Sorry, I slept long: TLDR why? cuz many reasons.

I hate making people wait for a stream,a video,a post or update. I'm going back to NOT announcing plans. It also motivates me more. I'm kinda like that, same with gifts and presents : best reason to give/surprise is "just because ", not on dates scheduled to give. It's boring and firced if announced already.

I set alarms and all but I have no control over sleeping. I will lay there waiting to sleep some nights and others, 14 hours go by. I get checked on with call/text but then fall right back asleep for 3-4 hours...sometimes 8. I almost understand with the 20-30 hr days.

But yeah, my body shuts down, I'm on some meds for it. It's also double stacked with long covid from 2022(wearing bad mask in post office lines). So with other issues it's super stacked, 2 I'm not getting treatment for since we don't understand (for now one starts with M). The migraine injections are painful but are the best thing helping me of all things, mostly for tinnitus and the hyperacusis. Note that! 🤘

🙁 sometimes the body just…gives up ..... and not just from some busy work schedule, cuz I been there too, it's nothing compared to having medical issues forcing you to swim up stream. You can't just get another job , change friends or move to another town to make health issues go away.

I'm mad that I can't do and show what I have, and a lot goes wasted, it's mental torture because I'm into so many things. The mental impact with numerous health stuff starts to snowbal, in addition to society's impact,loss of time, and people acting like their bad day is somehow the worst thing in the world every day and they're "dying " or some extreme cranky garbage. I try not to let it affect life, but I gotta say...I have a lot of dam weird hurdles. Probably why demongirl stuff is all relatable✌️

Sorry, it feels wrong if I don't explain why stuff isn't "done" or done yet, another constant child/life/work horror pushed on me, I'm putting my foot down to not push above reasonable expectations on myself. But my peeps deserve to KNOW dammit.