An Important Update - Do Not Skip

I am happy to say that, over the past month, my eyes have been getting better and my recovery is almost complete. This past month, as horrible as it was, brought with it an opportunity, which I am grateful for, to reflect on life. Over the next couple of paragraphs, I will share my resolution. If you just want the bottom line feel free to jump to the end.

Over the past decade, I've been writing smut. There were some on and off moments, but overall it was a fun and creative outlet for me. When I started doing 3DX it was like a second wind that unlocked many new pathways.

While it is fun to explore those new pathways they bring around pressure. This pressure has been present since day one, posting a story or an image and constantly refreshing the browser to check for new comments or signs of approval.

This shouldn’t come as a surprise, it is a natural thing we all experience, and has an addictive nature that is enjoyable. The rush of excitement when a new comment is up, the delight of getting a good review… It is exhilarating.

Unfortunately, this was a mask for something else. This “something” didn't happen overnight, it was a slow and gradual process.  A couple of months ago, the stress that came with the expectation became overwhelming. Suddenly, I was fighting to keep up, holding my head above the water. Expectations were never-ending. The race was on and I was lagging behind.

Let me take a step back and be clear for a moment… There is no race, no expectations. I am blessed with super supportive patrons (love you guys) who are always willing to accept all my issues and shortcomings with a smile and a kind word. Everything I just brought up was in my head, and that is the problem…

Over the past months, I’ve been dealing with a silent issue, one you can’t just brush under the carpet. I haven’t been fully diagnosed yet, but I am dealing with some degree of depression.

I am sure this might come off as a shock to some people, (it was for me…) but it is what it is. I believe the best way to deal with those kinds of things is to drag them into the light as they thrive in the darkness.

So there it is: I am dealing with depression…

First and foremost do not worry about me, depression is no joke and I am fully aware of its ability to push people to the darkest of places. I have worked with people who faced depression in my line of work and I have seen where this road leads when the issue isn’t addressed. I am seeing a therapist on a regular basis and am working hard on leaving the dark place I’m currently in. I have every intention of sticking around to see my baby girls growing up.

One of the steps I feel are necessary (and my therapist agrees) is dimming the stress in my life. This is why I have decided to take a year-long hiatus so I can focus on overcoming this problem. It doesn’t mean I will stop creating as it is an outlet I enjoy, it will not be on a monthly basis, that’s all.

Now for the technical bit, I will not be posting any regular content during the year-long hiatus. Because of that, you will not be charged anything during the hiatus. The website will still be up and all sets will be available just like before (new patrons will still be charged as they gain access to all past content). Once the hiatus ends, I will reevaluate the situation and decide on the future.

I apologize for this abrupt holdup, but I am sure you understand how urgent the matter is. If you want to talk to me, or if anything is unclear, please reach out to me as I will still be getting notifications from here and Discoed.

I thank you all,

Neolime69