Daily Doodle Diary #9

Hi all, 

Here's another batch of Daily Doodles from my Diary!

This batch is patchy, as I kind of lost a lot of momentum in May, and dropped the ball as a result in June.
May has always been a tough month for me, as it's my birthday month, and my mother died in an accident a few days before my 9th birthday, so each May, when spring comes round and my birthday is near, I get quite tired and feel emotionally quite fragile. It was all accentuated further this year because my paternal grand-mother's funeral happened a few days after my birthday. Because of Covid, the funeral was short and sweet, and we had to all be socially distant. Plus, my father wasn't able to be present, as he lives in France. I thought I was doing ok for a while, and then, once the funeral was over, it all hit me like a ton of bricks, and I felt completely drained for a while. So finding the energy for daily sketches, and even more so, the motivation to feel like it was a worthwhile exercise, when all I wanted to do was stay in bed, was quite tough.
I managed to stay fairly productive with other aspects of work, such as the big painting I have been updating you about these last few weeks, but for some reasons, daily doodles fell a little to the wayside. 

So quite a few days are missing in those last few weeks.
But I don't mind too much, the point of this exercise was never to put pressure on myself. I am proud of how many days I managed in May (25/31), and I still have the rest of the year to get back into a healthy rhythm with it.
Sometimes life comes in the way, and it's ok. 

Sorry if this story is a little bit dark, I am feeling much better now, and have been taking care of myself. I just felt like I needed to explain why I've been in a bit of a darker mood lately, and a bit patchier with producing work.
Thank you to all of you for always being supportive and lovely! :) 

Do you have a favourite from this batch?
Mine are probably 17 and 20!

On May 15, I felt so unmotivated I decided to just have fun and be silly. 

Decided to be silly again for the 17th.
18 reminded me of something for ages, and I finally figured out I was thinking of Audra Auclair's Oniberri logo, haha. 

May 21st, I started the sketch and then had a very sudden and dramatic drop in energy, and felt very down and sad very abruptly, so I gave up on the drawing halfway through. 

On the 27th, I tried to keep it simple. I wanted to draw but also didn't have any energy, as I had just driven back from the funeral.
On the 28th, I was very down, and was binge watching Ghibli movies. I think that both those facts are pretty apparent in the drawing...

June 1st, I didn't know what to draw, so my boyfriend suggested a house with legs. It made me smile, so I went along with it. Turns out it wasn't what he had in mind, hahaha. 

June 2nd was another idea from my boyfriend ; a person with a plant as an umbilical cord. I got very frustrated with this drawing, it was one of those days where I just couldn't draw. My brain seemed to have forgotten everything. I'll try the idea again at some point, probably with a baby this time. I literally threw the sketchbook across the room in frustration on that day, ha. It happens. 

June 4th, gave my boyfriend's "house with legs" idea another go. Closer to what he had in mind but I think he was thinking more of a house with centipede-like tiny legs. Might try again...All I can really think of is Babayaga's chicken-legged house though, hahaha. 

And here we go for now. 

I'm starting to feel the energy to draw every day coming back slowly, which feels good. 

I haven't only been finding sketching in this diary difficult, but sketching in general. I am simply not in the mood to sketch at the moment. I am in the mood to spend some time on a big piece and work on that for a while. So I have been doing that.
But starting to work more regularly in my diary again might bring back some of my love for drawing. We'll see. One thing at a time. :) 

I hope you are all well lovely people, 

Speak soon and lots of love,
M