Every wannabe artist ends up portraying clowns. That's as inevitable as tomorrow or - I dunno - a next iPhone or yet another acroamatic Trump's tweet or so on. You're just gonna have to accept the fact - irrespective to your firmness and self-control, without any taint of leniency for your coyness, sooner or later - the clowns have to come. Here's what I think you should do in a moment of exacerbation. First off, don't try to fight it! It makes no sense and you will face to pain and things just get worse for you. The clowns are much stronger than your frivolity, your listlessness and even the last sheet-anchor - your lack of talent. So, forget it. Secondly, go somewhere to find a secluded spot and do what people do... without further ado. And finally, share the result unabashedly so that others can sure - you've gone through and acquire the immunity and there is no further need for them to keep you at a tasteful distance. You've to be socially responsible today, you know.