Amazing Xmen and stress

Reading two different eras of Amazing X-Men in bed, same title, years apart with two very different Xteams. What a nutty day, I was so stressed I had a panick attack!!! Had to do some zen breathing. I freaking grew up swordfighting for real, archery, combat, bullied everyday at school.... no it's my fathers birthday and I had a panick attack while cooking pie... Then once I centerd myself I hear the elderly dieing next door neighbour shouting. He's phoned the police demanding they move my bins from Infront of my garage door and arrest everyone for it. He won't listen to logic from them or anyone else and after threatening cival unrest, he screams at us and the police we all have shit for brains and waddles into his house. THIS is why guns are illegal in the UK, because people are fruitcakes. Zen breathing is me closing my eyes, breathing in deeply through the nose and out through the mouth while inside I remind myself of how little I control the world. By accepting your lack of control you can release stress and regain control of your OWN actions. Release, accept and re-new. For example, I carnt do everyone's commission's and rewards in an instant when I'm late, but I can work hard on each one and do my best. Be honest, apologise to those I need to and produce good artwork. Accept and re-new. It can be hard accepting you suffer from stress, because stress is different for everyone, it's triggerd differently in everyone. I never used to have it. I grew up being able to talk to anyone about anything. But four years into artcolledge/university I burnt out in my late twenties. Suddenly people made me swet when they talked to me in the real world. I felt pressure to be freindly when I wanted to go home and hide lol. Everything became a confrontation even if it was pleasant. This wasn't helped by what felt like manic depression. One minute your happy, then two seconds later for no reason at all your down low and wish you were dead. I realised, slowly, that a big part of my manic depression was brain chemicals. My logic was our brains make a mix of chemicals for operating. Like they do for fight or flight.... But sometimes our brain makes a slightly wrong mix, causing depression which then worsens with emotional or situational triggers!!!. I almost never ate fruit. I got a nutribullet and used it to make fruit smoothys everyday. Nothing big, a banana and apple with soya milk and any bonus fruit I had. The change was almost instant. I felt stronger, I was able to handle depression waves and 98%overcome them because I was feeding my body and brain raw fuel. I then retrained my mind to accept my weakness and acknowledge my strengths. No easy task if you've ever had depression. But your rebuilding your self. Today, 36 I almost never get depression. I also don't get colds. Only the hardcore winter flu. I know this is a heavy post, but if your like me at all perhaps anything I type could help you, and that's only a good thing. It can also help you understand someone with stress or depression. It's not their fault because biologically our body's are like cars, get the wrong fuel mix and they fuck up, causing other problems for the mind. You carnt help someone easily but you can understand someone. So yes I felt a stress today. But with my Zen Breathing I slowed myself down and realised what was happening to me. On Thursday I plan to hit some Patreon Rewards and commission's, you bunch get to see them as I work on them. I never feel I'm oversharing because undersharing is what can cause problems .