New pages!
Added 2026-01-31 11:56:48 +0000 UTC9 pages!!! Well... 8,75 -
READ 'EM
For a better impact on the first page, it’s probably best to reread a few pages from the previous update!
The “I thought he was going to devour me too... But the next morning, I was still alive” really reinforces the idea that the boy still had a child’s mindset at that time, convinced the monster would swallow him too. I really love that!
God, these pages tortured my brain-
I already showed so much in the previous ones, I couldn’t repeat anything. Not in the text, not in the visuals. And the text especially got rewritten so many times! At first there was a lot of it, then I cut it down drastically. I really hope it still feels natural...
On top of that, I had to be super careful with the nuance of what the boy says. Every single word mattered. It was rough.
But I wanted to cut the drama a bit short. Chapter 16 was already pretty dark, it needed some lightness!
The Sims idea is actually really, really old haha! I just never took the time to include it. I kept wondering what I could show without getting into legal trouble, but then I realized that if I couldn’t show the plumbob, there was no point showing anything at all. I think it works better this way anyway!
Also, I’m kinda wondering if anyone has recreated these characters in the Sims gallery?? That would be so funny!
I’m not totally happy with the shot choices on these pages. I knew I wanted the boys physically close, something naturally intimate, the boy curled up against Tera because he’s excited to share his game and just feels comfortable. At first he was supposed to be leaning against Tera from the very start of the scene, but then I thought showing him transition from one pose to another and snuggle closer would make a difference. It adds intention to the movement. Am I crazy for thinking about it-
I still need to find a word for that duality I’m always talking about, between interactions that feel “organic” and expressive, and ones that feel more factual or just visually functional haha. And here I feel like it often falls into the second category ;_; something’s missing, but it’s always hard to say what exactly (would be too easy!) It’s a tiny nuance. I think I’ll make a post just to explain what I mean lol.
But that’s just me being picky. I know most people would already like it! I hope you do-
Also, I don’t love the repeated layout on the last three pages. Small panels around one bigger pose of them together, mostly because I always enjoy drawing that kind of pose so I want to show it... but something else probably would’ve been more effective!
Well, I’m tough on my own work here lmao-
Hope you liked the pages!
I need to make another chit-chat post btw, I really need your thoughts!!
Kisses 💛
Comments
I love that we keep getting to see Tera’s eyes — he’s opening up more and more to the boy
Mary Beh
2026-02-12 06:53:07 +0000 UTCBahaha did the boy make them in the Sims and then rizz up Tera in game 🤣
𐐪𓂃 haven
2026-02-11 00:54:01 +0000 UTCIs it me or when he said “you’re dead you’re a ghost now” I kinda got scared like that’s foreshadowing
The Movie Buff
2026-02-03 11:53:50 +0000 UTCThis is very intimate and Tera isn’t complaining
The Movie Buff
2026-02-03 11:52:22 +0000 UTCI love how they are so comfortable with each other’s presence and touch by now dlwnsiwjw~ You portrayed it really well! 🧡
Vanessa Noga
2026-02-03 06:34:33 +0000 UTCOh my goddddddd Tera is so hoooooot
Julie
2026-02-02 17:21:06 +0000 UTCWELL 🤣
Z-Pico
2026-02-02 11:11:48 +0000 UTCHI PICO! I FOUND IT! i don't know if you read It, anyway, cap 11 im 20 "i dropped out of school when i was 16". We have Tera age. Kiss kiss💙
Elanor
2026-02-02 11:10:38 +0000 UTCI agree with you! But for now let's enjoy this sweetness and lightheartedness, they deserve it. I finally received the invitation from AO3 (yay) as soon as I have two minutes I'll search you😅🥲
Elanor
2026-02-01 19:37:51 +0000 UTCThis feels like such a natural progression to their relationship. Trust has been built over time and it’s so sweet to see their little touches. The boy crawling into Tera’s lap is adorable. I can’t imagine someone like Tera has had many intimate interactions like this. Seems like the only skin ship he has revived is fighting or tender dates. I would love to see what is going on in both of their heads. I also adore that these two are finding companionship in each other. They are both so lonely even surrounded by so many people. I’m scared that this is the calm before the storm. I keep feeling like Black Death is going to find out that Tera is soft on this boy and blame him for Tera’s recent empathy. I’m biting my nails thinking about him getting hurt and Tera having to flip the whole city upside down to save him. Maybe I’m way off? I’m not good with reading into these things but boy is it sure fun! A beautiful delivery as alway, Z. Look forward to the next one. P.S. I have literally been sending this to people who aren’t into BL’s and explaining that it’s save for work and such a beautiful story with incredible art. Stay healthy!
Lee-Chan-Tae
2026-02-01 19:13:44 +0000 UTCYo Mellow, you're back, I was getting worried when I didn't see you in the last few posts. I'm pretty sure Tera had nothing to do with the fire because it happened long before he joined the black death (Jo says he and his brother left home 6 years ago while the fire happened 9 years ago). And rereading everything I think I understand why Tera looks at the photo. In the chapter 11 im 40/49 when the boy tells his past at Tera there IS the photo but it's face down, while now it's standing up.
Elanor
2026-02-01 10:52:32 +0000 UTC(SORRY, this will be one long rant… again ^^’ ) Usually, the updates leave me a little “worried” for them. Anxious, about what will happen next, since – in some way – it is a constant downward spiral, because of Tera’s actions. Doing so much bad, just to make a change for the better. That’s an old story, almost a general law of nature. (The nature of Tera’s situation, his circumstances and the very limited options he has, entangled in deeds done as he is). He is cloaked in a lot of darkness himself. (Probably even more than the current obvious). This updated left me … calmer. It’s good to see them together like that, and one of those rare moments, where it is just laughter and innocent fun. Like when Tera was chasing the Boy, splatting water from the rain all over the place. Innocent fun. Usually, Tera is very… considerate and cautious when it comes to the Boy – may it be in good humor (commenting about the Boy’s exposed belly or making him sit in front of him on the motorbike) or actually out of worry (grabbing him while the Boy was running in the streets, asking for help, after Tom got shot by Teras gun which the Boy dropped after “bumping” his bicycle into Muta, or checking his palms after throwing the Boy across the rooftops while being chased by Muta’s thugs) or even going to the length of getting glowing paint to place the light of stars into said palms as stronghold against the darkness. When Tera did reach out to the Boy, it was either out of that worry in the face of a very real danger – or it was a subconscious impulse – like at Starcups, when Tera was reaching for him while on his way to get his special order, using the keycard… “anything with cash in it” (ch. 14, pg.36/43). In this chapter – it’s clear something has changed. Weeks seem like “a very long time ago” and – this time - when Tera was showing up at the Boy’s window, like he always did – the Boy actually voiced his worry. Enough so, that he even lost sleep over it. This time, it was the Boy worried about Tera’s safety. No joking. No brushing it off. No… qualifying that statement. That was what made Tera bow down (not just physically) and utter the words he might even extend to more than just the Boy’s worry. “I’m sorry”. Tera also got physical again, adamant to try and stop the Boy from panicking about his current health condition, aka bullet hole and soaking his shirt with blood. While Tera is thinking about how a drink the Boy would like might taste (“Knew it. That’s so you.”, Ch. 14, pg. 39/43) – the Boy is thinking about a world – a home – with the three of them… even if the big bully “accidentally” drowned in a pool. He even asks Tera if he liked the virtual place the Boy made for them! (And Tera does answer, without complaints!). The Boy was alone on his birthday, no classmates throwing a surprise party or blowing up his phone – Jo was texting, even though it wasn’t about the Boy’s birthday. Tera was the only one showing up for that purpose. (Well, that, and because he doesn’t like Jo dragging the Boy down the drain in his shady half-cooked schemes). So, not really a surprise that the Boy chose them to live with in the virtual world. He was very, VERY quick to call Jo “a friend” and even told his parents and brother about “his new friend”. This whole chapter has been about them becoming closer, Tera, finally no longer being attacked when showing up, and the Boy confiding into someone else, beside Lee. And never once did this progress feel rushed or forced or… out of character. As much as I love the light moments between them, the laughter; - the darkness and grain of reality by that very real and always present threat looming and casting its shadow is a must for me to fully enjoy the story, too. You can’t make that disappear, just to give them a moment. And I am thankful, that this is always there. After all, it is part of both of their worlds. Even when they merge. On a lighter note: they also seem to reach a new level of understanding… this simultaneous head tilt while watching the game characters going at it… (I scared the shit out of the cat, bursting into laughter without a warning, ch. 16, pg. 42/43) or the Boy’s statement “don’t give me that look” – I mean… talking like that to a solid mask… that only happens when you’re well connected! Tera doesn’t even mind that his character is obviously flirting with the Boy’s. I think, that mere fact is remarkable. It’s not even a topic of its own. It would be embarrassing for the Boy, either way. Because of the fact. Not labels or any social or political adherence. And that’s another aspect I adore and love about the whole story. It just is what it is. There is enough trouble in store for them. This doesn’t seem to be one. And that’s a huge achievement! With all the pain and hurt for the both of them… I wonder who was Tera saving there, by turning on the light. Just preventing the Boy from going deeper down that dark rabbit hole of memories, fear and terror… or also sparing himself, since – even if he may or may not have had a hand in that particular fire – he had a hand in the many since. After all, his latest killing spree was meant to prevent another very similar tragedy from happening for Laurent and his family. I guess, turning on the light at that very moment spared the both of them. I still think Tera is by far more entangled than it is currently obvious. Looking at the Boy’s photo of him and his brother… it might be a familiar face to Tera. And who knows, what else might surface and raise its ugly head out of the darkness of the Boy’s memories of that particular night. They didn’t call his survival of that night a miracle for no reason… and how often does that happen, a miracle?! Yeah, my thoughts exactly.
Mellowcat
2026-02-01 10:07:48 +0000 UTCI love how comfortable and close they get with each other, I can't wait for them to build the relationship even further and for Tera to trust the boy so much that he reveals his face to him, sjdbjs. Also those random moments in Sims 4 are so real. 😭
Xicxv
2026-02-01 10:05:48 +0000 UTCI have been waiting for this intimacy!!!! I love you for blessing us!!!!
svdester
2026-02-01 05:48:33 +0000 UTCI love the size difference between them
The Movie Buff
2026-02-01 02:24:05 +0000 UTC
