muted WIP (and kan ends up rambling again for 2 years)

i've been working hard on the next MUTED update and guess who'll be back?? ✨

this update will take a little longer, but it will be posted to patreon before the month ends! in the meantime i'll upload the first part of the Q &A for $5 patrons after i have posted this :)

some more rambling from my side to keep you in the loop: after the last update, which you know has been a weird struggle for me, i almost felt scared of starting the next part. i had the script all figured out but i couldn't bring myself to start drawing, i still didn't feel ready and like i could do it? i still don't feel ready, not completely, but definitely better than the previous weeks.

to be honest, i have been working on things all over the place, i worked on some commissions that are still on my list (the commission struggle is a whole 'nother topic that i keep wrecking my brains over), i worked on some scenery designs for shallow sleep and did some more character sketches, i did some studies to practise things i can't draw well, but mostly, drawing still feels kinda off sometimes. so i ended up writing a lot instead to use my time as productively as i can.

i wrote down the entire script for shallow sleep, i have the dialogues figured out, i have it all planned through, which is rare for me, but in this case i felt it was important, because i want to SAY something with this story, have wanted to for over 10 years when i first created the characters. but figuring out how i want to visualise my thoughts was quite a process. it's always been a story about death and dealing with grief in one way or another and most of you know that this has been an always present topic in my life for the entire year, due to losing my friend in february and having to deal with the aftermath in more ways than i could have expected.

so, yeah. i did a lot of thinking, i came to a conclusion for myself, and i want to tell this story as good as i possibly can. (no pressure lol)

where was i going with this?

ah yeah.

i wrote a lot, instead of drawing, which is something i can't share with you guys, but i will be able to show more things soon! and for the past couple days i had enough extra energy to power through MUTED, which is GOOD. it'll be 7 pages, the lineart is done, i'll start colouring tomorrow and then the update should come next week x)

my physical health got a little worse again, but i still managed to push through with at least 5-7 hours of drawing time each day and i'm GLAD i found the strength to do that, to remind my brain, that i can do SO MUCH if i just manage to get up and DO it without pondering forever if i CAN do it. if that makes sense.

i hope you're all well, i'm excited to share the next MUTED parts with y'all, we're reaching an important part of the story soon and i hope you're a little excited too ; ;)

thank you for being so patient with me!

PS: i'll get to messages and comments as soon as i can, too!! ✨