An update

Hello everyone,

I've been thinking very seriously about what I'm doing with Octavius. For the last couple of months, just the thought of opening my editing software makes me feel sick. And then I think about you lot, supporting me and getting nothing back, and I feel worse.

Well, I've been thinking hard about how to actually start, you know, not being a bit shit. And I think it's time for me to go back to my roots, to a certain extent.

When this became my job and what pays the rent, I made changes to my style. And those changes were done to tick boxes. Want to get sponsorship? Better cut the lewd jokes that about 30% of people don't get. Want to not have trolls call me a slut? Stop being a flirty character. Want more views? Review stuff with high search volumes.

But when I started ticking those boxes, I stopped doing what I enjoyed so much - making utterly batshit crazy videos, with shitty green-screen and ridiculous story-lines that more often than not make no sense.

This last year has hit me hard mentally. Horace-gate fucked me up beyond repair, I think. A "supporter" telling me he was going to kill himself if I didn't respond, then emailing me pretending to be his parents saying he was dead...I can't tell you how much that shagged me up. Every thought about my channel is coupled with a "what-if?" And all of them are nasty what-ifs. And most of them are what-ifs that have already happened.

So I've been so careful since all that happened not to make jokes that offend. I've slashed out green-screen scenes, jokes about breasts, I've killed the charm of Octavius because of what the minority of people want - and that minority of people want to see me fail. And they will always be there, waiting to see it happen. I've second-guessed every single script I've written in the last 2 months, I've filmed Rats and Tat videos and not edited them in case people are angry to see more rat videos. I have developed a phobia for going on to YouTube studio, and a considerable phobia of coming on here.

But the thing is, I used to stay up 24 hours at a time just to finish videos. Not because I felt like I HAD to, but because I Was excited to create something so wild, wacky and mental. One of my oldest supporters once told me "you're madder than a box a frogs", and I actually loved that.

What I'm saying is, I'm going to stop caring about me from people who despise me. I'm going to stop caring about the angry businessmen pissed off that I'm making the rent through this. I'm going to stop making videos about consoles and games simply because I know they will get views, I'm going to stop cutting jokes about Octy being single even though it means I'll get inundated with emails from men offering dates (yes, that happens EVERY time I do a joke in a video about Octy being single and a hopeless romantic).

I know that moving away from focusing on popular topics and making videos less informative will not be everyone's cup of tea, and I do expect to lose supporters over it. However, there's already a wealth of fantastic YouTube creators in this field who have the informational and more serious side of things covered. I want to be that box of frogs, croaking in the corner while Nostalgia Nerd talks about the specs of an A500. Because I find that image utterly hilarious.

By the way, you can find me on Twitch every Monday, Wednesday and Friday night. My streams are always mental. They are always that box of frogs. I've got various characters I play and I have the biggest laugh,even though I don't get an enormous amount of viewers I have a wonderful time and I want to move that fun into my videos.

Please do come say hi on twitch if you haven't already.

And now - stay tuned. Because Octavius King is utterly mental, and the videos are going to be too. Simply writing this post and knowing that I'm about to go back over some scripts I've written and make them more mental has got me excited to do them. Because it's fun, and because I want to keep making you lot smile.

Thank you, you beautiful bastards. Please enjoy this photo of Professor Flapjacks being momentarily distracted from drinking the blood of his enemies x