Weekly post 1!

As I said a few days ago, here is my blog post! or something like that

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so as not to get lost in all this I will separate everything into titles for those who do not want to read all my yapping.

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My learning process in drawing ----

Drawing is extremely complicated. I decided to learn to draw at the end of last year or so, and honestly, I find it very hard. For many reasons, I never considered myself “creative,” so getting ideas on paper is torture for me, let alone the process of learning to draw.

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The journey doesn't make any sense; there are days that I feel like I did a very good drawing, and then the next day I feel like I'm getting worse in another aspect of drawing.

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Drawing and having to learn a lot of things like anatomy, perspective, hands, legs, color, shadows, and lights, among other things In the end, I feel like I'm not good at anything in general. It's pretty hard because at no time do I feel like I know what I'm doing. 
I don't have much time to draw, so I try to at least draw one or two hours a day if possible.
It's also complicated by the feeling that the drawings you do end up being bad or mediocre in comparison to the others.

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I know that the good thing is not to compare yourself with other people, but to a certain point, it is impossible for me, so in the end, I end up uploading a drawing that I like, and the next day I delete it because it doesn't seem to be a good drawing anymore.
This is something I am currently working on fixing, saying that no matter how bad I think a drawing is, I will not delete it, etc.

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Honestly, most frustration comes from wanting to find a steady income to help the family, among other things.
which makes everything feel like a race against the clock against an invisible time limit, mostly comes from the fear of feeling like I'm useless for not being able to contribute anything to my family or even to myself.
That's where most of the frustration comes from when I upload a drawing that I think is good and don't get a like anywhere.

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To change the rhythm and not to make it all feel super depressing, I also want to clarify that I have in mind that I am being a little unfair with myself more than anything because I am aware that I just started drawing about 5 months ago. If I'm not mistaken, the first drawing I did was in October of the previous year.

First drawing I made when I started drawing by watching a tutorial on youtube of a Korean guy.
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Also, even though I started learning to draw as an investment in the future hoping to get some economic return, I have to admit that I am enjoying it more than I expected. Leaving aside the pain in the ass of not being able to make a straight line for 50 attempts, finishing a drawing is quite satisfying.
and of course I also recently started practicing to draw NSFW.

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Recently, in an episode of Wild Life, I used an old lady skin in a video because I wanted to use some frames from the video for reference on how to draw a similar character.
I saw a similar drawing some time ago, and I wanted to make a kind of fanart to practice drawing NSFW too.

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At the moment, this is what I could do.

It's not finished yet, I still need to add the shadows and lights, plus I plan to draw in the blank space on the right a couple more drawings of the same characters performing body satisfaction maneuvers.

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or at least I'm going to try with my current level of drawing.

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I had planned to write more stuff, but I've dragged it all out, so I'll leave this week's blog up to here!
Next week, if I finish the drawing, I will show it to all of you!
Maybe also if anyone is curious and asks me to show you all the drawings I did in a post so you can see how I've been progressing since I started. although I warn everyone that they are terrible.

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Thank you very much for reading!