Caught Short WIP 5 , and some complaining about my life

Firstly, Sorry for the disappearing for a week thing. You should probably get used to reading that apology because I will most likely be saying it a lot more than I already have.

I am increasingly aware of how much I'm overreaching with this project. It's one thing to make some little animated fucking loops with simple little characters; doing a lot of motion, different poses, keeping things interesting, well that is a whole other thing. What you are seeing in the culmination of about 4 days of work, no joke. This is me going hard too, I think I'm quite speedy at this, I've come up with more tricks to save time but as you improve so do your standards. I need every little head swing to have some frames of hair bouncing , each posture change must have the boobies wobble, it's subtle and you probably wouldn't notice it but when it's missing the animation just looks unacceptably stiff and I want this to be GOOD. I think I'm maybe 30% finished with the whole thing at the moment and that is a horrifying realisation.

Animation is damn hard

And about my life. I need help. I am rapidly becoming too mentally ill to do anything at all. It's been bad for years now, I thought things would slowly improve on there own once life was comfortable but I am just becoming more and more useless. You know, I used to be able to go into shops and stuff, I haven't been inside a shop in a year. I can't do it. I went to the doctors for get myself referred to mental health services and I couldn't survive waiting 20 minutes in the waiting room, I had to run away crying and panicking, this was with TechBoy escorting me too. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like I'm running out of time and I'm already out of ideas on how to get better. It's scary.

The visit to the Doctors is why there's no videos from me this week, I took one video off before it to save up some will and now I feel so bad for failing to see the Doctor that I can't bring myself to do one for tomorrow... Well, that and I am really ill too, I got a bad cold or something

Anyway... I LOVE YOU XOXO