Mental Health

On Tuesday, our VCS provider sort of imploded and we stayed up late to recover it. It was quite an event but we pulled it off without any downtime.

Last night I successfully deployed a massive but risky network infrastructure change. It caused issues with other services but I was able to fix everything and wake up to a still-running system this morning.

I didn't realize how much my self-confidence tumbled since leaving Shiftwise. Working at Aula took a big toll and the Snap project practically traumatized me. And having to learn a bunch of new technologies on the fly has been rough, too.

I was unemployed for most of Q1 and Q2 of 2020. Federal COVID relief was extremely helpful but since I worked as a consultant briefly in 2020, I did not qualify for unemployment or State COVID relief.

I had a consulting gig lined up early in the year but that fell through. And then I worked at Shoobx for a month before I was laid off due to COVID.

The Snap project is what got me by until Shoobx rehired me. The stress of the project was absolutely terrible but I had no choice because all passive income had stopped by this point.

I tried investing myself into the YouTube channel by focusing on weekly Distro Delves episodes as a money-making endeavor but it was a complete failure. Admittedly, I didn't market the channel as well as I could have but the idea of turning the channel into a sustainable business was (and still is) a pipedream.

I had no idea the past few years had taken such a toll on my mental health. I am so incredibly thankful to finally have a good stable job again, even if there is a lot to learn.

I am also infinitely grateful for you guys and the community on YouTube. Being able to write posts here and socialize with people on the live streams is an essential social outlet and I would probably meltdown without it.

Now that my head is in a better place, I can start thinking about tangible plans for Egee, the channel(s), and more fun content that everybody will enjoy!