Forwarding the Podcast to next month

I'm really sorry, but in between doing videos, the holidays, and the general and constant stress & anxiety that is my apartment, it's surprisingly hard to find some time to just sit my ass down, and talk to a camera with a smile on my face. Not like I'm super unhappy all the time or anything, quite the contrary, but my current living situation is like a time bomb of anxiety that feels like it can go off at any moment. During regular day to day life, I can set that aside well enough, but it makes recording these short 20 minutes podcast a weirdly daunting obstacle. 

Good news however, is that I'll be moving half way through next month. So next patrone will be in new place, with no more anxiety for me, and answers to all of the questions you asked for this month, and probably also a bit more explanation then just saying "muh anxiety". Which is also why I'm forwarding it. I'm beyond done dealing with this shit, and now that there's light at the end of the tunnel, I'd rather just wait it out for a few weeks then push myself through feeling like shit while doing something that should be a positive fun occasion. Which I mean, it IS! ..just not right now. 

Sorry about this, in any case. If my upload schedule is anything to go by, I'm really not the type of person to stall shit like this, but right now it's out of my control in a way that I simply can't deal with after so many years. I was gonna do it right now, even. My mic and camera were set up. But right as I sat down, it was like a bomb of aggression went off next door, and given some of the shit I went through as kid, I can't really brush that aside like other people can, especially considering who I'm living with here. 

At least when this is over 2 or 3 weeks from now, I don't have that uncertainty to deal with, and can just record the podcasts comfortably with zero issues holding me back like this. 

Happy Holidays and all that,

Thor