hibbary

08-12-18 Update

Added 2018-01-12 14:38:26 +0000 UTC

I spend a lot of time noodling on my work and not communicating about my work, which I need to do more of, especially for my Patrons.

I've been suffering some excruciating anxiety lately. This is not terribly unsual; it's a thing I've had since my earliest of 20's and it has never been so bad as the few years after it started. So, while not debilitating, it's slowed me down slightly.

What kicked this off? No idea. I have a hunch, actually, that it ratcheted up on account of a specific internet use, mainly feverishly clicking around to check on accounts rather than any kind of genuine life-stressor or change. I think getting outside more and curbing this behavior will chill it out. I'll do an experiment and see how it takes.

Having anxiety, I get a little lost sometimes as to what I'd like to work on or even what to think about. Spinning around in circles can be a real problem. If you guys ever get radio silence it's probably because I'm hunkered down somewhere in panicked confusion.

I've managed to keep up productivity fairly well in spite of it. Today I'll be playing with Punchbot and making a second pancake, which will be much better because I won't have to cut any paper and I'll be finishing the cover so it doesn't have rough edges. I MAY work on painting. Still spinning right now. We'll see where I land :P

I'll also be going through my older artwork and sharing some thoughts and critiques with my $10 and up Patrons. Looking through my past artwork will help me have more solid ideas about future artwork.