Another Update
Added 2018-01-15 21:09:06 +0000 UTCHi guys :)
You've probably noticed I've been a bit manic in how I've been on my social channels recently. Basically, I'm really very very sick right now but I'm having a nightmare pulling together help.
I was refered to a NHS service by my GP, went through all the screening and tests and all that and they decided that I am in the highest risk segment - which means I'm not suitable for their services.
So they then said they would refer me to another service, which deals more specifically with alcohol addiction. Not actually a problem I have although I admit in the last few days I have been dealing with this mess by drinking too much, but whatever, I just want help. A week later I find out that the service in question only takes self-referrals. So then I have to somehow get over my huge anxiety just to pick up a phone or write an email and I have just sent them an email explaining my situation after literally 2 days of psyching myself up to do it.
I've got to say, at this point I feel helpless. My Octav1us videos were the only thing not so affected by my anxiety, but I have started to notice that when I open Twitter or even Premiere Pro to start editing, I am more and more likely to feel anxious. My current review I am working on should have been done by now, but I'm full of fear about nothing. I can't explain it.
I'm not sure what's happening right now. I'll keep going as best I can.
Please wait for me xx
