune in for the music but I wasn't interested in the other aspects anymore and I got scared for whatever reason. Kpop is music and if you're in it just for the music it's not a bad thing! But people in fandom spaces make you believe that. And now, for 127, which is my favourite unit, I can't even fall down on the music atm because I can't even listen to them without having a breakdown 😭 The Seunghan situation also broke something further. Like. Literally how the hell did we let this happen? I'm not really sure where I'm going with this comment, I'm also bad at explaining lmao (I think you did fantastic), but all this to say all your reasons are completely valid. And you've been so strong. If we're here it's for you. We like you for who you are and I will personally still be there supporting you in whatever you choose to do. Please take care of yourself, get well soon 🙏🏾

MisguidedBliss

2024-10-17 06:15:03 +0000 UTC

Just wanted to add, I started following for your kpop reactions, but I stayed for all the other content you create. Most of us enjoy watching your reactions for you, and so do what makes you happy. The real will stay real 🫶

lightspoken

2024-10-17 06:05:01 +0000 UTC

Caitlin, thank you for being so open. I gravitated towards your content and YOU because, even if I don’t know you personally, I could feel/see the light in you. I don’t really have anything great to say. Just know that I see you, I hear you, it’s not okay right now but it will be. I’m a bit older than you, and from that perspective, I see a talented young woman with a kind empathetic heart. Good on you for creating boundaries and protecting your peace. I’m still learning that in my 30s lol Goodluck in school! (girl how are you doing all of that?)

Kando

2024-10-17 05:49:11 +0000 UTC

I’m a fairly new member/audience to you but I’m sending you …all the love! Take as much of a break as you need. I found you during a really…shitty time in my life (still going through it tbh) and you made me laugh SO MUCH. Omg, immediate fan of you 💯. But I would never want to add to your stress by telling you what you can and can’t react to. People can be so rude and forget that you’re human as well and have other things going on outside of your channel. I found you through Ateez and I love all your Ateez reactions so whether or not we get new ones or not…I can live with re-runs of the old reactions. ☺️ (Truly, I’m new to the K-pop world and I can barely keep up with this one I fell in love with- I applaud you for keeping up with so many…but I applaud you even more for setting boundaries now. It’s so important. 🤍🤍🤍 I LOVE BL’s and GL’s so I’m SO here for that if you open up that route 🥰 I’ll stay supporting you just because like I said ^ …I found you during a shitty time in my life and you make me laugh, so- you got yourself a fan here. 💜 Sending you so much love and support. Take care of yourself 😊🤍

Ciarra Ornelas

2024-10-17 05:46:51 +0000 UTC

Sorry if this is too long. I got into kpop around 2010 - 2011 until now. I admit that its not as fun as it used to be like during gen 1-2. Kpop sometimes sucks with all the voting and chart manipulation, the negative culture, bullying, living a normal human life is a crime, judging one sided, fandom getting toxic, people keep comparing whose the best, whose the legend, whose no. 1, must include this and that idol in the list of the best vocalist / dancer, who did that first, whose the trendsetter, and list goes on. People not enjoying the music anymore like they used to be during gen 1-2. But maybe bcus I like my favourite group music and talent so much & I also watch other groups variety content and music, I enjoy that moment without thinking much as my life already sucks enough. Its the way I escape from reality, idc if people wanna say I keep talking about kpop all the time, always post about kpop or whatever idc anymore. Cuz I just wanna enjoy it, like fvck off people, this is me and I'm being myself and I like it fvck off if you don't like it. I'm not good on giving advices, but what I can say make sure you prioritize yourself, balance life and doing reacting content, don't let your reacting content > you, enjoy music in general, people opinions are not important, its all about you, be yourself, take care on your physical and mental health, rest enough, eat on time, spend your life while we are young doing things you totally enjoy without even 0.00001% negativity, if you need to break just take a break cuz the most important its not other people or the content you posted or the opinion on kpop music that you let out BUT YOU. You important. You're stronger than I know, don't force things out cuz they don't pay for your food or therapy if anything happened to you. As EXO D.O said, take care of your health, make sure eat, and always smile. Thats what makes you beautiful and gorgeous qween! XOXO, love from Myra ♡

creamsodamyra

2024-10-17 05:43:09 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin, long time Youtube audience and a recent patron here, just want to say that I'm glad I decided to come here before questioning why you haven't post as much on YT. I fully understand your reasoning, I think we all are. And with me being a kpop stan for 10+ years now, I know how toxic the kpop scene can be, especially when you're this involved among fanbases and follow most industry updates. I've been on and off kpop for years as a multistan (lost friends due to this it's so funny I can't even pretend to care), and now mostly don't keep up with new releases except the ones I'm really interested in and very few groups that I love to death. I'm in it for the music and the warmth/life lesson some idols give me as I grew along with them. I really hope you know that many love you for you, and I know it's hard but you should start to not care about the opinion of people who only want you to give positive reaction to their faves. I understand your concern of people leaving, but really numbers don't worth it if you suffer from it. Do whatever you feel you need to do, there's nothing more important than yourself. Listen and watch what you want, consume contents that make you feel good about life, and it's really up to you which ones you want to share with us.

talita

2024-10-17 05:40:18 +0000 UTC

id honestly be fine watching you react to anything whether its kpop movies kdramas or western artists

amelia

2024-10-17 05:34:09 +0000 UTC

DANIEL 😭😭😭😭 everything you just said is how I’ve been feeling for years wow! I truly appreciate you and look up to you! Thank you so much for being true to yourself always. I needed to hear your words! I’ll definitely take em to heart 🥹🫶🏽💕

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 05:34:02 +0000 UTC

It's so true that why i used to watch variety shows to keep out of the idols world running man sometimes helps you forget your sadness or even your emotional about something Also i believe that when tvxq broke up I fallen out of kpop for 3 years and came back when btob and vixx debuted also whenever I want to leave kpop I try find a new series of show but I keep going to supernatural that why feel so much better every time I leave kpop but some how I keep getting pulled back i don't know why

lima

2024-10-17 05:30:13 +0000 UTC

You should absolutely do whatever you need to for your hobby and job to be enjoyable again. I'm new to kpop, only getting into it this year. I found Stray Kids first in what were some of the worst months of my life, mental health wise, so for maybe 6 months, SKZ content was the only thing I would watch. I found your channel in that time, too, since I love seeing people react to my favorite things. After I finally got some help (medication) and my other interests and hobbies came back to me, I kept the few favorite groups I found and wanted a way to keep up with kpop a little bit, without it taking over my YouTube, so I looked for reactors I wanted to keep following. You were the first one I followed, and the first reactor I ever subscribed to on Patreon. I recently just started watching your movie reactions, and they've been so much fun! I love to hear your opinions and insight, with both movies and music, and love how expressive and honest you are. I think variety, and putting your enjoyment and mental health first, can only be a positive change.

MorbidSimplicity

2024-10-17 05:28:08 +0000 UTC

Caitlin it’s all right! Do what’s best for you and your mental health. Tbh I get that feeling of wanting to leave the KPOP community cuz of how toxic it has been. I have been a kpop fan since 2009. And I have to say the things that I have seen and heard about this community makes me question staying. But with what ever decision you choose I will support you! And thank you so much for your awesome content on Patreon and on YouTube! ❤️❤️

caratwooshi

2024-10-17 05:27:29 +0000 UTC

Hey Caitlin, just want to start off by saying, you're one of the most genuine, interesting, funniest reactors out there and that I could never do what you do, you're pretty amazing to me! I'm so sorry you've been feeling this way - I can understand how it feels to fall out of love with something that used to fun and enjoyable. Its scary at first but on the other hand, thats also just the nature of things: as your progress along in a journey, your feelings are bound to change as well. The rate at which Kpop releases music/content is really mind boggling and it is completely unrealistic to expect anyone to keep up with everything. I highly doubt those people commenting for you to react to this and that even keep up with everything themselves so to demand that you do is ridiculous. When i was going through something similar, I took a complete break from what was bothering me and got pretty ruthless with doing things I found fun. It was literally me asking myself all the time, does this sound fun to me? If it wasn't a hard yes, I wouldn't do it. It may sound a bit extreme but it got me back on track in terms of listening to my inner voice and protecting my boundaries. And honestly, I did lose some people along the way, but in hindsight, it didn't matter that much. I hope you do what is best for you and take the time to water and nourish yourself. My best friend always tells me when I start getting worried others at the expense of myself: You can't pour from an empty cup! Sending you love <3

Regine S.

2024-10-17 05:25:11 +0000 UTC

Caitlin you can absolutely put yourself first! Do whatever it is you need to do, I've been watching you for a couple years now and will support whichever direction you go in! Struggling with my own mental issues and how that relates to kpop it completely makes sense to take a step back. I don't blame you for feeling different about it, it has definitely become a more toxic place to reside in when you just want to be a fan and chill. It's even why personally after one of my ults come back in November I will be leaving my stantwt. Again no worries about whichever direction you go in, your boundaries, mental health and well being is the #1 priority. I do want to say I'm sorry that it felt as if the community you've created on here hasn't been a safe space, but for some of us I do think you've created a wonderful experience for others. But I'm sorry it stopped being like that for you, I truly hope you can pursue happiness in other places. Anyways, not sure this is all that cohesive. But I hope the geniune support gets through to you 🩷

bee

2024-10-17 05:24:55 +0000 UTC

WOW beautiful words 😭😭 thank you! I’ll try my best to do that moving forward.

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 05:24:46 +0000 UTC

Kat wow thank you so much 🥹 you’ve been waiting for 2 and half years!? Omg!? That’s crazy! Thank you so much for sticking with my craziness haha I’ll do my best to keep my head up and to keep pushing forward! Thank you for giving me encouragement and strength! 💕🫶🏽

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 05:24:11 +0000 UTC

This is why I don't really participate in fandoms, even if I'm part of them "spiritually". Keeps me from being too gaslit by the chaos since I have a terrible weakness with such events (EXO's history was enough for me, really) , even if I read about it online from "kpop news sites". I'd imagine it's worse for a content creator because you do talk to more people and all. I know I've said this before, but you should take a break if you need to. Nobody will judge you. You do a lot. Always have done a lot. It wouldn't be selfish to focus on yourself and your priorities beyond content creation. Anime reactions sound fun, too (I was into anime before kpop, and then a kpop idol - BoA - got me into kpop from an anime ending song from Inuyasha's anime), but again, like your other content, just be mindful of your health and other things in your life to avoid burning out again, Caitlin. This year has just been really bad with stuff outside of our control.

Alexandria T

2024-10-17 05:20:50 +0000 UTC

I have known kpop since 06 so I really know you mean I've fallen in and out kpop so many times that why I found comfort in kdrama and jdrama not to mention supernatural I still keep rewatching it supernatural is a good comfort show anyway what i need you to know to kpop is love and hate relationship sometimes you want so bad and sometimes you don't want it anymore that I suggest : find something you never get board of a hobby , comfort show , or try to discover something new , side i did fall out of kpop so many times that's why I don't request anything anymore

lima

2024-10-17 05:20:28 +0000 UTC

i totally get you and agree, the whole industry and the entire fan culture is so tiring and after a while it really does make you not even want to interact with kpop at all. take all the time you need and do what you need to do and what'll make you happy because ultimately all of this is for you!! this isn't for anybody else, this was supposed to be fun for you and a way for you to share with us so i personally would love to see you expand beyond kpop even if that means not posting as much kpop content. no matter what you end up doing i think cultivating that space of safety and fun and community for yourself is the priority so that's what you should do no matter where it takes your content because the people who are meant to stick with you will <33 and also i think your hair looks really cute!

clo

2024-10-17 05:19:08 +0000 UTC

Hi Caitlin, I just wanna tell you that you are so extremely strong.. especially with everything you are going through and yes sadly the Kpop Community is highly toxic, but I've been in the Kpop industry for about 10 years now, and I feel like I've gotten used to it, but I've seen it getting worse and worse and it scares me. So I completely understand how you feel, I just wished People Stopped hating on the smallest things like it's not necessary what benefit are you getting from that? I'm so sorry Caitlin that you had to go through this, you are one of the only reactors that I still watch because I genuinely love your videos they're so fun to watch and I'm always curious about your thoughts.. I really hope things get better and in whatever path you take I'll support you no matter what.. I love you Caitlin so much, and I'll continue to support you! 🩷

Grace Park

2024-10-17 05:14:51 +0000 UTC

Cait, i follow you since almost the beginning,you are amazing i love your reactions but you also have to have fun, is difficult but choose the best for you, recently i'm spending more time here than YouTube because i love movie and drama reactions and with kpop i prioritize the reactions to my favs because is normal so try to do the same, step by step. Take care and thank you for your hard work always🫶🏻

Naty

2024-10-17 05:14:42 +0000 UTC

I completely understand and I'm sorry for everything you've been through! KPOP is always crazy, new stuff is dropping every minute and it's impossible to keep up, people commenting and demanding you to react to stuff literally minutes after it's been dropped is always wild. I sometimes don't even want to look at the comment section because it's just constant displeasure and disappointment because we didn't react to something else. Comments about our physical appearance that no one fucking asked for lol. It's always "Well you signed up for it" No we fucking didn't, we enjoy K-pop and want to express that joy to other people, not much else. Being able to extend that love to something that brings us financial stability with Patreon is amazing and it still shocks me that I can do this. Still, it doesn't change the fact that without loving or being passionate about this type of content, the reactions wouldn't be the same. The toxic nature of KPOP and what is happening with idols getting crucified for the dumbest and most far-fetched reasons is another aspect that makes this whole thing even more insane, the RIIZE stuff was truly some of the most disgusting shit I've seen in the Music Industry. Please take all the time you need, saying "don't pay attention to the negativity" is probably the most meaningless thing I can say, because, in reality, it's nearly impossible (And I can't do it myself either), so just take a break and do whatever you need to do to be happy. I'll support you and this Patreon regardless!

Daniel Goland

2024-10-17 05:09:11 +0000 UTC

Just do whatever makes you happy, seriously. I found your channel and Patreon through kpop but I, and most people, chose to stay because of your personality. So no matter what you choose to do in the future, what you react to or how often you post. We’re still gonna be here As someone who also struggles with anxiety, I can’t imagine dealing with even half of the stuff that you’ve had to put up with. You’re truly so strong. So take a break, slow down, do whatever you need to do. Just enjoy yourself. It’s your life, live it on your terms. 🫶

Imogine

2024-10-17 05:08:21 +0000 UTC

Love you Kevin! Haha and oh really!? I’ll definitely keep that in account when going through them if it helps him avoid having to catch up 😭

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 05:07:38 +0000 UTC

no but actually same, i got into kpop at the same time as you did, and i've been sort of feeling the same way for the past like year or so. It is so sad bc i still love the music and everything, but especially this year kpop fandoms and companies have been super toxic and its been getting more and more difficult to ignor. Take any time u need or make as many changes as u find necessary with your content, and lets just hope that kpop can become more of a positive and fun environment in the future (for fans and for artist) Love u girl, stay safe and have a great day !! 🫶💓

blurrybini

2024-10-17 05:06:54 +0000 UTC

Get better soon Caitlin. Rest up and focus on what brings you joy first. I've been into Kpop since 2nd Gen and fandom wars have gotten so bad overtime that I've become a casual Kpop fan now.

Nancy Lo

2024-10-17 05:06:50 +0000 UTC

Best advice! Thank you so much! I will take it to heart! Truly just trying to do my best every day 🫶🏽💕

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 05:06:19 +0000 UTC

i definitely understand where you’re coming from. I have felt the same way this past year as well. all i can say is you do what is best for you and don’t let anyone make you feel bad about it. at all. i know that there will be a lot of people, including myself, that will continue to support you 🫶🏾

azaria

2024-10-17 05:05:35 +0000 UTC

Ngl I almost cried reading your comment 😭 haha Thank you so much! Means the world truly! I’m trying to rest better and set boundaries so I don’t keep burning out. It’s been such a learning curve.

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 05:05:13 +0000 UTC

I don’t blame you! Glad you could still find something you could enjoy!

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 05:03:57 +0000 UTC

Caitlin you have done the best you can, I definitely view this community(especially the twitch community) as a safe space. I love love love watching your videos it always makes my day and I am in every single twitch stream. Your personality is amazing and I 100% support your decision. Everything that has been going on this year within the kpop industry has been very toxic and its just been too much. Looking forwarding to your next uploads up here. We love you!!

Kiylak

2024-10-17 05:03:45 +0000 UTC

You do you girl! I started tuning in because of the kpop reaction but after watching so many of your reaction I just see that you are such a beacon of light. So to me all that matters is that you find and do the things that keep that light shining even if that means taking a break. Whatever you do girly you have my support!

lali A

2024-10-17 05:03:30 +0000 UTC

You're not obligated to do anything you don't want to. Find your peace and don't let it go. If that means letting go of the kpop reactions, so be it. Your happiness is paramount.

Michele Wang

2024-10-17 05:03:21 +0000 UTC

Yo thank you so much Alex! 🥹💕 means the world! Thank you so much for your love and support!

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 05:03:14 +0000 UTC

i don't have any advice lol but i just wanted to come on here and tell you how much i love and appreciate your reactions!! you're the first person i look for when kpop mvs come out bc i just LOVE the way you react to music and i love your opinions all the time! i've been watching you for probably around 2-2½ years now and i've never ONCE thought you had a "bad" reaction to anything. it sucks that the youtube community makes you feel so stressed about posting to the point that you don't even wanna be there anymore :( i will always support you here on patreon though, and i'm never fussy about what you post, whether it's kpop or movies or dramas, i literally just love watching YOU. so whatever you decide to upload for content, just know that i and likely so many others are willing to watch. again, i'm so sorry you feel so bad these days. i wish i could help :( it might not be good advice, but keep your head up and just DO YOU and we'll all support you anyway :) lots of love all the way from new zealand!! 🩷

kat 💛

2024-10-17 05:02:46 +0000 UTC

Hi caity I have been a silent watcher for a while now. I just wanted to say I'm excited for your new journey regarding your channels I hope you take the time you need girl ❤️‍🔥(and l really do love your hair it's really pretty💘)

Viwe Siyali

2024-10-17 05:01:00 +0000 UTC

It's okay don't worry it happens

lima

2024-10-17 04:59:55 +0000 UTC

You gotta put yourself first always, I'm so sorry something that was supposed to be a safe place was turned so toxic. I came to your channel because I loved your reactions, they mirrored mine and it was fun. Thank you for making content! I'm excited for the future and I really hope everything works out for you! From someone you have helped bring a lot of joy too, thank you!

Alex

2024-10-17 04:58:58 +0000 UTC

Kpop is so toxic

sirius

2024-10-17 04:57:06 +0000 UTC

Actually, I don't really care for kpop now. I only listen to my favorite kpop groups and soloists. I'm into k-rock, k-bands more

sirius

2024-10-17 04:56:23 +0000 UTC

Hi caitlin! Stick to your core, reflect on whether this is still what you love... Also, I've learned that setting some healthy boundaries can be helpful in avoiding burnout and toxicity. Just letting you know that I have appreciated the space that you created years ago, and know that we got you here! Remember, there are people who will continue to support you!! So take a break and rest.. whenever you get back, stronger and better, we shall wait for you always <3

crmsvc

2024-10-17 04:55:23 +0000 UTC

If i can suggest, Jeff usually watches 2 episodes per post. I dont know if that helps you better to avoid catching up but yeah i just wanted to suggest it.

Kevin Austria

2024-10-17 04:54:49 +0000 UTC

Caitlin! Do what is best for you! Ik people will people will be sad about your choice whatever your gonna chose but in the end it’s YOU and do what best for YOU. Take a break, go on vacation, ETC. I took a break from kpop for a year and I’m slowly trying to comeback but it’s hard and I get it cause what’s happening in kpop rn. Do what makes YOU happy. Luv ya girl and take care of yourself! ❤️🌸💗💛

Tyler

2024-10-17 04:51:16 +0000 UTC

UHMMM BL’s??? Heck yeahhh. I watch it on RJ’s patreon and its been so fun.

Kevin Austria

2024-10-17 04:51:03 +0000 UTC

Uploading many videos to please others can be very stressful for sure, especially when some are still left unsatisfied in the end. My advice is to just do what you want. As people grow, they sometimes just lose interest in their favorite things. You’ve been doing the channel and Patreon for so long now so it’s understandable that you feel this way. Take your time thinking about what’s best for your mental health, much love Caitlin 🤍

yami

2024-10-17 04:50:52 +0000 UTC

I deal with mental health issues myself and I was part of a K-pop dance group but ended up quitting because it got toxic and I couldn't handle it and it was making me lose my interest in my groups. So I stepped away and listened to kpop my favs by myself and they help me with my mental health regards the fan base honest don't really talk to other atinys or stay very often but I am in groups for older fans so I am 21 plus that are not toxic and are against that so that helps me stay away from that. But I agree stay off YouTube and Twitter which is where they are the most poisonous and enjoy your music on your own for a while till you can get yourself mentally stable. Your health is more important. Even idols need to take a break from the haters too so do what you need to do and surround yourself with people that enjoy as you do without judgment.

Chelsie Santos

2024-10-17 04:50:39 +0000 UTC

Did I come across you via kpop, yes but girl you done got me watching kdramas and movies and a whole bunch that I would have never gotten into if not for you and that's cause I've just enjoyed your personality. As a fellow anxiety, perfectionist, people pleaser I commend you for being able to do as much as you did for as long as you did but I commend you even more for saying nahhh this ain't it anymore. Protect you first. I hope I can speak for most when I say we gonna still be on this road with you in whatever you decide to do!

Jazzy

2024-10-17 04:50:32 +0000 UTC

I definitely agree with you on this. I have been a kpop stan since 2013 and i stopped exploring kpop content and sorta lost the passion for it in 2020 until Riize debuted.... i legit went back into my teenager fangirl.. and now we all know what happened. I too will stop being a stan, especially a briize. I'm sick n tired and I'm just a normal stan so I could only imagine how tough it is to be a reactor! You definitely deserve a break, the industry sucks.

Sara

2024-10-17 04:48:34 +0000 UTC

And yeah i love the movie reactions and i enjoy it a lot more. If people leave, let them. The real ones will stay with you and that’s what’s important.

Kevin Austria

2024-10-17 04:48:15 +0000 UTC

hey caity!! it sounds like you’ve put a lot of thought into this, and im glad tht u felt comfortable enough to tell us how you feel. Ik it must not have been easy to come to this decision, especially after being in the kpop and entertainment space for so long. I really respect your transparency and your willingness to open up about it. As for your plans moving forward, I think it’s great that you’re taking the time to figure out what’s best for you. If you’re not passionate about creating the same type of content anymore, it’s completely understandable tht u want to shift your focus or change direction. your well-being and enthusiasm should come first, and I’m sure your true supporters will respect that and stick with you no matter what. I’ll definitely check out the other contents you want to dip into because I love animes, bls, and gls just as much as i love kpop, so im here for whatever. I look forward to hearing more about your future plans! IMMA STILL BE A BUBBLE NO MATTER WHT 🫶🏽🫶🏽

des

2024-10-17 04:46:51 +0000 UTC

Don’t worry bestie. We will always be here for you. Same thing for me, kpop is not it at the moment it is draining me mentally. I have been listening to Ariana and Sabrina more just to cope up with it. We love you!

Kevin Austria

2024-10-17 04:46:24 +0000 UTC

I don’t think you failed in making a safe space. Things have just gotten increasingly toxic in the last year and especially since COVID. I don’t get why people think it’s okay to treat others the way they do online, both YouTubers and Idols. I really only had one group but was testing the waters to see if I should explore others but the kpop space is kind of terrifying. It’s exhausting and depressing. Do what you need to do.

Monique Anderson

2024-10-17 04:45:06 +0000 UTC

Take a break beautiful you deserve it after how hard you worked for making your content enjoyable and entertaining for your viewers. I can tell it’s burning you out in a way. Kpop has indeed been very toxic and it truly sucks even though I still love listening to my fave groups, but it’s hard to watch other contents you know. Anyways do what you gotta do and don’t let anyone or anything get in the way of your mental health and spirit. Just know you’re truly amazing Caitlin I’ll always be one of your bubbles. Much love always 💙

Angie

2024-10-17 04:42:47 +0000 UTC

Caitlin that's okay, do what best for you i personally will always support whatever paths you choose to go to. NGL, i've been a fans of kpop since 2013 and yea sometimes i'm sick of the bad things in this industry. So girll that's okay to fall out, love you girl!💖 thank your for making watching kpop reaction so fun 🔥🫶🏻

NINI PEACHES

2024-10-17 04:41:34 +0000 UTC

That’s a good question LMAO as of now no I don’t think so. I’ve always wanted to write music more than perform it. So being behind the scenes doesn’t bother me. I always said if I did want to go the artist route that I would do it independently. No record label. It’s much harder that way, but this is truly the only way you keep yourself sane and still have the rights to your music.

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 04:40:22 +0000 UTC

Thank you Emily 🥹 I’m trying haha 💕

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 04:37:43 +0000 UTC

I don't blame you at all. With all the stuff going on in kpop right now, it definitely making it harder to support :/ You do what makes you happy!

Babs

2024-10-17 04:36:29 +0000 UTC

Liz i appreciate you! I 100% agree with you. I gotta work on managing myself and knowing when to take a break. Thank you so much for your encouragement. I’m trying to actually do what makes me happy for the first time in a while and it’s scary haha 🫶🏽

Caitlin Benson

2024-10-17 04:36:22 +0000 UTC

Absolutely do what you need to! Does this impact your future career once you're done with school?

Cory Tripp

2024-10-17 04:34:20 +0000 UTC

life is short. just do what you want. ❤

Emily Meng

2024-10-17 04:34:11 +0000 UTC

I know you’re not asking for advice and It’s definitely not my place! but I do believe you should take a break for yourself and enjoy it. I feel like you work so hard to push content and these reactions and that can definitely feel like burn out . Sometimes when we turn our hobbies into work it becomes more stressful to just enjoy it for love (I started a crochet business and now I can’t even lift up a hook) but all im saying is! you deserve a break and you deserve to do what makes you happy! You won’t lose support for doing what makes you happy<3

liz

2024-10-17 04:32:59 +0000 UTC